comic_relief
Master Don Juan
Hey guys,
Life was good up until two days ago.
I went to see the movie, "Freedom Writers", but the one Holocaust survivor was in there. I met him a while before and he told me about the stories that he had in Buchenwald. I just stuffed those memories into a closet in my mind that I didn't want to be opened again. It was a very emotional doorway that has some other things that I don't want to go over anymore.
Then yesterday, I was reading my psychology textbook about bipolars, BPD, and schizophrenia. It opened that doorway all the way open, and everything came out at once. The death of my grandfather, the suicide of my cousin because of a bipolar woman, and some circumstances with my exgirlfriend. It was as if my mental state took a 180 degree change. I went from High Self-Esteem to Low Self-Esteem and hit a depression in my mood. I asked my room mate to leave the dorm room and I started to cry for the first time in a long time.
Today, I just hit rock bottom in the morning to mid-afternoon. First, my contacts fvcked up my eyes. I actually had to get sleep and almost get to the Health Services Building. Then, it was as if my thoughts were dying off. I was lethargic in my actions, excluding my philosophy class. Then, my professor of psychology started to talk about the diseases mentioned earlier and I left the room. Then, I went to my writing class and we spoke about war.
Two of my friends lost their lives in the Iraq war (not a political statement whatsoever), and it made me go back into my shell.
I didn't know what to do so I wrote this post in order to get my mind clear and think about what is really important. I believe it is time to get off of this damn pity pot.
In order to get myself on a high road, I will just list what I have going for me.
1.) 5.1% body fat percentage
2.) excellent communication skills
3.) Friends
4.) Plans for a biking exodus
5.) 3.22 GPA at Millersville University
6.) Three square meals per day
7.) Excellent ideas for a diabetes club at MU
Thanks for listening guys,
comic_relief
Life was good up until two days ago.
I went to see the movie, "Freedom Writers", but the one Holocaust survivor was in there. I met him a while before and he told me about the stories that he had in Buchenwald. I just stuffed those memories into a closet in my mind that I didn't want to be opened again. It was a very emotional doorway that has some other things that I don't want to go over anymore.
Then yesterday, I was reading my psychology textbook about bipolars, BPD, and schizophrenia. It opened that doorway all the way open, and everything came out at once. The death of my grandfather, the suicide of my cousin because of a bipolar woman, and some circumstances with my exgirlfriend. It was as if my mental state took a 180 degree change. I went from High Self-Esteem to Low Self-Esteem and hit a depression in my mood. I asked my room mate to leave the dorm room and I started to cry for the first time in a long time.
Today, I just hit rock bottom in the morning to mid-afternoon. First, my contacts fvcked up my eyes. I actually had to get sleep and almost get to the Health Services Building. Then, it was as if my thoughts were dying off. I was lethargic in my actions, excluding my philosophy class. Then, my professor of psychology started to talk about the diseases mentioned earlier and I left the room. Then, I went to my writing class and we spoke about war.
Two of my friends lost their lives in the Iraq war (not a political statement whatsoever), and it made me go back into my shell.
I didn't know what to do so I wrote this post in order to get my mind clear and think about what is really important. I believe it is time to get off of this damn pity pot.
In order to get myself on a high road, I will just list what I have going for me.
1.) 5.1% body fat percentage
2.) excellent communication skills
3.) Friends
4.) Plans for a biking exodus
5.) 3.22 GPA at Millersville University
6.) Three square meals per day
7.) Excellent ideas for a diabetes club at MU
Thanks for listening guys,
comic_relief
