Journal - Approaches on street, at mall, etc.

[Mindgamez]

Monday, December 30th
Date with Ani.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHhw1JQPVlQ
This is the creepiest Djent metal ever. Holy sh1t, love it.

It was nice. Quite frankly, I realized that I wasn't so interested in her after all. My plan was to pull her home, but then I realized something after Julien's video.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3odLnYa9fEY

Near the end of dinner, I escaped to the bathroom. After I peed, I looked at myself in the mirror.
So alright. What do I do now? Pull her? Is that what I really want? Am I doing it for me or not?
And then I realized that I was doing it more for the lay count than for my actual pleasure. Because I wasn't so attracted to her.
Alright, we'll just end this date quick and go back home. She'll be my friend.

And that's what I did. We ended, we had separate bills. All good. A bit of sexual talk here and there. She likes telling me about her adventures and I tell her about mine. It's fun.

R E S O L U T I O N S
2 0 1 4
They will require a lot of mental discipline, but I will really do everything in my possible to achieve these.
Because I know that EVERY action I take right now is much better than getting instant gratification right away.

This year will be intense.
Yes. INTENSE.
Like, VERY INTENSE.
And I will read this list every day when I wake up.

- Live by my list of life values
- Being able to make sustainable income through filmmaking (finish website, business cards, get contracts, etc.)
- Get into a Film Festival
- Watch one good movie every 2 weeks for inspiration
- Deliver my best 1 hour self-development speech at the agora with Porno
- Finish the 10 days Mental Diet Challenge by Emmet Fox
- Create self-development videos at least once per month
- Get 90% on final piano exam
- Meditation 20 minutes a day, every day
- Read empowering material at least 15 minutes a day
- Give up video games forever
- Exercise at least 3 times a week (cardio and/or going to gym)
- Shuffle at least 2 times a week, 30 mins a day
- Sleep at least 8 hours per day
- No spending on useless **** (junk food, overpriced alcohol, etc.)
- NO MORE PROCRASTINATION (this will probably be one of the hardest one.)
- No more getting lost in unconscious short-term pleasure fun activities while there is STUFF to be done.
- Get an ABUNDANT sex life
- Get laid with an 8.5
- Pull girls from night clubs and have sex with them

If you ever see me slacking off, please give me a slap in the face to put me back on track!

No excuses, just do it.

 

[Mindgamez]

New Year's Eve
Tuesday, December 31st
The night was nice. Nothing mind-blowing, nothing spectacular and beyond amazing. But it definitely was nice.

[video=youtube;lETmskoqh30]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lETmskoqh30[/video]

So yeah,
We arrive in line. We see a sh1t ton of guys. We think of quitting, but we were already there. Oh well.
Forgot to mention that Ani was coming too. Didn't know about that! I felt like she stalked me and figured I was going, so she went too. Mhm...

It wasn't long before the countdown. So we gathered in the biggest dance floor. It was totally empty, except for that group of 3 girls we approached. They were 7.5s at best, the one I talked to was a little hotter. I'd say 8 or so. It's friendly talk, some more people join the dance floor. I shuffle like crazy, sliding all over the place with my super slippery shoes.

I approached a few girls. Most of them were receptive and nice.
Some girl smiled at me near the washrooms. Should have carried a longer conversation with her, it lasted 10 seconds.

Got my glass of champagne, went on the dancefloor with Ani, Sabrina (her friend), Porno, Darnell, Karl, Jad, Dumi. I was glad to celebrate with some of my best friends.

DJ : Alright everyone! 40 seconds left before 2014!

As the countdown approached, I was totally thrilled and excited. It felt this way every new year. But I don't know why, but I was afraid.
I was afraid of how intense this year was going to be.
Because I promised myself that I'll make this year the most intense year of my life yet.
And I was picturing every moment I'll be facing my fears. Every moment I'll be evolving and growing. Every moment I'll be pushing my limits. Every moment I'll be draining my willpower until exhaustion. Every moment I'll be failing and learning. In every aspect.

But I know that's the way we all grow. That's the way we live the life. And I had to remember all the positives things that would come with that. The wonderful experiences, the amazing girls and people I'll meet, the amazing life opportunities that will come to me. The amazing achievements that will come my way. The amazing feelings I will get from achieving. The amazing rush of energy. I was excited.

DJ : The countdown starts!
10...
9...
8...
We got closer, brought our champagne glasses close in a circle.
7...
6...
I felt like I was ready to take life's most daring challenge.
5...
4...
And I felt a sudden rush through my body. I knew the change was for the better.
3...
2...
I knew it was all over. That I'll never settle for less anymore. That I'll never make dumb excuses again. That I'll never look down on myself ever again. That I'll never give up.
1...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!

And then it was all over.

I approached some other girls. It was a bit half-asses to be honest. I was putting to much pressure on myself. Anyway.
I kept approaching. Reapproached the first set of 3 girls again. We talked for a few minutes, I estimate 15-20 minutes or so. It was nice, I vibed quite well with the hottie. She mirrored my movements all the time. At some point they had to go to bathroom, I let them go. I see them again later. We dance on the dancefloor, it's fun and games.

