nicksaiz65 Odyssey

[nicksaiz65]

Haircut Art and Wave Clout

Doing the back taper is kinda tricky. It seems to work best if I do one half of the head at a time. I need to watch more vids on it honestly. As long as I watch YouTube I'll be okay on the side taper. I'm not gonna zero gapped my clippers, I'll end up cutting myself. I'll do like the Walmart Clipper Challenge and just use liners and a razor.

If I mess up a taper, I'm just gonna get it fixed or hide it with a durag. Not gonna try and turn it into a burst fade. That cuts so much progress.

A famous Instagram Waver said that I need to rely on the mirror and progress pics. And my camera of course. And not brush in the morning. If I do that, and I'm putting in the work, I'll see results. Just like fitness.

All this stuff is super important cause once I really master it, the confidence and Cold Approach floodgates will open.

Composing

Im really learning lots about music theory and composition. One thing that I've learned is that I don't have to ditch triads just because I know about extended chords. This fixes the "7th chord problem" that I was having. I just have to think of them all as different tools in my toolbox.

 

[GrowingPains]

Yeah man people still talk about that dumb crap lol..

Yeah but don't feed into it and reinforce it by agreeing with them.

All of that is preposterous. Black, White, Asian, Mexican, whatever... can be intelligent. Can dress well. Can make good decisions. And can do the exact opposite of those things. Your race doesn't determine how you should behave/who you should like. Like what you want. Present yourself how you want. It has nothing to do with your skin color.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Yeah but don't feed into it and reinforce it by agreeing with them.

All of that is preposterous. Black, White, Asian, Mexican, whatever... can be intelligent. Can dress well. Can make good decisions. And can do the exact opposite of those things. Your race doesn't determine how you should behave/who you should like. Like what you want. Present yourself how you want. It has nothing to do with your skin color.

Sad how racism and stereotypes are still very much a thing

 

[nicksaiz65]

No excuse not to do well on this Nick. Do not postpone your studying, just because the test is postponed. Use the on-going postponements to study more. Use the time given, to insure you truly master the material and also ace the test. No excuse to be cramming Sunday evening/night. No excuse not to get a full night's sleep Sunday night so you feel well-rested, rejuvenated and at the top of your game when you take the test. Plan and act in your best interest! Make your choices accordingly. Study toady as if the test was tomorrow. Do the same again tomorrow. Become a master of the material.

I was just about to say the same thing myself. I just got back from the review and this material may be kind of tricky. So I'm starting TODAY. Maybe if I'm not an irresponsible ass-clown for once in my life then my life will improve.

I called my parents and told them about the improvement with my grades. I told them about my plan for taking summer classes and all that. Haven't called them in 3.5 weeks cause honestly, I thought they hated me for failing classes and thought I was an idiot. But they said they were proud of me for getting my grades up and as long as I made good grades this semester(which I will), they'd help me take summer classes.

I thought they had conditional love for me since I fvcked up so bad and lost my scholarship. But they'll still help me. As long as I let them know my plan in advance. Once I graduate, I'm gonna give these folks $40,000-$50,000 in compensation for my academic fvck ups.

But yeah. I'll still be studying really hard this weekend. This test is gonna be tough. I'll master it as you said.

Can we talk about the persona thing really quickly again? I don't even know how to live without putting on a mask/persona. Everything I do, I say "would it be cool if this YouTuber/PUA/whoever did this? And act based on that." And I use Reddit to like make every decision ever. My sister said it's like I'm not even living if I act like that, I'm just letting the internet live my life for me. Which is a really silly issue, but still warranted I think lol. Although if I succeed in the end, does it even matter?

 

[nicksaiz65]

She is right. Smart sister. There is only one you in ALL of the universe! It is like you are your own individual song. Be that! Live that! Live Nick! Tune into what is authentically true for you! Don't try to be someone else's song. Don't try to be a re-make. Be YOUR song! What is true for you? What is your impulse? What makes YOUR heart happy? What is TRUE for you? LIVE THAT!!

