This might sound like I am talking myself up, but I'm not.
My main problem in life is with girls and what people expect of me. Since I like to portray myself, and feel I am seen as the 'all round package' of looks brains etc I can't bear to expose something which will seem not up to my usual standard, which to me is my penis. I think it looks shocking in its flaccid state and is just ugly, and I can't get over it. Weird thing is I love how it looks when hard...but since I hate the flaccid look it makes it hard for me to expose myself to a girl. This has manifested to much that I have trouble getting hard when with someone since I think about my ****, being a virgin among other problems. It's gone so far I think I would rather masterbate then risk embarrassment with a girl. I need some advice in regards to this, I just need to read something from someone else that will hopefully make myself 'click' as to get over this stupidity. I know it's stupid. I know everyone has faults, even the girls I like who seem perfect. But since everyone sees me as 'perfect' I can't progress as to shake off this image - Partially because its what they expect from me, but mostly because I love having this image attached to myself. However, now I have decided I don't want it anymore, but like...I don't know how to get rid of it - and still be myself.
Does this make any sense? Please some advice
My main problem in life is with girls and what people expect of me. Since I like to portray myself, and feel I am seen as the 'all round package' of looks brains etc I can't bear to expose something which will seem not up to my usual standard, which to me is my penis. I think it looks shocking in its flaccid state and is just ugly, and I can't get over it. Weird thing is I love how it looks when hard...but since I hate the flaccid look it makes it hard for me to expose myself to a girl. This has manifested to much that I have trouble getting hard when with someone since I think about my ****, being a virgin among other problems. It's gone so far I think I would rather masterbate then risk embarrassment with a girl. I need some advice in regards to this, I just need to read something from someone else that will hopefully make myself 'click' as to get over this stupidity. I know it's stupid. I know everyone has faults, even the girls I like who seem perfect. But since everyone sees me as 'perfect' I can't progress as to shake off this image - Partially because its what they expect from me, but mostly because I love having this image attached to myself. However, now I have decided I don't want it anymore, but like...I don't know how to get rid of it - and still be myself.
Does this make any sense? Please some advice