At some point, I'm feeling really good. So I approach this 9 with her hot friend. Full confidence, I introduce myself, no nervousness.
Me : What's your name?
Her : Neusha
Me : Hahahah. Your name sounds like a porn star name!
She laughs her ass off, takes it quite well.
Her : Hahahah! How does it sound like a porn star name?
Me : It does!
Her : Well, I'm guessing that you have a very dirty mind...
She gives me the seductive look and starts humping the air. It was hot.
Me : Oh yeaaah...
Blalbalbal
Her : Oh yeah, my boyfriend is waiting for me over there actually!
Me : Oh yeah, my girlfriend is also over there, but I don't give a shieet.
Her : Really? What's her name?
Me : Niyousha.
Hahahahah! Hilarious, they laughed too.
I went closer to hear what she had to say, can't remember what. I didn't notice that I already had my hands down to her ass cheeks. She didn't complain.
And then they excused themselves and left... damnit. I knew that feeling that confident around girls was 2014. I was feeling real good. The opener was flawless, on point, bam. That's 2014 baby.

Approached some more. The party wasn't as big as expected. It was actually kinda small. Seemed like everyone knew each other, everyone was in a group of friends. It was college people from the same schools, university people too.

At some point, Ani takes me by the hand and brings me right next to the bathroom. She didn't want to pull me, she just wanted to talk 1 on 1. She was getting super close, pushed her crotch against me. Pushed me against the wall. She was waiting for me to kiss her or something. I was somehow turned off by her. She wasn't hot enough. And I was tired of getting 7s, and I wasn't horny for her. I didn't care.

And I knew that was what attracted girls.

At the very end of the night, I go for the number close to the girl from earlier. Wow, I felt so nervous about closing, like it's not even funny. It's like I was back to my old self. I guess I have to get into the habit of closing, because I never do! Wow.

Always. Be. Closing. 2014. Always. Be. Closing.

We then headed back home. In the car, I was making the most ridiculous comments ever and I was laughing about nothing, it was almost scary HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I felt so free. I felt like I saying any ridiculous sh1t I wanted.

CONCLUSION
- Always be closing. Doesn't matter if you sense a flake. Be clear in your intent, go.
- Make 2014 your most intense year. Like, very intense as ****. Start now.
- Make your life a movie. A TV Show. Every day is a new episode. Now we are moving on to a new season, Part 2. It's a new year, start fresh.
- Wasn't my best night ever in terms of pick up, that's for sure, but it was really fun nonetheless.
- Not trying gets you girls. Trying doesn't get you girls. How paradoxical...

 

[Mindgamez]

Friday, January 3rd
Great, great night.
I was with Darnell, Ali, Dumi.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zVhW2K8FDzo
Here's some creepy melodic Djent. Whoa Nemertines...

I have never been so persistent in one night. I was staying longer than usual during sets. I was trying different angles, different things.

Did it work? I danced with a few girls. One grinded me super intensely. It literally felt like having sex haha.

No make-outs, even though I went for it. Didn't number close either. I had complications.

So yeah,
The night started slow. There weren't many people until midnight-1 AM. During this time, I was dancing in the middle with Darnell and this new asian guy dancer. We danced, approached chicks together. It was fun, I felt carefree and free. I didn't care about anything else.

So then I started approaching the first few girls. The first set or two doesn't pay attention to me at all. They are not b1tchy or anything, just don't acknowledge me haha.

So the other groups of girls I approach, I stay in there a bit longer. After the first few sentences they start paying attention. It's funny, I try a different angle every time.

I remember there was this HB8 cutie with her friend. I approached them, I'm very friendly at first and just keep it happy happy fun. The cutie doesn't want to comply, so I start telling her that she's like a dog. Immediately, she starts laughing and touching me. Oh yeah it worked! And then I told her it's because she's not obedient like my dog, even though she has a nice smile. Funny stuff.

Though, later some guys come in and start dancing with them. Probably friends, because it seemed like they knew each other well. The guy, I tried to ignore and I tried to persist for the girl to pay attention to me. I tilted her head towards me, I said some stuff, blablabla. Maybe was I too intense, because she had to back off. Let's not forget that she seemed like the quite shy type.

I switched from room to room in Muzique club. I remember stopping some girl in the hallway. She tried to walk away, so I playfully jumped right in front of her. They laughed like little girls and ran away like kindergarten kids. It was quite funny. They looked back at me with a nice smile.

There was this girl in the RnB room. I met her and her friends. Funny because some guys she rejected, better looking than me, to then jump in my arms for a hug. It was funny. We started grinding. She went very intense. She wasn't the prettiest, maybe 7.5, but damn she knew how to move her body. I bring her to the wall and she gives me some intense grind. It feels like doggy style. She goes lower, rubbing her upper back on my ****, going back up. I twist her around, grind from the front. I didn't know when to go for the make-out. Her friends were watching us.

At some point, she tells me she has to go for a smoke and that she'll be back. I just let her leave.

I go back to the first room. The guy I started ignoring at first (with the cutie HB8 and her friend), ended up actually being very friendly. I was impressed. While I was kind of being the douchy one, trying to steal her away, he was being super friendly with me. I felt bad, and then I realized that not every "****-block" is a bad guy. I didn't notice that his way of "****-blocking" me (whether intentional or not), was probably the smartest thing he did. He won me over with his niceness. He obviously saw that I was looking around for girls to pick up, so he brought me to a group of two girls he knew, and he presented me to them. I was a little caught off guard as he did this, but I rapidly wrapped my arm around the girl. She was at least 7.5, I liked her cuteness.

So I danced with her for a while. We did the salsa. We grinded a little bit. She was tiny but cute. Her friend is with her the whole time. She grabs her hand, but then I tell her : Stop grabbing her for a second. Come with me. Don't worry, your friend will be fine.
So I dragged her a few meters further. Nice, leading is a great thing. So we dance one on one. At some point I lean in to smell her hair and I tell her she smells like flowers. She walks away with her friend and gives me the finger WTF LOL. I was totally caught off guard.