If you spend your life seeking others approval...at the end, what was the point? You have lived their life, not your own?

Do you like the music you like? Or do you like the music the internet tells you to like?
Do like to play the instrument you like? Or do you ply the instrument the internet tells you to play?
Do you like the girl you are attracted to? Or do you like the girl the internet tells you to be attracted to?
Do you compose music that comes from within you? Or do you compose music to please the internet?
Do you wear clothes that make you feel good about you? Do you wear clothes that the internet tells you to wear?

Whose song are you singing????

There is only 1 you in all the universe!!! Only you can sing/play YOUR song!!

Are you hiding behind others or are you stepping out and singing/playing YOUR song-- full out for all to see/hear???

Thanks. That's really good to hear now cause the struggle is real.

Isn't it crazy how I just wanted to improve my Game a bit and now this is a whole journey of life re-invention and Self Discovery?

 

[nicksaiz65]

Music Composition

New year new Nick right? Well one thing I'm NOT gonna do this year is embarrass myself by posting half baked trash beats. I need to ask the Redditors how to deal with that. How do I know when it's presentable?

 

[mrgoodstuff]

Music Composition

New year new Nick right? Well one thing I'm NOT gonna do this year is embarrass myself by posting half baked trash beats. I need to ask the Redditors how to deal with that. How do I know when it's presentable?

3d's-discipline. Be the man. KNOW it.

 

[GrowingPains]

Tricky lil situation huh..

Thanks. That's really good to hear now cause the struggle is real.

Isn't it crazy how I just wanted to improve my Game a bit and now this is a whole journey of life re-invention and Self Discovery?

I think the manosphere and its concepts are good for explaining things. And for making you more situationally aware. For example, you went on a date and it didn't result in a second date. You read some stuff on the internet so you know it's likely you didn't do something or you did something she subconsciously/consciously didn't like. So you can experiment and try not to do that thing again instead of thinking you need to buy the next girl roses and win her heart by being full blown nice guy.

But you shouldn't lose yourself in applying these things. I think that's one of the things that makes it come off as creepy when you approach a girl. If you're just rolling off some routine without any authenticity, it's creepy. If it's forced, it comes off as creepy. But if you just relax and talk to her like she's a human being, I'm sure everything will work out fine. I practiced it today. Here's what it looked like:

I met a girl in the gym the other day, and she was thicc boiii. So I just went over and asked what she was training for, because she was going hard af and looked like she knew what she was doing (being myself, I had a normal question that crossed my mind and I was curious so I asked it). She said she was training for 'me' and the convo carried on from there. Details unimportant, but we were just talking about working out and I learned some stuff about her. I got her number after saying maybe she could put me through a workout sometime (maybe I should've framed it differently, but who cares... can't be overthinking all the time. I just gave her me in that moment). So I see her in the gym the next day, I just say what's up and do my workout. I've learned from SS to not be all up in her grill and give her too much attention. I had a workout to do, a long one, so I waved and kept it moving. So now we've arrived at today. She's working out, some mf stole my squat rack and there happened to be one next to her. I head over. Obviously I wanted to talk to her when I got the chance but I wasn't forcing it. I just waited until we were both between sets and made eye contact. Let it happen, natural ting. We talked a couple times, each time I didn't really have a goal but to chat and maybe get to know her. I wasn't pressed to impress her, or ask her on a date, or touch her arm. I just talked. We found more commonalities. If something came to mind... I said it. I gave her me, in that moment (be yourself). For example, she was playing Cardi B. I hate Cardi B. So I joked on her about it. And she was like "I gotta hear some trap while I work out" so I responded "You mean some crap." I wasn't concerned with how she'd perceive it, I said what I wanted. (She was playfully offended and it worked out well. But the point is that I said what I wanted and what I felt and I was indifferent, another SS lesson). She proceeded with "I'm upset..." and I: "....50 thousand on my head that's disrespect " We were just vibin' man. And it was a cool interaction because I was myself. We ended up talking about doing something next weekend. I was not overthinking things in that interaction, and I think it paid off. I implemented some basic things I learned from SS but it wasn't like I was running some formula on her calculating her every move. It doesn't need to be like that.


