I am afraid that improving yourself is a safe way to destroy your deepest friendships.
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As I am improving myself, I see my close friends not being able to follow. Simply because they are not sensing what I am sensing.
I have this best friend of mine. We have known each other for only three years now, but we used to be as close as can be. It is impossible to describe the friendship we used to have, but it was definately more of a friendship than most people are lucky enough to experience in their lifetime. When he broke his arm and had to stop weightlifting, the most important thing in his life, I was literally crying for him. When I was struggling, hew was crying for me. I honestly love him without being gay.
Now, while I am educating myself, working on my business, delving into foreign cultures, planning each of my days, weeks and months, my best friend is just floating around. He has no motivation, no great goals, no optimism whatsoever. He has already decided to live a sh!tty life, because "that's just how it is". At the age of 20!
My closest friends are hanging out watching TV, guessing who farted. I have not turned on the TV in months.
They are lurking around at ther ****ty jobs. I am getting up at 4 AM in the morning fully excited about the business I am setting up besides going to school.
I would be so happy if my best friend would get a life, but it seems like he unconsciously disregards my attempts on doing so.
I am not trying to bring myself up by talking my friends down. I am not more valuable than my friends or any other person on earth. I am just incredibly sad that I will probably destroy my deepest friendship just by taking care of myself.
Life is bigger.
It's bigger than you.
And you are not me.
The lengths that i will go to.
The distance in your eyes.
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REM - Losing my religion
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As I am improving myself, I see my close friends not being able to follow. Simply because they are not sensing what I am sensing.
I have this best friend of mine. We have known each other for only three years now, but we used to be as close as can be. It is impossible to describe the friendship we used to have, but it was definately more of a friendship than most people are lucky enough to experience in their lifetime. When he broke his arm and had to stop weightlifting, the most important thing in his life, I was literally crying for him. When I was struggling, hew was crying for me. I honestly love him without being gay.
Now, while I am educating myself, working on my business, delving into foreign cultures, planning each of my days, weeks and months, my best friend is just floating around. He has no motivation, no great goals, no optimism whatsoever. He has already decided to live a sh!tty life, because "that's just how it is". At the age of 20!
My closest friends are hanging out watching TV, guessing who farted. I have not turned on the TV in months.
They are lurking around at ther ****ty jobs. I am getting up at 4 AM in the morning fully excited about the business I am setting up besides going to school.
I would be so happy if my best friend would get a life, but it seems like he unconsciously disregards my attempts on doing so.
I am not trying to bring myself up by talking my friends down. I am not more valuable than my friends or any other person on earth. I am just incredibly sad that I will probably destroy my deepest friendship just by taking care of myself.
Life is bigger.
It's bigger than you.
And you are not me.
The lengths that i will go to.
The distance in your eyes.
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REM - Losing my religion