A few minutes later, I reapproach them near the entrance.
Me : Hey, is everything OK?
Her : Yeaah, we waiting for a friend.
Me : Hahaha, well it's me! Hey, why'd you give me the finger earlier?
I assumed total friendliness.
Her : Ahhh, blablalbalbla.
Me : Hey, let's go back and dance! Let's go! Just five seconds!
And they came on the dancefloor again. I isolate her from her friend again.
She asks me where I'm from, what's my age. I tell her I'm 18, she's 21. We didn't care, and she wrapped her arms around me. At some point, she tells me she has to go see her friends again.
Me : No, wait one second! It's my favourite song!
It wasn't my favourite song, I didn't know the song. I just had some excuse to keep her there. We danced close proximity. It felt like we were just a couple hugging for love, haha. At some point the guy from earlier taps her shoulder, and then she just leaves me to go on the couch with her group of friends. Ends up that she's friend with the HB8 from earlier and her friends.

Guy : Hey man, hum, actually she's kind of seeing someone...
Me : Oh really?
Guy : Well yeah, kind of... But yo, if you need me to wing you for any other girls in the club, just let me know man!
He had a charming smile.
Me : Haha man, you're such a nice guy! There should be more people like you in clubs! You're cool!
And I really meant it. I didn't care about ****-blocking him or anything. He was just the nicest guy out there, and I just wanted him and his friends to have a good time. He was giving the love, total value-offering. It was great. Happy people attract happy people. The HB8 was the totally happy careless type too. They could have been wonderful friends. I should have chilled with them a bit more.

And I felt very happy at this point. I danced freely and carelessly on the dancefloor, shuffling and sliding back and forth in the main room. And for some reason, dancing by myself, with me and only me, felt like the greatest feeling ever. It was greater than grinding any hot chick. I didn't care about anything else in this world but to dance.

CONCLUSION
- Persistence is key. Even though it did come off as a little needy in some interactions, it still helped me push through.
- I haven't even taken the time to talk about the "rejections" today, because they weren't important or relevant to me. I burned the interactions to the ground. I persisted and stayed in the group until it didn't work out. I knew I had to stay until sh1t happened.
- The "****-blocks" can become your nicest friends. Don't immediately hate on guys right away. Just be nice, assume familiarity and that they like you just for you. I was totally impressed. I was going hard for the HB8, but he still was friendly. I have to be like that with everyone, assume the best from people.
- "Rejections" can TOTALLY be turned around.
- Live in the present. Dance, enjoy life. Sometimes, just expressing yourself in whatever you love most is worth so much more than pick up.

 

[Mindgamez]

I wrote some of the following entries while high and drunk. I will keep those entries with
minimal editing to keep their authenticity. If the text is a bit squeezed, it's because
I wrote it on Notepad earlier.

Friday, January 10th

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bcvdTrGmfeo

3:27AM
I can't even sleep. I don't even think of going to sleep. My mind is in awesomeness mode.
I'm feeling high as I'm writing this. Had two and a half weed brownies, very bad choice.
Holy sh1t i'm ****ed. But I learned so much during this trip. This trips was so good. It
was as live-changing as my trip with Porno at New York. I realized so many things.
I realized that I fully deserved the best. While NY trip was my most
intense cold-approaching experience, this trip was my most intense social circle game
experience ever. I didn't care about anything else but to meet other people, push my
limits and own the sh1t. And that is totally what I did.

4:10AM
And as I'm finishing off writing in my journal, I'm hearing a firework near my condo. And
I know this means time to celebrate. Celebrate a new realization.

Sunday, January 5th
First day of ski trip.
Cool night, cool night.

So we arrived quite late. We went partying at the mountain's bar.
It was fun. I met a sh1t ton of new people. I was drunk and a bit high though, so it was
hard to remember names and faces. Being drunk and high have never helped me be so damn
social before. I wasn't overly gamey and trying to seduce the girls. I was playing
it cool and just being cool with everyone.

I met this cool dude named Robin, introduced myself to Richard's female friends, some of
them kinda cute. I danced like a crazy b1tch, danced so much and had so much fun.

I was chatting with this guy, and then he told me that he wanted to organize a party
at his condo the next day. I took his number, and I knew that he was a social connector.
A dude with a hot girlfriend = good social connector with a ton of hot female friends.

And we kept dancing. I saw people from my high school, people I used to be too shy to talk
to. Some people I just felt were too cool to me. I said hello to them, neutral report.
They were real nice.

Kept dancing. Made friends with Richard's female friends.

Monday, January 6th
Woke up, the weather was too sucky to go snowboarding. Only two tracks open! O well...

So we chilled at Maranda's place (Richard's friend). Met her friends (all 7s or so).

We watched a movie together, played cards, etc. It was fun, friendly vibe. A bit awkward at
first for me though, but I was OK after.

Social circle game is the best

The night was at their place later on that night. I got drunk and high again. A bit more
high than I wanted... A little out of control, but it was fun. After that, we went to Jeff's
place, the dude we met at the bar the night before. Cool sh1t.

His condo was packed. A lot of guys, but a couple hot girls too. I introduced myself to
them without hesitation, total confidence. How? The alcohol and weed helped a lot. Met
some other cool guys too. Very cool vibe. Lots of people from my high school too.

Megan (Maranda's friend) seemed into me pretty much. My friends from my condo told me that
she was all over me, even though I couldn't remember all of what happened. I think we cuddled
a bit, lol. She's a 7 though and get access to other girls. I'm not rushing into getting
laid with a 7! Let's get access to the hotties.