Just read to become aware and then go live your life. You'll be more prepared after you read. You may not get it the first time, but the idea is to internalize it over time. Progress not perfection. Part of being a DJ is being yourself and being unapologetic about it. If people don't like you for you, then fvck 'em. You can want to improve and to be a better version but don't lose yourself.

I am confident that I'm a cool person. People will enjoy being around me if they give it a chance - if they don't want to... oh well, everything wasn't meant to be. I'm not saying that in a c0cky way, I'm just saying I know I'm not an @sshole or weird and I think I say some funny stuff/bring up interesting ideas. So generally why wouldn't the typical individual want to hang out with me? That's the kind of person I would want to hang out with. But when I start over-analyzing and reading my manosphere playbook play-by-play in real time, then things don't go well. I get stiff, weird, and do things I wouldn't normally do. Peep this whenever you have time. It put things into perspective for me in this regard:

 

[nicksaiz65]

3d's-discipline. Be the man. KNOW it.

The more I write, the better I get.

I've been doing hella reading on my music books. I can see my composing improving before my own eyes. Tutorials and books. By the way, I make EDM and Hip Hop.

The problems with composing are
1.) You're biased towards yourself
2.) It's completely subjective. It's not like programming or Math where it's right or it's wrong, it works or it doesn't. There is no "right answer."

I can't tell you how many times I've written something and thought "yo this is some heat! Then I wake up the next morning and it's actually garbage.

I did some research and there are 3 solutions to this:
1.) Sleep on it. Everyone wants their own composition to sound good. Or take a break and walk away for a bit. The key is to listen with fresh ears. Then you can neutrally judge your track. Wait to post tracks. Do you still like it two days later? Does it hold up? If a track is really good, it'll stand the short "test of time."
2.) Play it right after some established tracks. Does your own track hold up?
3.) Ask people on the internet. They'll give you honest neutral feedback.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Tricky lil situation huh..


I think the manosphere and its concepts are good for explaining things. And for making you more situationally aware. For example, you went on a date and it didn't result in a second date. You read some stuff on the internet so you know it's likely you didn't do something or you did something she subconsciously/consciously didn't like. So you can experiment and try not to do that thing again instead of thinking you need to buy the next girl roses and win her heart by being full blown nice guy.

But you shouldn't lose yourself in applying these things. I think that's one of the things that makes it come off as creepy when you approach a girl. If you're just rolling off some routine without any authenticity, it's creepy. If it's forced, it comes off as creepy. But if you just relax and talk to her like she's a human being, I'm sure everything will work out fine. I practiced it today. Here's what it looked like:

I met a girl in the gym the other day, and she was thicc boiii. So I just went over and asked what she was training for, because she was going hard af and looked like she knew what she was doing (being myself, I had a normal question that crossed my mind and I was curious so I asked it). She said she was training for 'me' and the convo carried on from there. Details unimportant, but we were just talking about working out and I learned some stuff about her. I got her number after saying maybe she could put me through a workout sometime (maybe I should've framed it differently, but who cares... can't be overthinking all the time. I just gave her me in that moment). So I see her in the gym the next day, I just say what's up and do my workout. I've learned from SS to not be all up in her grill and give her too much attention. I had a workout to do, a long one, so I waved and kept it moving. So now we've arrived at today. She's working out, some mf stole my squat rack and there happened to be one next to her. I head over. Obviously I wanted to talk to her when I got the chance but I wasn't forcing it. I just waited until we were both between sets and made eye contact. Let it happen, natural ting. We talked a couple times, each time I didn't really have a goal but to chat and maybe get to know her. I wasn't pressed to impress her, or ask her on a date, or touch her arm. I just talked. We found more commonalities. If something came to mind... I said it. I gave her me, in that moment (be yourself). For example, she was playing Cardi B. I hate Cardi B. So I joked on her about it. And she was like "I gotta hear some trap while I work out" so I responded "You mean some crap." I wasn't concerned with how she'd perceive it, I said what I wanted. (She was playfully offended and it worked out well. But the point is that I said what I wanted and what I felt and I was indifferent, another SS lesson). She proceeded with "I'm upset..." and I: "....50 thousand on my head that's disrespect " We were just vibin' man. And it was a cool interaction because I was myself. We ended up talking about doing something next weekend. I was not overthinking things in that interaction, and I think it paid off. I implemented some basic things I learned from SS but it wasn't like I was running some formula on her calculating her every move. It doesn't need to be like that.


