@Barbu , you don’t realize it, but this girl is your “pretend” girlfriend. She is partially fulfilling that need in you, hence your inclination to white knight.
You are dissipating your energy with her. The energy that you should be harnessing toward finding a woman is leaking away from you.
It’s the same dynamic as how excessively playing video games dissipates a man’s ambition. Each man has a certain need to accomplish. When that need is satisfied in virtual video game accomplishments, there is little drive to actually accomplish in the real world, because your thirst for success has been satisfied.
You really should consider what your pretend girlfriend is satisfying in you. There is absolutely no such thing as a platonic relationship with a woman. Each party is receiving partially what they want and need from a mate.
There is more going on here than meets the eye. You’re dealing with some very experienced men on this forum. We’ve been through it all. We are trying to wake you up to a more objective assessment of your relationship with her.
You love her smile and her feminine ways, don’t you? You love the way she looks up to you for advice, correct? All this is satisfying your drive to find a woman.
We humans are prone to be very sure of our motivations, but wise is the man who at least seriously considers the counsel of men with experience and insight.