I don't know how I should do it with the hotter girls. Wait until I get sticky and people
recognize me more? Or speed up the seduction? A house party is not like a club, but yeah.
I think I should go for the close more, not rush into it but get things done.

Tuesday, January 7th
Today, woke up at 11AM. Most of my friends were already gone skiing!

Sh1et. So I do my sh1t and go ski for a while. It's fun, meetup with Megan and Jennie (girl
Richard was holding hands with. I got her number, she was complaining that I gave her the
wrong number. Lol accident).

The night, had a conversation with Richard and Luca on picking up chicks. Seems like they
are also down for cold approaching and getting chicks. Luca's an interesting guy, because
he has many female friends, some very hot friends actually, but he never kissed a girl and
is way too friendly. I envy him for having that many female friends, while he thinks I'm a
pickup pro or something, lol.

So we went to condo 4 (Maranda's, Megan's, Jennie's). Chilled, pretty much. Not much. Jennie
looked cute that night, I teased her quite a bit. She gave me the wink a couple times, I did
the same. I don't know if she's just being flirty or is actually genuinely interested. I give
her a 7.2 or so, she's cute. I don't know if I should go for her, or play the long term social
game.

We went to condo 40. Packed again, like last time. I was *****ing out from talking to Jeff's hot female friends. I was putting
way too much pressure on myself, while Luca was being nice and social with them. Sh1t. I have
to step it up and just be friendly! Stop expecting so much and trying to be perfect. I was caught
awkwardly staring at them, instead of me just talking to them.

Anyway. Went back to 4 and we chilled with the usual people. Apparently weird sh1t happened. That
girl told me I was hot and started making out with the girl from my condo. She later made out with
2 other guy friends of mine. We were all expecting her to have a threesome with Mike and her
girlfriend. They won't tell us what happened, but she regreted it apparently.

That just shows how girls can be fckin crazy while drunk. Because she was SHY and INNOCENT the
first time I met her sober! Holy sh1t, like she turned into a complete monster and made out with
anywthing. She was grabbing Richard's crotch later on in the bedroom, but he didn't go for her
because she was already fcking fcked up.

Wednesday, January 8th
Amazing ski, and amazing night. And my funniest experience ever LOL.

The snowboard was amazing. Me, Luca and Richard were going down on the last run just being
crazy and fun. And I strangely started feeling grateful. Grateful about the fact that I have
amazing friends. About the fact that I feel love for the universe. For the beautiful orange
and pink landscape scenery, the sun setting down. I felt beauty all around me. My friends,
myself, the snow, the winter, the mountain, the trees, the fresh breeze. And it was breathtaking.
Simply because of mother nature herself.

 

[Mindgamez]

The night, I was in the bus leading to club Chez Maurice and I had to pee SO ****ING BAD.
It was my life's most intense experience LOL. Had to push on my prostate as HARD as I could
not to pee. It was intense. I was asking people for a bottle to pee in. And the worst happened...
I had to unzip my pants and pee in the school bus. JUST A BIT THOUGH, like for 3-4 seconds,
and then I retained myself again to finish the rest outside. I'm so glad no one saw in the
dark LOL. I thought I'd be so embarassing if anyone else realized what I had done. But no
one ever knew. Wow, next time I'll know how to be careful though (Please Richard, don't
tell anyone).

The night, we went to the club Chez Maurice at Quebec city. Great place. There were lots of students
out of my college, but cool kids and girls. I approached quite a few. I remember grinding
that HB9 (Legit, she was really pretty) two times. She had a boyfriend, that's the best
part. Earlier, I grinded Jennie. She tilted her head and angled her lips towards mine. She
was definitely thinking of kissing me. I could have gone for the kiss, but I didn't wanna
go for a 7.2. She was cute, yes, but I know I can get better. So I pushed her away telling
her that I was enough, and I went on approaching other girls.

And that's what I did. I saw Jeff again with his hot girl friends. He told me to go on stage,
so that's what I did. Jeff pointed me the girl beside me, telling me that she was eyeing me down
during the whole night. No surprise, I'm good looking. So I wrap my arm around her and we
talk close proximity. I assumed that she loved me, and she danced with me for a bit. Too
bad she left a couple seconds ago. O well, HB8.5s.

And then I came back down to dance like crazy. I felt like everyone in the club was my friend.
I was being social with everyone from my college. Damn, if only I could allow myself to feel this
way more often. And that's what I'm going to do.

I did my schedule for next semester. I have kick ass classes with chicks in them. Yoga, holy
crap. And also, every thrusday and friday night, I'll be going to the bars next to my college
to get my college game on top every day. It's going to be my best semester yet, and I promise.
2014 is nothing like 2012 or 2013.

And the night ended on a positive note. What I remember best are the moment where the cool
kids were cheering me on as I grinded that beautiful HB9. Too bad she didn't want to give
me her number. Her friends were **** blocking too, oh well.

Thursday, January 9th
The night that changed my life.

Drake Feat - Majid Jordan - Hold On, We're Going Home Lyrics - YouTube

That day was probably my best day of snowboarding from the whole trip. We were going at the
snowpark constantly. I loved it. I loved the feel of adrenaline, of learning and expanding.
I loved the feel of becoming better, the feel of achieving flow state every second. And
that's what I live for.

Nothing can explain my current feeling of euphoria. I know I don't need weed to feel like
that. I could feel like that every time. Why is it on weed that I have to feel amazing?
Hell no. I know I can feel that great every time.

Before the night at the bar started, I chilled in the condo with the people. And I was
cracking jokes and laughing at nothing and everything. And I wish I could feel that
connected and loving to people more often. I love connecting with people, learning about
what they are feeling and learning about their life stories. I love to learn about other
people's experiences, because it inspires me to live more life experiences.

