On_the_Top
Senior Don Juan
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I’ m tired of it…
Tired off all the bull****, games, and being suspicious of everyone’s motives. No…not from women (I know how to deal with that) but I’m tired of me. Yes I know women will always play their little games and have their test, it’s the way of the world and there are ways around it them but I don’t know how many times I have set myself up for failure with a lot of girls by playing games and doing some mind screwing of my own. I just tired of it… tired of every time that I meet a new broad or get a new number I have a plan out my avenue of attack like a great tactician, probing, defending, attacking, till the battle is over and we’re at a stale mate. Times I have spent “planning”, strategizing, sarging, or whatever, I could have been studying, catching up on some work, working out, reading, maintaining order, playing video games, or a million other things. I just don’t feel like it anymore. Don’t feel like going out with the sole purpose of trying to hit on women or be “seen.” I just want go out have fun, mind my own business, and be left to my own devices. I don’t feel like making sure my clothes coordinate every time I step out (still not going out looking like crap.) I don’t feel like dealing with games and bs nor do I feel like playing them or dishing out my own. I just want to live my life with no hassles and drama, work hard to make it to the top, and do my own thing. My greatest enemy has not been another alpha male who wants to challenge me, the evil bastard who is gunning for me to fail (though it seems like everyone is), or a jealous boyfriend who thinks I’m after his girl. My whole life, and before knowing what an “alpha” or “AFC” was, I have had to deal with stuff like that and so I know how to deal with it when confronted. My greatest opponent has been me and all the self absorbed BS and hype “I” created for my self. I have been here for over two and a half yrs and before that was heavy into David-D’s stuff and lately I have realized that I am back to square one. It’s not about the numbers, playing, being “it” or even finding the “one.” I’m not knocking sosuave or what it others have learned from it because it has turned me somewhere in the right direction. For it was here that I learned to walk with my “head up and shoulders back” and I learned the importance of looking another man in the eye. But maybe I have taken it all too far, for most people find me intimidating, rude, threatening, or at times cold. Maybe I have taken “I’m the prize” to seriously cause I look down on those in my peer group yet have no problem conversing with, relating to, or getting along with those much older than I am. Or it could be insecurity, masked buy insecurity, all wrapped up in a blanket of insecurity. Whatever it is, I have to stop finding excuses for it and fix it, fast. I don’t know but it just seems like something is missing and I need to take a permanent leave to find it.
Best of luck to all of you and thank you for the knowledge given.
Tired off all the bull****, games, and being suspicious of everyone’s motives. No…not from women (I know how to deal with that) but I’m tired of me. Yes I know women will always play their little games and have their test, it’s the way of the world and there are ways around it them but I don’t know how many times I have set myself up for failure with a lot of girls by playing games and doing some mind screwing of my own. I just tired of it… tired of every time that I meet a new broad or get a new number I have a plan out my avenue of attack like a great tactician, probing, defending, attacking, till the battle is over and we’re at a stale mate. Times I have spent “planning”, strategizing, sarging, or whatever, I could have been studying, catching up on some work, working out, reading, maintaining order, playing video games, or a million other things. I just don’t feel like it anymore. Don’t feel like going out with the sole purpose of trying to hit on women or be “seen.” I just want go out have fun, mind my own business, and be left to my own devices. I don’t feel like making sure my clothes coordinate every time I step out (still not going out looking like crap.) I don’t feel like dealing with games and bs nor do I feel like playing them or dishing out my own. I just want to live my life with no hassles and drama, work hard to make it to the top, and do my own thing. My greatest enemy has not been another alpha male who wants to challenge me, the evil bastard who is gunning for me to fail (though it seems like everyone is), or a jealous boyfriend who thinks I’m after his girl. My whole life, and before knowing what an “alpha” or “AFC” was, I have had to deal with stuff like that and so I know how to deal with it when confronted. My greatest opponent has been me and all the self absorbed BS and hype “I” created for my self. I have been here for over two and a half yrs and before that was heavy into David-D’s stuff and lately I have realized that I am back to square one. It’s not about the numbers, playing, being “it” or even finding the “one.” I’m not knocking sosuave or what it others have learned from it because it has turned me somewhere in the right direction. For it was here that I learned to walk with my “head up and shoulders back” and I learned the importance of looking another man in the eye. But maybe I have taken it all too far, for most people find me intimidating, rude, threatening, or at times cold. Maybe I have taken “I’m the prize” to seriously cause I look down on those in my peer group yet have no problem conversing with, relating to, or getting along with those much older than I am. Or it could be insecurity, masked buy insecurity, all wrapped up in a blanket of insecurity. Whatever it is, I have to stop finding excuses for it and fix it, fast. I don’t know but it just seems like something is missing and I need to take a permanent leave to find it.
Best of luck to all of you and thank you for the knowledge given.