6ix9ine
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Part 1:
Had this fwb for half a year who in my eyes is like an 8 lookswise (really rare for me to **** someone like that). It was her idea to be fwbs, I wanted to explore having a ltr.
She looks whorish, I liked that. Also we got along well, was pretty cool. Let's call her girl1.
That fwb situation made me chase other women, I rlly didn't want her to be the only girl I see, bc I knew I'd get oneitis otherwise.
I inhaled all "game" **** that I saw on YouTube and went nofap, that got me really motivated to ****. Some of my friends thought I was retarded bc I was only talking about girls all the time. Srsly I think some of them don't want to hang out as much anymore bc they couldn't relate with me anymore.
I even made out with that one tinder date, who was the date of a friend of mine in front of his eyes. Then I fingered this mediocre looking girl in front of her eyes (was a wild party).
I ****ed like 12 other chicks during that time. To me that's a lot.
Some of them ugly some of them hot, some of them average, some of them prostitutes lol.
I even banged this one girl that I thought I could never bang, that I thought was out of my league. I found out she was pretty crazy and that rlly turned me off.
She looksmaxed pretty hard with silicone tits, makeup and insane outfits.
Befriending some girls and then ****ing some of their friends or friends of their friends or instagram followers, that worked too.
During that time I got to know 2 girls that I thought would be gr8 gf material, but we just had a first date and a kiss and then they ghosted me.
There was this 17 year old girl, I came on her titties on the first date, however, I didn't enter her ***** because she was a virgin. She said it was her first time doing stuff like that. Omg she was so ****ing nervous and **** when saying bye she was so scared that I wouldn't call back anymore.
Then there was this 19 year old girl, the sex was soooo amazing!! But it was just so boring to talk to her. She told me I'm manipulative, don't listen, live in my own bubble and like don't really respond much to what she's saying. Tbh I just thought she was boring to talk to, I was on mushrooms some of the time and I resented her a little bc I was just her second choice, long story.
Then there were these other two 18 year old girls who were interested in me (i'm 31m but look like 25, genetics). I was making out with them and massaging their tits (not at the same time). But they wouldn't gimme their hole (Again, not at the same time). Believe it or not, that made me feel like I fell in love with them and made me think of them constantly¿? That was weird and I learned that infatuation is:
infatuation, attachment = interest + investment + scarcity + how bad you need someone because u're unhappy
The more you invest, the more you feel attached. When someone ****s with your mind, like rejects you or somehow triggers you, does you wrong what happens is you may start to think about that person or situation constantly. And that makes you think you fell in love/you became attached, but that's not love, it is obsessing and wanting to fix "oh my god, i'm overtly not loved, not accepted".
However, if a person is too scarce, at one point infatuation/attachment just turns into resentment and you start detaching. And you get your pain body triggered and getting all the feels of not being enough and not being accepted for who you are and being sad and lonely. Omg that can really send you in a downward spiral and temporarily **** up all aspects of your life, your whole energy is wasted on coping.
Anyway, what ended up happening is I dumped all girls out of my life, even my favourite girl1 that i've been seeing since half a year. Even though she invited me to her birthday, whatever I don't care.
Because I realized I was just getting too ****ed up mentally. Getting breadcrumbs of attention and intimacy, highs and lows, rejections, I put too much focus on women and not enough focus on me and my balance and mental health.
"Dumping" girl1 hurt me a lot and I was basically a depressed potato for a whole month. But also I'm really proud of myself.
Usually in past (real) relationships I was the one to ***** and complain and hope for things to get better, only to realize they never would. While my energy was drained so low and then she would just dump me and I would just be a depressed wreck.
Had this fwb for half a year who in my eyes is like an 8 lookswise (really rare for me to **** someone like that). It was her idea to be fwbs, I wanted to explore having a ltr.
She looks whorish, I liked that. Also we got along well, was pretty cool. Let's call her girl1.
That fwb situation made me chase other women, I rlly didn't want her to be the only girl I see, bc I knew I'd get oneitis otherwise.
I inhaled all "game" **** that I saw on YouTube and went nofap, that got me really motivated to ****. Some of my friends thought I was retarded bc I was only talking about girls all the time. Srsly I think some of them don't want to hang out as much anymore bc they couldn't relate with me anymore.
I even made out with that one tinder date, who was the date of a friend of mine in front of his eyes. Then I fingered this mediocre looking girl in front of her eyes (was a wild party).
I ****ed like 12 other chicks during that time. To me that's a lot.
Some of them ugly some of them hot, some of them average, some of them prostitutes lol.
I even banged this one girl that I thought I could never bang, that I thought was out of my league. I found out she was pretty crazy and that rlly turned me off.
She looksmaxed pretty hard with silicone tits, makeup and insane outfits.
Befriending some girls and then ****ing some of their friends or friends of their friends or instagram followers, that worked too.
During that time I got to know 2 girls that I thought would be gr8 gf material, but we just had a first date and a kiss and then they ghosted me.
There was this 17 year old girl, I came on her titties on the first date, however, I didn't enter her ***** because she was a virgin. She said it was her first time doing stuff like that. Omg she was so ****ing nervous and **** when saying bye she was so scared that I wouldn't call back anymore.
Then there was this 19 year old girl, the sex was soooo amazing!! But it was just so boring to talk to her. She told me I'm manipulative, don't listen, live in my own bubble and like don't really respond much to what she's saying. Tbh I just thought she was boring to talk to, I was on mushrooms some of the time and I resented her a little bc I was just her second choice, long story.
Then there were these other two 18 year old girls who were interested in me (i'm 31m but look like 25, genetics). I was making out with them and massaging their tits (not at the same time). But they wouldn't gimme their hole (Again, not at the same time). Believe it or not, that made me feel like I fell in love with them and made me think of them constantly¿? That was weird and I learned that infatuation is:
infatuation, attachment = interest + investment + scarcity + how bad you need someone because u're unhappy
The more you invest, the more you feel attached. When someone ****s with your mind, like rejects you or somehow triggers you, does you wrong what happens is you may start to think about that person or situation constantly. And that makes you think you fell in love/you became attached, but that's not love, it is obsessing and wanting to fix "oh my god, i'm overtly not loved, not accepted".
However, if a person is too scarce, at one point infatuation/attachment just turns into resentment and you start detaching. And you get your pain body triggered and getting all the feels of not being enough and not being accepted for who you are and being sad and lonely. Omg that can really send you in a downward spiral and temporarily **** up all aspects of your life, your whole energy is wasted on coping.
Anyway, what ended up happening is I dumped all girls out of my life, even my favourite girl1 that i've been seeing since half a year. Even though she invited me to her birthday, whatever I don't care.
Because I realized I was just getting too ****ed up mentally. Getting breadcrumbs of attention and intimacy, highs and lows, rejections, I put too much focus on women and not enough focus on me and my balance and mental health.
"Dumping" girl1 hurt me a lot and I was basically a depressed potato for a whole month. But also I'm really proud of myself.
Usually in past (real) relationships I was the one to ***** and complain and hope for things to get better, only to realize they never would. While my energy was drained so low and then she would just dump me and I would just be a depressed wreck.