Went to condo 4 go play King's Cup with the people. Funniest game ever. We went to the bar
afterwards. I learned that Jeff's hot friends weren't from my college, so immediately I'm
compelled to go for the kill ASAP. But not much business. And I kept going. I was with
Luca, Richard and the other people. But as the night progressed, all my friends started
leaving. I remember Maranda taking me by the arm to bring me out of the bar. She told me
that I had to leave, that everyone was getting worried about me.

And then she brought me down. I told her that I really wanted to stay. I didn't care that
nobody else was there. I was in my own little world, and that is all that mattered. And
she let me leave, and I left her go back. She's cute, too bad she has a boyfriend.

And I danced more. I was feeling intimidated to stay around the cool kids by myself, thinking that
they'll realize I'm just alone, but I knew I had to remove the ego from the equation.
And it allowed me to dance more freely. To connect more deeply. To create more awesomeoness.

I'm writing a lot, I know. I'm high.

And then I walked back from the bar by myself around 2:30. And I walked out until I didn't
hear any music at all from the bar. The same way I stayed tonight to write in this journal
right now. 3:55 AM. While not long ago there was still music pumping from other people, now
it is completely silent with just me. Silence is where the beauty of life manifests itself.
It's in the silence that we can reflect on our lives.

And I walked back slowly, and stopped midway to look at the stars. I just looked up and
remembered that the universe is always with me. Damn, I sound like a gypsy. And then it
reminded me of the good old times.

At the camp with HB Laos, H, and the other high school friends. That last after-prom camping
where I was looking up at the stars, the same way I did that night. While I just looked up
and didn't sleep. While I was imagining my beautiful life to come. And here I am, in 2014, realizing that
everything I wished for back in the day, was going to manifest itself very soon. And I
can totally sense it.

And I can't go to sleep. Because my heart keeps me awake. I don't know what I'm saying, but
I wish I could keep this feeling of euphoria for ever and ever. And I want everyone to
experience life to the fullest.

CONCLUSION
- where's the picking up chicks part? I don't know. Being high might make you realize
areas of your life you wouldn't have thought of. And my life is about much more than simply
pick up.
- Life is a TV Show. Every day a different episode. Every year a different season. We are at
season 4 baby.
- I'm starting to feel tired as hell now. I still don't know if I'll sleep.
- Mental resilience. Learn it, live by it. Don't resist anything, embrace.
- The beauty of life manifests itself anywhere. It's everywhere with you.
- Good night. Promise me that you will achieve your greatest, most wonderful things in this
life. Because you only got one.

 

[Mindgamez]

Saturday, January 11th

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OQNTX2Ci-is
This song brings back memories. When I used to be a kid, I was part of a big Pen Spinning community. I dreamed to become one of the best Pen Spinners in the world. And I was so thrilled when I learned that I got selected to be in France's official collaboration video.
BTW : I'm L1nK-0-R4mA in the video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8czAiSBxQHI

If you had only One Wish, what would it be?

2:50AM
The end of the night is approaching.
Me : I don't know if I'll ever get a girlfriend.
Her : Why?
Me : I don't know. All I do is **** women, then I throw them to garbage.
Her : Don't worry. You'll eventually find her.
And I listened to her words, but I looked away. And I felt my eyes water a bit.
Her : How old are you?
Me : 18
Her : Oh well it's normal. Don't worry about it!
She gave me a nice comforting smile. Everything felt real. I wasn't trying to game her or anything. I was just talking because I needed to talk to someone.
Me : Wanna dance?
Her : Oh sorry, my boyfriend is over there... I'm waiting for him.
Me : You have a boyfriend?!
Her : Yeah...
And then I looked away with a sad look on my face. She giggled and tried to catch my attention back. According to Porno, she was being super nice and touchy, trying to cheer me up and sh1t. She was real hot too

And then I walked away.

And I just sat there, looking at the girl I previously approached. I didn't try to dance with her or anything. I just watched her dance. I watched at other people dance.
Darnell : Dude, why aren't you on the dancefloor man? What's happening?
Me : I don't know.
No, I lied. I knew what was happening. I was wondering why I was going through all of this. Why was I willing to go out so often every night? Was I looking for a girlfriend I'll love? Was I looking for some ***** to pound? Or was I just trying to prove myself I could do it?

Maybe I just needed someone to understand me.

Or was I simply trying to convince myself that I could be loved.

And this thought kind of destroyed me. I was sitting in the bright light by myself. I didn't care whether people saw me or not looking lonely. I didn't care. I just wanted someone that could understand me. But no one did, because even myself had trouble understanding myself. And it really hit me.

11:00 PM
We arrive in the club. It's pretty chill. We go to the second floor where they play house music.

5 minutes in, Porno approaches a set of two girls. I join in and immediately, one of the girl starts dancing with me. She was a bit chubby, but had really nice cleavage for some reason. I personally don't mind a girl a bit chubby. She was cool.

And we danced a bit. We made out after a few minutes.

Later that night, I catch her making out with some other dude, and then grinding with a 3rd dude. I re-approached her, but she just walked away from me. Anyway, she was a 7 or so.

And then I walked around, approached some other girls. Lots of unfinished business. Girls ignoring me sometimes. Sometimes pushing me away physically.

