Maintaining NC... Come on dude...

[Johnny Alias]

Been almost 80 days.

Heard she was in hospital with major abdominal pain. This would third time in a year. Pretty sure it's pancreatitis from all her drinking.

Shouldn't care but I do. Felt the urge to reach out and just let her know I'm here.

She'd fvcking laugh at that with her bf.

Four years we were together. Therapist and I fairly sure she's BPD/HPD.

I think she's dying slowly but surely. For real. 43 years of partying and still going strong. Smoking, pounding booze, weed, coke, and painkillers. And to think I wanted to turn a ho into a housewife. Women like this can't shut off their addictions... Ever.

Decided to go solo for a while. Spinning plates was just delaying the pain. Will still occasionally but need to focus on getting my **** together and *****es take up lots of time. Therapy, gym, travel. These are helping put my self esteem back together after she ripped it apart with her screaming and childlike behavior.

She's been asking about me too. Not sure if it was for curiosity's sake or because she needs a backup plan. And why do I care? Why? Because I loved someone who is incapable of the real deal. Also wanted to fix all her problems and turn her into a real person. She's not. Will never be. Not my problem. Urge to save her from herself is still wayyyy too strong.

Might be a Xanax day. Have to tune her out but god it's hard. Just dreamed about her all night. Damn.

Thanks for letting me vent.

 

[SgtSplacker]

Dude stop thinking about this trash female. Any substance abusing bar trash will let you bang her man, it's no accomplishment. Tune her out? Burn the fuucking radio and buy a new one! And you're counting the days? Are you insane? Please go find yourself another female to think about. You're just horny dude, focus that energy on another woman that you might even enjoy.

 

[Johnny Alias]

Oh I've been banging chicks believe me. Four since we broke up. Haven't gone a more than a few days without pounding. But they're all trash like her. Just want something more quality.

Understand we were together 4 years. Thought we were gonna get married and sh1t.

Do appreciate the pep talk though. Just a rough night.

 

[MisterSisterFister]

Been almost 80 days.

Heard she was in hospital with major abdominal pain. This would third time in a year. Pretty sure it's pancreatitis from all her drinking.

Shouldn't care but I do. Felt the urge to reach out and just let her know I'm here.

She'd fvcking laugh at that with her bf.

Four years we were together. Therapist and I fairly sure she's BPD/HPD.

I think she's dying slowly but surely. For real. 43 years of partying and still going strong. Smoking, pounding booze, weed, coke, and painkillers. And to think I wanted to turn a ho into a housewife. Women like this can't shut off their addictions... Ever.

Decided to go solo for a while. Spinning plates was just delaying the pain. Will still occasionally but need to focus on getting my **** together and *****es take up lots of time. Therapy, gym, travel. These are helping put my self esteem back together after she ripped it apart with her screaming and childlike behavior.

She's been asking about me too. Not sure if it was for curiosity's sake or because she needs a backup plan. And why do I care? Why? Because I loved someone who is incapable of the real deal. Also wanted to fix all her problems and turn her into a real person. She's not. Will never be. Not my problem. Urge to save her from herself is still wayyyy too strong.

Might be a Xanax day. Have to tune her out but god it's hard. Just dreamed about her all night. Damn.

Thanks for letting me vent.

Don't mask the pain with a Xanax, Channel that anger and frustration to something positive.

I do not know why but it seems the crazier the female the harder it is to let go maybe due to the roller coaster of emotions they take us through, The lows are the worst you've felt making the highs feel amazing much like a drug?

BUT! You need to knock this sh!t off put on your man pants, you know how many days you have been apart?! :box: <---This is me reaching through cyberspace and b~slapping you! You're also meddling around like a woman "uh well she is asking about me hmm what could that mean?" As you fall into some Disneyesque dreamland like Cinderella.

Take the leash off and put yourself as a priority for a little while you deserve it.

While this might not taste as sweet as a sugarcoated pile of ****, I guarantee you this is the truth you need.

 

[MisterSisterFister]

I Just saw this,

http://www.sosuave.net/forum/showthread.php?t=212635

You need to take time for yourself,

Gym, Eat healthy cook for yourself, Get a new hobby, Hang out with the bros, Slay some tang.

Start breaking off the parts that you correlate with this female stop putting yourself in this mess.

Delete her facebook delete whatever it takes!

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We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit.

Aristotle
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Read this quote over and over. If you need one more day of mourning then by all means go overboard do whatever you need, But make that your last pity party over this female.

The next day you will wake up you will start practicing success start looking forwards instead of mingling in the past..

 

[Bokanovsky]

Oh I've been banging chicks believe me. Four since we broke up. Haven't gone a more than a few days without pounding. But they're all trash like her. Just want something more quality.

Understand we were together 4 years. Thought we were gonna get married and sh1t.

Do appreciate the pep talk though. Just a rough night.

Wait a second. You said 43 years of partying and doing drugs? That means she is in her 60's or late 50's at best? Are you telling us you wanted to marry a geriatric drug addict wh0re? WTF is wrong with you?

 

[El Payaso]

Hopefully, you've learned your lesson and will stay away from those type of women. "Quality" men don't have anything to do with women that party hard, do coke, weed, booze, addicted to medications and all those vices. Unless you yourself enjoy that kind of life in which case, more power to you.

 

[Johnny Alias]

Wait a second. You said 43 years of partying and doing drugs? That means she is in her 60's or late 50's at best? Are you telling us you wanted to marry a geriatric drug addict wh0re? WTF is wrong with you?

Baha. Such a literalist. 28 years then. Damn. Tough room. Hahaha