here is the email she wrote me - who can analyze this? (i saw her for 3 weeks, saw her about 7 times, fvcked her 3 times)
i want to be realistic as well. and the reality is, that i do care about you, no so much that infact it scared me. but so much that maybe one day it could. (not a bad thing)
i know you dont understand my reasoning for what i want. and i am sorry for that. i know how i feel about you. and i know how i feel about danny. and while i do love him, i'm no longer in love with him. i did not accept that ring, and i never plan to.
if you want to just pick up and move on, then please do so. it is only my fault if that is the case. i would never expect you to just wait around for me, we never got that serious. and i know just becasue you wont come crying to me and buy me expensive things in hope of forgiveness, does not mean you dont care. i would not expect anything like that from you in the first place.
i was very happy, and you were a BIG part of that, and i thank you for making me feel so. and it is something i truly do not want to loose, but like i said i need this time. so please dont wait for me, i would not want to. besides, i know you wont. but there honestly has to be a reason why i felt the way i did with you so soon, and while i cant put my finger on it, i know it means something. i think that is why i dont think i will loose you completly, but if i do, so be it, MY FAULT!
so thank you for trying to understand me the best you could. and thank you for making me feel so beautiful and special. you were one of the very few men that i know that could make me feel that way! you were always so amazing to me!