We moved to another room. I see a girl by herself, arms crossed. She was probably 8 or 8.5. Really nice cleavage going on. I approach her in a friendly way. She gives me a forced smile. I tell her that she looks bored. We chat for a few seconds and I ask her to dance. We were in the Latin room, so there was Latin music for salsa dancing. And that's what we did. A few minutes later, her HB8 friend joins in. I take her hands and start dancing with her. I start connecting with her more than the first girl. She was pretty hot to be honest.

Weirdly, I felt totally in control with myself. It was a totally different vibe than my previous nightgames. I was with a girl I felt I totally deserved. I felt like I was entitled to her, even though I was feeling a bit nervous. I felt like she would like me just for me. And she did.

We danced a bit. She gave me the horny eyes at some point. I lean in to make-out but she pushes away. We keep dancing, coming closer, then grinding. We chatted for a few minutes. It was nice. She told me I was really cool. She tells me at some point that she has to go somewhere when her friend comes to grab her. I walk with her and try to get her number, but she says no and I let her walk away. Oh well.

I meetup with Porno and Darnell later to eat some paninis outside. Good sh1t.

And we came back inside. We went back to the house room. I approached a sh1t ton more. And I was scared.

And for some reason, I remembered myself playing Amnesia The Dark Descent, horror game. And I wondered how I managed to sit through the whole game and play it while enjoying fear and terror the whole time. And I was wondering why I couldn't allow myself to do the same while playing The Game of Life!

And I started approaching despite my fear. I approached more than expected. It was nice. Lots of unfinished business. At some point, I try Julien's idea to act depressed to get the girl. It didn't work at all haha. And I pretended to walk away from her all sad and sh1t, like a loser. And immediately, I felt stupid doing that. Why should I be acting a certain way in order to get a reaction from the girl? Lol Julien's the best though, but it made me feel weird.

So I just kept dancing around, fun times. Dancing just to dance.

And I came back to the Latin room. There was the HB8 from earlier. She was very friendly with me. She told me that I should come meet her friends, and she brought me to them. They seemed kind of indifferent about the fact that I was there, but it didn't matter. Oh, and her friends definitely looked 20+, maybe 25. I felt a bit out of place.

But it didn't matter. We still danced together, vibed pretty well. I invite her for some ice cream sometime. She agrees. But when come times for the phone number she says no. WTF? Haha.

And the end of the night was nearing. I was getting tired of approaching at this point. Every girl was dancing with a guy in the Latin room, and me, Porno and Darnell were just chilling on the side. It felt like laziness. More like it felt like I didn't care about approaching or not. I just looked at people like none of them mattered to me. Like none of those people I needed to have in my life.

And I asked myself whether I'll be able to experience love in my life one day. I know it sounds cute, but I'm always honest in my journal. And I remembered those times as a kid, when I dreamed of meeting that one girl, that maybe she was the one sitting next to me in elementary school classroom. And when I dreamed to become the world's best Pen Spinner, as ridiculous as it sounds.

But there's something beautiful about hope.

2:50AM
And I saw this hot girl chilling on the side of the bar, and I approached her. In that state of mind, I didn't care about attracting her. I just needed someone to talk to. I approached with a forced smile, not hiding my lack of energy and playfulness.
Me : Hey, what's up
Her : Hey!
She had a bright smile. We chatted for a bit.
Me : From all the girls I approached tonight, you're one of the very few ones who didn't reject me!
Her : Hahaha!
Me : Ohh see? Now you're laughing and stuff!
And I felt good again. And we kept talking for a little while.

Me : I don't know if I'll ever get a girlfriend.
Her : Why?
Me : I don't know. All I do is **** women, then I throw them to garbage.
Her : Don't worry. You'll eventually find her.
And I listened to her words, but I looked away. And I felt my eyes water a bit.
Her : How old are you?
Me : 18
Her : Oh well it's normal. Don't worry about it!
She gave me a nice comforting smile. Everything felt real. I wasn't trying to game her or anything. I was just talking because I needed to talk to someone.
Me : Wanna dance?
Her : Oh sorry, my boyfriend is over there... I'm waiting for him.
Me : You have a boyfriend?!
Her : Yeah...
And then I looked away with a sad look on my face. She giggled and tried to catch my attention back. According to Porno, she was being super nice and touchy, trying to cheer me up and sh1t. She was real hot too

And then I walked away.

And I just sat there, looking at the girl I previously approached. I didn't try to dance with her or anything. I just watched her dance. I watched at other people dance.
Darnell : Dude, why aren't you on the dancefloor man? What's happening?
Me : I don't know.
No, I lied. I knew what was happening. I was wondering why I was going through all of this. Why was I willing to go out so often every night? Was I looking for a girlfriend I'll love? Was I looking for some ***** to pound? Or was I just trying to prove myself I could do it?

Maybe I just needed someone to understand me.

Or was I simply trying to convince myself that I could be loved.

And this thought kind of destroyed me. I was sitting in the bright light by myself. I didn't care whether people saw me or not looking lonely. I didn't care. I just wanted someone that could understand me. But no one did, because even myself had trouble understanding myself. And it really hit me.

3:00 AM
I receive a text from Dumi. He tells me that he'll be waiting outside.
Darnell and Porno tell me that they'll be waiting outside near the coat check. I told them OK.

And I just stayed to chill in the club. I don't know why, but I just did. I just looked at people dance. I looked at the HB8 dancing, didn't approach her. And after a few minutes or so, I approached her again.

 

[Mindgamez]

Me : Hey. I'm leaving, good bye.
Her : Ohhh! You're leaving? Seeya!
And I hugged her. She kissed me on the cheek. I kissed her back. Her friend is telling her that she should go and dance with me. Funny enough, the HB8 I danced with rejected almost every other guy who tried to dance with her.

