Arrrhahaha. Oh god, where do i start? I was such a big "unsexual" loser once. Then i had a 4.5 year relationship that didn't end in a bad way rather distance, she moved away to pursue her career. I got through that and ended up good because she was not that good with those things herself. Lucky unsexual child i was.
OK. That was then, and gees do i laugh at myself now. I dont beat myself up, so dont do that, go get more.
Perhaps the biggest blindness i ever had was before my longest relationship. I talked to a HB on the phone for like a year. I always wanted to meet her, however we lived an hour apart, and we were only 18 at the time. She was very athletic, and we talked and talked about everything. And when we ran out of stuff to talk about we would go over everything again. So cute.
She was blonde, tall, and very sexy, i met her through my brother and i dont know how she knew him, but he was talking to her one day, then somehow i got on the phone, said hi, and it all began, and she pretty much stopped calling my brother after that, rather she called for me, and eventually after a month or so they didnt speak, leaving her all for me.
Anyway, so we talk and talk, and she tested and tested and i didn't know. She came onto me, must have though i was very nice when i didn nothing about it, if a a bit of a fag. I didn't know how to respond. Gee, i would make her *** just by talking to her now, after some of the things i've done and read. Anyway, so about 6 months in we decide to meet up, because she kept pushing me. I thought we were phone buddies for life - haha, idiot. So we did and she ignores me when she brings along two mates, sits down beside me on a park bench with her arm on the backrest, waiting for me to touch her, which i never did. I must never forget that this girl was HOT for me, and GEESUS, did she try as hard as a girl could, all short of grabbing me and taking me.
Haha, so time goes on, and i end up going out with another girl who worked in the city. I tell my phone friend about it, and OH MY GOD, did she go ape. (i was ok with this other girl, a caring sensitive man, who just happened to turn her on by i dont know how, i think i was trying to be an AFC but back then i was a true Ahole, so maybe that mix was enough)We spent about 2 hours writting down all my gf's good and bad points, and comparing them with her's. And i remember every little sign i missed...the way she acted, so subtle, one moment interested, the next heartbroken (but not completely visible), things like that. She always used to tell me how this other guys pounded her hard but didn't stay in her long enough to get her going....etc, etc.
Anyway, i missed everything, and she purely could only like me for the things i said and how my voice sounded, this girl phoned EVERY NIGHT BTW.
Then she wants to meet up in the city. I had sorta stopped seeing my GF (said i was bad at it then) and my former Gf was still hanging around, so this other girl, better call her E....E comes into the city and meets me and has a big chat to me about me and her and we saw the only reason that it couldn't work (acording to her - it was all acroding to her, i had no direction with girls at that stage when it came to the crunch)...was because we lived far apart, and that if she could only see me once each two weeks she would. So then she decided that she would go around and bash up my former gf because i said she wold not leave me alone!
So we went through the city in my lunch hour looking for my former GF (hardly a manly thing to do, i thought it was looking good for me, if a bit inmature), so we couldn't find her, and walking back to my work...E just stops and grabs me and starts kissing me like I STILL TO THIS DAY have not been kissed like. She was - and this is no joke - she was like a starved Lioness. She just grabbed me, 6 foot tall girl on a mid tall bloke, in a giant embrace that squeezed the life out of me almost, and she kissed me for about 10 mins flat and didn't want to let go...i knew that because i was actually fighting for breath and trying to pull back.
We walked back holdinding hands after that, but being the ***** i was i let her hand go after a bit.
I never kissed her again, tho she did come and see me a few more times....then ofcourse, even tho i knew this girl was someone who was very suited to me, i had no idea, so about 4 months later, she did give up, in tears almost (i had no way to combat it i had no skills) saying that she could not stand it....we did go out, for that period but we rarely saw each other. So after a few more times of her coming into the city, standing outside the office for half and hour, she gave up.
And that is the saddest bloody thing i have ever seen in my life. Myself i am talking about. She got with someone else, tho knowing what i know now she was not very interested in them, and probably got treated just as bad as that guy who used to screw her like a wild animal for 30 seconds.
After that, maybe 8 months later i entered into a 4 year relationship with no idea about girls at all. EXCEPT for the fact that i had 2 women fight over me. My other gf, heard about this girl and was very worried, even tho we were not officially an item any longer. ANd she ended up sleeping with other people, E ended up being with someone else, and i ended up by myself.
ALl except for the fact, that being the AFC I was, i knew i was hot in some way, cos 2 girls had fought over me for very different reasons. Thats what got me kickstarted into the 4 year relationship.
Haha, and that is just one story of myself, i have about another 15-20 i could name in the category of "misses", way through highschool, from 13-19, those were my ***** years, might as well been a girl back then....20-23 were my 'i'm gunna marry that girl years (where i turned down about 6 sexual offers)....now fellas i am in my Don Juan years.
I have 6 numbers on my phone, and i have seen the light. Thats what this web site can do for you. Yes, sure, i would be with someone anyway most likely, but i wouldn't have 6+ and still going, and i would not be able to have my pick either of those i meet.
god i was a loser. chicks everywhere digged me, but i never went home with them.
haha. I sucked. and for those who currently do, read this site as SOON as possible. I wish i had of F'ed E, i tells ya.
