Johnny Alias
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Hey guys. Thanks for all the feedback you've given recently. I have to say I'm dumbstruck by what's happened to me. After breaking up with my cluster b of 4 years she moved in with another dude almost immediately... And started mirroring him like she did with me... And people are deserting her in droves because he's a mega douche bodybuilder philandering narcissist... They liked her mirroring me... I'm a nice guy. Acquaintances and friends she's known for YEARS are running from her. When it's all over she's going to be alone, penniless, and more wrinkly (she's 43) Hopefully she'll have a black eye and DUI too. Karmic retribution.
I made a list of all the things she did confirming her cluster B state and SOME examples. I've already mentioned the mirroring:
Ex Stripper - 55% of which have BPD.
Childhood abuse - Major neglect and I'm pretty sure someone tickled her too hard.
Cheating on husband - With me... Two years.
Moved crazy fast - Banged on first date. L bombs dropped almost immediately.
Child like voice - Yup and often.
Rage attacks - Every few weeks between the good times. Scary as hell. Almost got thrown off a plane, ran out of home several times to make sure I didn't smack her. 80% of rages were when wasted drunk.
Doesn't ever accept blame - Ever. Apologies only came if it was something she couldn't possibly deny or twist around. Otherwise no mention or just shut down when confronted.
Substance abuse - Boozer. Drank almost everyday. Hammered four times a week. Weed everyday. Coke. Painkillers.
Bisexual - It's a symptom even if we like it.
Lying - Happened to ex husband and me in end when narcissistic supply was no longer putting up with her crap.
Highly dependent. - Incapable of responsibility. No job. Can't pay tickets, taxes, whatever. 6 year old. HAS to be in a relationship and cannot stand on own two feet... or stilletos...
Splitting of friends, family, lovers - Evil or Good. Period. Very little empathy.
Spoke of Abusive exes - Ex hub was a piece of **** as I am now. Tried to Hoover an old one and got caught by new wife.
Nothing was ever good enough - would always find a reason to complain.
Constant Health Problems - some real some not. Puked a few times for days straight due to ulcer caused by drinking. Bad knee, kneck, back from multiple car wrecks (none her fault). Also just sick often from partying, poor diet, and sporadic exercise. Some **** she pulled in end where I took her to hospital were lies to rope me back in like phantom kidney stones... Or she's got acute pancreatitis which is NOT a good sign if you're a hard drinker.
Depressed and anxious often - self medicated with booze. Got her a Xanax script instead. She said they just put her to sleep. I said take less. Didn't happen.
Revisionist memory - Who can trust the memories of someone who can't take blame and is a drunk??
No sense of time - I used to tease her about this. Weeks ago were days ago. Months ago were weeks ago. Weird. Seriously.
Lives off Drama - looked forward to friend she was mad at coming to a party... So she could attack her.
False Initmacy - was inconsolable when a fellow Cluster B committed suicide... Who she only hung out with 5 times... And treated her like crap on two of those occasions.
Goddamn. I wanted to fix this? My ego needs a thorough beating with a large stick. I will NEVER do a long term deal with a gal that needs Help again! God. What a vampire.
I know now that it was all fake... And thank god she isn't younger and that her smoking hot looks are almost gone due to all her partying... and winter is here when she gets fat due to drinking, pounding piles of cheese, and not working out. Thank you baby Jesus.
I do still get a bit sad occasionally... and am not looking forward to purging my FB account of her face... though I think it needs to be done.
Any more thoughts on these gals? She never exhibited any self harm behaviors... I wonder if the cutting thing is really as common as they say. Still kind of addicted to thinking about her like a drug. This NC this time around needs to be as solid as a rock. A friend of mine mentioned her last night and what she's doing. I told him I don't want to hear about it. It's like a mini bout of PTSD where I can feel my heart rate go up and get anxious. Woof.
I made a list of all the things she did confirming her cluster B state and SOME examples. I've already mentioned the mirroring:
Ex Stripper - 55% of which have BPD.
Childhood abuse - Major neglect and I'm pretty sure someone tickled her too hard.
Cheating on husband - With me... Two years.
Moved crazy fast - Banged on first date. L bombs dropped almost immediately.
Child like voice - Yup and often.
Rage attacks - Every few weeks between the good times. Scary as hell. Almost got thrown off a plane, ran out of home several times to make sure I didn't smack her. 80% of rages were when wasted drunk.
Doesn't ever accept blame - Ever. Apologies only came if it was something she couldn't possibly deny or twist around. Otherwise no mention or just shut down when confronted.
Substance abuse - Boozer. Drank almost everyday. Hammered four times a week. Weed everyday. Coke. Painkillers.
Bisexual - It's a symptom even if we like it.
Lying - Happened to ex husband and me in end when narcissistic supply was no longer putting up with her crap.
Highly dependent. - Incapable of responsibility. No job. Can't pay tickets, taxes, whatever. 6 year old. HAS to be in a relationship and cannot stand on own two feet... or stilletos...
Splitting of friends, family, lovers - Evil or Good. Period. Very little empathy.
Spoke of Abusive exes - Ex hub was a piece of **** as I am now. Tried to Hoover an old one and got caught by new wife.
Nothing was ever good enough - would always find a reason to complain.
Constant Health Problems - some real some not. Puked a few times for days straight due to ulcer caused by drinking. Bad knee, kneck, back from multiple car wrecks (none her fault). Also just sick often from partying, poor diet, and sporadic exercise. Some **** she pulled in end where I took her to hospital were lies to rope me back in like phantom kidney stones... Or she's got acute pancreatitis which is NOT a good sign if you're a hard drinker.
Depressed and anxious often - self medicated with booze. Got her a Xanax script instead. She said they just put her to sleep. I said take less. Didn't happen.
Revisionist memory - Who can trust the memories of someone who can't take blame and is a drunk??
No sense of time - I used to tease her about this. Weeks ago were days ago. Months ago were weeks ago. Weird. Seriously.
Lives off Drama - looked forward to friend she was mad at coming to a party... So she could attack her.
False Initmacy - was inconsolable when a fellow Cluster B committed suicide... Who she only hung out with 5 times... And treated her like crap on two of those occasions.
Goddamn. I wanted to fix this? My ego needs a thorough beating with a large stick. I will NEVER do a long term deal with a gal that needs Help again! God. What a vampire.
I know now that it was all fake... And thank god she isn't younger and that her smoking hot looks are almost gone due to all her partying... and winter is here when she gets fat due to drinking, pounding piles of cheese, and not working out. Thank you baby Jesus.
I do still get a bit sad occasionally... and am not looking forward to purging my FB account of her face... though I think it needs to be done.
Any more thoughts on these gals? She never exhibited any self harm behaviors... I wonder if the cutting thing is really as common as they say. Still kind of addicted to thinking about her like a drug. This NC this time around needs to be as solid as a rock. A friend of mine mentioned her last night and what she's doing. I told him I don't want to hear about it. It's like a mini bout of PTSD where I can feel my heart rate go up and get anxious. Woof.
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