And we went on the dance floor to dance. We danced. And then I smiled, and I was very happy. Very happy in fact. I didn't care about anything else. I just wanted to dance with her. It didn't matter whether I wouldn't see her again. I just wanted to share this moment with her. It's not like she's special or anything. Maybe she could be, I thought.

Maybe I could bring her with me and show her the world.

I asked for her number at the end, she said no. I walked away, like this dance never ever happened in the first place. It wasn't horny, it was just lovely.

Or maybe am I just crazy. Either way, I don't care.

But one thing that was really amazing about that night, is my degree of congruence. I was totally genuine when I approached. The HB8, the hot girl near the bar. And the hot girl near the bar was acting all lovely and everything, even though I felt out of it and almost depressed. And I wish I could be more open about myself like that, more often.

I really did open up.

Sunday, January 12th
Met with Ani. Wow, she looked much hotter today for some reason.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6rRJhr_Z3As

She was wearing a top that would leave her cleavage exposed. She cut her hair a bit shorter. It was straightened, she had her eyelashes done. She looked hot, natural. No make-up overkill. She turned 7.5.

And we went to the grocery store to get some pop corn. Then, directly went to my place.
I showed her my house a bit. We microwaved the pop corn, and directly went downstairs. Played ping pong for a bit. Then, we were on the sofa watching the movie. I was close proximity to her. We were lying down in weird, different positions. I asked her for a massage. She did. She was nice, she complied. We were spooning at some point, like a couple.

At some point, she let me play with her ass when I wanted. At some point, she even let me play around with her tits(clothed though). They felt so soft but firm. The perfect feel. I liked them better than Alexxx's tits. As I was doing so, I could feel my breathing accelerate. So did hers. She was getting turned on too. She told me that she could feel my **** on her butt, haha. She told me that I was "Soft", meaning that I got hard too easily (according to her (?)).

Even though I tried to make-out with her like 4 times, she wouldn't let me. Though, I was allowed to play with her body as much as I wanted, almost. Weird!

Not even a kiss on the cheek! I told her to lick my face, and she did. I licked her face too LOLOL.

I undid her bra at some point.
Her : Hey, if you undo my bra, you have to put it back on. Okay? Or else I'll slap you so hard!
Me : Hahaha! Alriight...
And then I undid it. I didn't wanna tie it back, and she got mad. I finally tied it back because she seemed real mad... oh well.

We watched some gay movie on netflix because she was into that sh1t. But then she got turned off by the gay men acting all feminine and stuff LOLOLOL. It was stupid as hell.

Then, we stopped the film and we just started talking about anything and nothing. We were just lying next to each other, just enjoying the moment. I was playing around with her hands. I was being playful, for the fun of it. At some point, I was lying face down and she decided to go on top of me to give me a massage. She was sitting on my butt, both legs apart. Then I twisted, and we were in the "Girl On Top" sex position. And we just chatted like that for a few minutes. And when I tried to escalate things further, she stopped me from doing so.

Me : Wow, you're lame. You're just boring.
Her : Why?
Me : You just are ;p.
Her : You've never heard of "Don't give everything the other one wants, or else he'll get bored more easily?"
Me : Haha... yeah, you're smart.

And then I understood she was just playing the game on me. We just chilled more for a while. It was past midnight, it's been 5 hours spent together.

We went upstairs to get some food. Just one more attempt to kiss her, but didn't work. And I was starting to get really impatient. I was getting so horny from playing with her tits earlier. And I was frustrated. Would she stop playing the game at some point? It was just getting plain annoying. She was definitely interested in me. Why would she be so stupid?

She told me she'd be down to go clubbing with me next week. She asked about my schedule for school, and we had Fridays off. She told me we should chill on Fridays too.

And I drove her back to the bus stop. I didn't talk, or almost. I didn't care about talking to her. I just wanted to get my penis wet. Of course, she's fun to be around and stuff, but damn she was such a pain.

And I stopped at the bus stop.
Me : Alright, there you go. Seeya.
Her : Thanks a lot for driving me, it was lots of fun!
Me : Yeah, it was.
I smiled, almost forced. I just nodded, the nod of "Leave my car because I'm tired of your sh1t." I just waited silent.
And then she extended her arms for a hug. I didn't smile more, and I hesitated for the hug. She didn't deserve it really, after all. But I did hug her.
Me : Peace.
Her : Alright seeya!
She left the car. She said goodbye again, but I didn't bother looking at her.

I won't answer her texts before a couple days, I thought. I won't reward her for not giving me what I want. I'm an ass you think? All I want is her pvssy? So be it. At least, I'm honest about my intentions. I don't lie in my journal. I'm a horny man XD.

But I wished I would have been more verbally direct with Ani. I wasn't enough. I was physically, but verbally I couldn't say the words I wanted to say. I just wanted to be like : Cut the sh1t, time to fvck. I'm horny for your pvssy damnit, can't you see it? Can't you see I'm tired of your games?

CONCLUSION
- Open up your hearts. Share your feelings. That's what girls love to do. Be honest. Be congruent, genuine. Be true to what you're feeling. Don't hide your insecurities, because that's when Pickup makes you inhuman. The Game should make you even more human, even more connected to the world. So be it.
- Hope is a wonderful, beautiful thing. Dream of the most amazing, no matter how ridiculous it seems to be. Be a child again.
- Enjoy going through fear, the same way you might enjoy a great horror game or horror movie. It's exciting.
- Be clearer about your intentions, be clear verbally if physically isn't clear enough to her. Man, I have to be more direct.