Just read to become aware and then go live your life. You'll be more prepared after you read. You may not get it the first time, but the idea is to internalize it over time. Progress not perfection. Part of being a DJ is being yourself and being unapologetic about it. If people don't like you for you, then fvck 'em. You can want to improve and to be a better version but don't lose yourself.

I am confident that I'm a cool person. People will enjoy being around me if they give it a chance - if they don't want to... oh well, everything wasn't meant to be. I'm not saying that in a c0cky way, I'm just saying I know I'm not an @sshole or weird and I think I say some funny stuff/bring up interesting ideas. So generally why wouldn't the typical individual want to hang out with me? That's the kind of person I would want to hang out with. But when I start over-analyzing and reading my manosphere playbook play-by-play in real time, then things don't go well. I get stiff, weird, and do things I wouldn't normally do. Peep this whenever you have time. It put things into perspective for me in this regard:

Good job dude! Follow up with that for sure. Just don't text her except to set up the date lol. Don't give her that free validation.

I love how what Pook said is true. I've had some epic fails. But with every failure I learned something. I'm getting specific, non theoretical feedback just like Pook said. And when I apply it(not a quick fix) I'll be dating those 7s and 8s.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Stuck

I'm literally stuck with my approach. I have no confidence cause I have no waves.

My social skills are breaking down.

I'm gonna get a fresh 1.5 after work. If I don't brush an hour a day I don't love myself. Another reason to not drink even if I get some free! I'm too impatient: I have to brush tonight and you never ever ever cut drunk. That's a cardinal sin.

Just bringing down the length, no line or taper.

Worst case I cut it tomorrow morning and start then. Start fresh.

 

[GrowingPains]

Good job dude! Follow up with that for sure. Just don't text her except to set up the date lol. Don't give her that free validation.

I love how what Pook said is true. I've had some epic fails. But with every failure I learned something. I'm getting specific, non theoretical feedback just like Pook said. And when I apply it(not a quick fix) I'll be dating those 7s and 8s.

We not doing nooo texting, my G. For sure texting for logistics and phone calls only.

 

[nicksaiz65]

We not doing nooo texting, my G. For sure texting for logistics and phone calls only.

Yuppp. I'll link a cool vid in here too after work. It's quite relevant to this conversation.

Personally I like being a bit flirty on dates like Dr. Nerdlove. I learn a bit from everyone and I really like that strategy. It's fun.

So I'm gonna continue with that until some chick burns me lol.

But I feel like overpursuing via text was one of my biggest problems. Now I definitely know NOT to do that.

 

[nicksaiz65]

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Booze fvcking kills weight loss. I gotta cut back. Don't believe the normie hype. It won't help you be a DJ

 

[nicksaiz65]

Tough Love Towards Myself: Alcohol

I feel absolutely fvcking horrible today. So I was thinking. A lot of this journal has been predicated on you guys giving me tough love. Well since I feel sh*tty and don't wanna feel like this ever again, I'm gonna give MYSELF some tough love.

I'm not a normie. So I need to think like a DJ, not a normie. Normies love alcohol. But that doesn't mean I need to.

I want to take this DJ Stuff all the way. Like all the way. I want to be dating models once it's all said and done in like ten years.

