High school hasn't been the best time for me. Out of the past 3 years, I really only have 1 and a half worth remembering. I have only kissed one girl... Twice... And it sucked cuz I really didn't even like her that much and she flaked on me 3 times.
I can talk to girls... And I do a good amount of the time. ( not so much over the summer) But the problem is making something happen.
This definitely happened two times last year...
Ex. 1. This girl sat next to me in one of my classes. I don't even know how it got started, but she was flirting hardcore all the time and violating my personal space.
she was pretty hot, but kind of emoish... Anywyay I asked her to homecoming and didn't show up. ( yeah, a **** move, but I couldn't bring myself to) I told her I wasn't attracted to her. (A lie) and we stayed friends.
Ex. 2. Another girl that sat next to me in class. She was new. Anyway, I didn't really start anything. We just kinda had casual conversation and one day, seemingly out of the blue, she goes nuts and makes me really uncomfortable, yet turned on at the same time. I really didnt reciprocate, so after a few awkward days, we stopped talking. A short while later, she got into a relationship with another guy.
I don't know exactly what made me do those things, but I tend to push people away when they get close. I really don't have any close friends because of this. I can talk to almost anyone at school. I do all the time. I look confident on the outside, but on the inside, I'm scared $hitless. I've been working on changing my personality for a long time. I used to be so shy, I couldn't talk to anyone, so I guess I'm making progress.
I can talk to girls... And I do a good amount of the time. ( not so much over the summer) But the problem is making something happen.
This definitely happened two times last year...
Ex. 1. This girl sat next to me in one of my classes. I don't even know how it got started, but she was flirting hardcore all the time and violating my personal space.
she was pretty hot, but kind of emoish... Anywyay I asked her to homecoming and didn't show up. ( yeah, a **** move, but I couldn't bring myself to) I told her I wasn't attracted to her. (A lie) and we stayed friends.Ex. 2. Another girl that sat next to me in class. She was new. Anyway, I didn't really start anything. We just kinda had casual conversation and one day, seemingly out of the blue, she goes nuts and makes me really uncomfortable, yet turned on at the same time. I really didnt reciprocate, so after a few awkward days, we stopped talking. A short while later, she got into a relationship with another guy.
I don't know exactly what made me do those things, but I tend to push people away when they get close. I really don't have any close friends because of this. I can talk to almost anyone at school. I do all the time. I look confident on the outside, but on the inside, I'm scared $hitless. I've been working on changing my personality for a long time. I used to be so shy, I couldn't talk to anyone, so I guess I'm making progress.