But for me to do that, I need huge muscles. Like Mehdi from Stronglifts or Scooby from Scoobysworkshop. Without that... it ain't happening fam.

But alcohol destroys that. If I'm drinking excessively, I will never ever ever get ripped. Ever. I linked that Scooby article.

If I end up drinking because of school stress, I'm DOING IT WRONG.

I need to think of alcohol like what it is: junk food.

Normies can do this without a rock hard body. But I CANT.

If I'm drinking, it had better be in my nutritional plan(cheat meal.) If I'm in a social situation I'll have one drink. And then do cardio the next day. If I go to a party, I'll eat less the next two days and do HELLA cardio. That's what Scooby does.

Don't believe the hype. Alcohol will stop me from achieving my DJ Goals. I don't care if it's "cool." Have a backbone.

What's more important to me, a ripped body or alcohol? Not drinking will ironically get me more girls cause I'll have a ripped body and there for the confidence to approach to them.

I'm not sheltered anymore so time to avoid it.

I don't wanna be like those obnoxious drunk ass white girls at the club.

I'll drink Club Soda like Roosh says.

Alcohol is glorified junk food. I will treat it as such.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Amazing News

I could use your help guys!

I just found out some amazing news. This 9.5/10 that I know who used to be engaged is now completely single. The dude broke it off.

I've hung out with this girl before. I don't think I'm friendzoned yet. She keeps asking me "When are we gonna hang out and write music," (the fact that she asks me first repeatedly is a good sign imo) we were flirting and she said "I could kiss you right now and give you mono", she was laughing and calling me a c0cky bastard(I pretended to forget her name and asked who is this when she texted me) and she's said to me "I like my men like I like my coffee, black." Also playfully hitting me and all that. She also comments on all my Instagram pics. I posted one yesterday with a white Polo, jeans, and my new Air Max 97s. She commented "Looking fly" with a bird emoji.

I normally would jump on this but I'm honest to God busy with this test and I don't want to look too available. So when we hang out it'll be on a Tuesday or so.

Good thing I bought those music theory books huh? Not gonna embarrass myself with a trash beat when she comes over.

So anyways... I need to fvck her before someone else does. I'm gonna rewatch a couple videos on dealing with dimes and then go for it.

I've already been out with her.

She said the beat I posted today was cool.

From what I know, I just need to set the date, don't text/validate her in between dates, have her come straight over to my place to write music, and escalate with Vin DiCarlo's Escalation Ladder or something similar.

Gotta read sex books too.

@mrgoodstuff @GrowingPains Do you guys have any tips for me?

I think I absolutely have to make sure I don't over pursue or I'm gonna ruin this. Which isn't gonna happen.

I really hope being kind of flirty doesn't hurt me. I'm still carrying that over from Nerdlove Dating Strategies. I know not to be needy, of course.

Also, do girls in general like their tiddies sucked? Serious question.

And another question, when we hang out do I involve the social lubricant alcohol? I'll schedule it in a cheat meal like I said in the above post, don't worry

I live right down the street from a bar. Once she gets here do I suggest we get drinks first? Do I just get a bottle and take shots from it with her while writing? I simply don't know... Y'all tell me.

 

[nicksaiz65]

A Proclomation

Ive been working on fvcking more with my LR4. Fvcked her again tonight.

She begged me to give her 2 strokes without a condom... And I agreed. Smh.

I, nicksaiz65 swear that I will never let anything like this happen again. I have to be more responsible.

I haven't gotten in trouble with this before but never again.

 

[GrowingPains]

Amazing News

I could use your help guys!

I just found out some amazing news. This 9.5/10 that I know who used to be engaged is now completely single. The dude broke it off.

I've hung out with this girl before. I don't think I'm friendzoned yet. She keeps asking me "When are we gonna hang out and write music," (the fact that she asks me first repeatedly is a good sign imo) we were flirting and she said "I could kiss you right now and give you mono", she was laughing and calling me a c0cky bastard(I pretended to forget her name and asked who is this when she texted me) and she's said to me "I like my men like I like my coffee, black." Also playfully hitting me and all that. She also comments on all my Instagram pics. I posted one yesterday with a white Polo, jeans, and my new Air Max 97s. She commented "Looking fly" with a bird emoji.

I normally would jump on this but I'm honest to God busy with this test and I don't want to look too available. So when we hang out it'll be on a Tuesday or so.

Good thing I bought those music theory books huh? Not gonna embarrass myself with a trash beat when she comes over.

So anyways... I need to fvck her before someone else does. I'm gonna rewatch a couple videos on dealing with dimes and then go for it.

I've already been out with her.

She said the beat I posted today was cool.

From what I know, I just need to set the date, don't text/validate her in between dates, have her come straight over to my place to write music, and escalate with Vin DiCarlo's Escalation Ladder or something similar.

Gotta read sex books too.

@mrgoodstuff @GrowingPains Do you guys have any tips for me?

I think I absolutely have to make sure I don't over pursue or I'm gonna ruin this. Which isn't gonna happen.

I really hope being kind of flirty doesn't hurt me. I'm still carrying that over from Nerdlove Dating Strategies. I know not to be needy, of course.

Also, do girls in general like their tiddies sucked? Serious question.

And another question, when we hang out do I involve the social lubricant alcohol? I'll schedule it in a cheat meal like I said in the above post, don't worry

I live right down the street from a bar. Once she gets here do I suggest we get drinks first? Do I just get a bottle and take shots from it with her while writing? I simply don't know... Y'all tell me.

1. I don't believe you need alcohol to have sex. I don't drink.

2. The only way to tell if a woman likes something in bed is to try it and pay attention to her response. Some will like it more than others. Just do it lightly then build up the intensity and see how she responds. If she's not squirming or letting you know she likes it through moans... Then it's possible she doesn't care for it too much.

3. Invite the girl over to write music. Try to escalate things there. She's making it easy for you by asking when you'll do it all the time. If she doesn't do it when push comes to shove, she's just messing with you.

4. It sounds like you're putting this one on a pedestal. Cut it out. Sure she's beautiful. Sure you have to do things right just as you might expect to with any other woman. Be cool. Don't be in your head so much.

 

[nicksaiz65]

She is clearly willing to get pregnant with your kid, and right now. She asked you to take that risk. Watch your back with her!!! Never do that again! Never leave her alone or with access to a used condom either. Better safe than sorry! Do you want your DJ life or to be having to worry about child support payments and YOUR kid next year.

You can get a girl pregnant with precum!!!
Read more here

Do not play roulette with making a baby until you REALLY want one!!

The fact that she asked you to do it...means she’s ok with it and will tempt you again!!! Do not risk your future for momentary pleasure!!!

Discipline!!!

Yeah I shouldn't have caved. I won't make excuses, very irresponsible.

I'm gonna pray that I'll be alright(I should be) and I'll never ever do that again.

I may not fvck this girl again. I might do what AMS said and pulllllll back hahaha

 

[nicksaiz65]

Why? Did she cheat on him?

He called off an engagement. That is a HUGE turnaround for a man!! Find out his side of the story before letting yourself see her as anything more than a FB!!!

She may be a 9.5 but a man dumped her for a solid reason.

All I’m saying is learn from his lessons rather than going through it yourself. Be aware!!!

If she is a cheater better to know up up front and interact with her accordingly.

Be smart! Don’t be blinded/fooled by how hot she is!

Find out his side of the story! Be aware she’ll spin it different. Plate at most!! Watch your own back!!! He was engaged and ended it!!

Right. All I want is a plate. I could fvck one or two times and that'd be alright too. I don't want to even consider a relationship until I've mastered the Game. Too stressful to be worrying if your partner is cheating on you all the time.

AMS: "If you have a girlfriend or wife, I guarantee she has cheated or is cheating on you"