 

[Mindgamez]

Journal entry of January 17th and 18th are on http://www.simplepickup.com/forum/f...hool-cold-approaches-self-development-22.html

Sunday, January 19th
No Pickup. But today was my most productive day ever. In months. Really.
You don't need to read this if you're only interested in knowing about pick up. This goes deeper.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ldTNShba5Ng

Woke up at 12:40 PM
Yeah, a little late. Had no choice. It's hard to recover from a bad sleep pattern.

Went down to eat. Then immediately, I went upstairs to go practise my dancing until 3:00 PM.

While I was dancing, I realized something.
I was reading Anthony Robbins and stuff, doing his exercises and his stuff to develop myself as a person. But I realized that HIS stuff maybe wasn't always 100% aligned with what I needed to do at the moment and where I wanted to end up.

And then, instead of focusing on HIS teachings, I realized that I should focus on MY own life. MY way of teaching myself to become my best.

And then I took a piece of paper. Wrote down my sticking points on lifestyle development. Not Game sticking points. But lifestyle sticking points. Where I needed to work on.

I wrote down that I was seeking too much approval from facebook and my cellphone. I was waiting for girls/people to text me or message me on facebook, and it always gave me a little boost in self-esteem. And when I didn't get any, I was feeling meh.
So then I told myself that I'll limit my facebook time to 30 minutes today. Actually, I managed to keep it to under 5 minutes. Good stuff.

Next sticking point, was that I wouldn't write things down. Things I had to do or things I had to learn. So I told myself that I'll write every day. No matter if on journal or on paper, I need to write down my sticking points and sh1t.

So I wrote EVERYTHING down. I typed my 2014 resolutions on paper, same for my life values. And I stick them to my bathroom mirror where I would go every morning. It's where I start off the day every time. I read, then shower. Before I leave, I brush my teeth and take a look at it one more time.

I also stick to my mirror a paper telling about my Morning Ritual, Daily Habits and Night Ritual.

Morning Ritual, I ask myself Anthony Robbins' empowering questions (because I like them a lot).
I then identify the sticking points I want to work on throughout the day. Whether game or lifestyle.
I then write myself a reminder about the Emmet Fox Mental Diet challenge on my hand, so I remind myself to keep positive throughout the day.
I then identify the habits to work on, and plan on doing them.
Reread my list of 2014 resolutions.
I ask myself what is my real, empowering identity. I remind myself the reference experiences that align to that identity.
I then thank God and the Universe for giving us so many opportunities to live life to the fullest.

Daily Habits
15-20 minutes of exercise
30 minutes of piano
1 Opener a Day.
Green drink
Read 15 minutes a day
As soon as I get home from school, ATTACK the number 1 task on the list right away.

Night Ritual
Reread sticking points list and write a conclusion.
Ask myself Anthony Robbins' night empowering questions (that I modified to my preferences)
Thank God and the Universe for giving us so many opportunities to live life to the fullest

Next sticking point, I would never clean up my room when I told myself that I would. So I told myself that I'll deidcate 10-15 minutes a day to clean up. I have to stay more organized.

Next sticking point, I burned my willpower on doing unimportant things or tasks. For example, I would google for countless amounts of time on how to add music to my sh1tty phone that wouldn't work, while all I could do is just keep my music on my iPod. Yes, music helps brighten my day and make me feel confident, but it's not the number one task I should be doing. I waste my willpower on doing unnecessary things too much.
So I told myself that I'll always attack the most important tasks NOW.

Today I did attack my most important task, which was practising the piano. Well done. I did it.

After reading a bit of The One Thing by Gary Keller,
I did a list of the things I was doing in my life. I had to narrow my life down to one thing.

I wrote filmmaking, my speech, piano, school, pickup, self-development, etc.

I had to narrow it down, so I removed dancing and my potential music band from my list (not meaning I won't work on them. Absolutely not! I'm just trying to see what's my no. 1 thing).

Was filmmaking my no. 1 priority at the moment? Or was it my speech or pick up? Pick up was high on the list, definitely. So I removed filmmaking.

I had my self-dev. speech and pick up on my list. I figured that self-development and my speech were more important.

But wait, was I doing the speech because I wanted to become a public speaker? Or was I doing it more for my own self-development? It was definitely for my self-development. Of course, being good at lifestyle might lead me to becoming a renowned public speaker, but self-development comes first.

So self-development was too broad. I had to take every part out of it.

So there was the social aspect with the game and my friends. There was habits building, emotional mastery, health and fitness, discipline for having stuff done more effectively, etc.

And I really asked myself an honest question. Why was I into self-development?

And it hit me. While I was trying to have a balanced life about everything, I realized the One Thing.

I was learning to build habits, so I could do the same for the Game. Emotional mastery was to improve my Game. Health and fitness? To give me a healthier look and feel, to have a better prefrontal cortex, hence helping my Game. Discipline? The same way I have to discipline myself to approach the days when I don't feel like it. Meditation? So I could focus better when I was in the Game.

Everything I did was for the Game. Unconsciously, it always was. Most of the things I do are in the intentions of bettering my Game.

So my One Thing is the Game. It's pick up.
The Game is my one passion. Beyond everything else? Holy sh1t, I guess so.

It doesn't stop me from doing other things. Yes I'll work on filmmaking, piano, etc. But I have to realize that, at this particular moment in my life, the Game is my One Thing.

Means that, beyond everything else at this moment, if I only work on my Game, it will help every other area of my life.

Maybe it won't be my One Thing forever. But for now, it is.

What's your One Thing? If it's not pick up, work on something else.

I've put so much effort organizing my life into place today. So there's no turning back. If I don't apply those things, it would have been a extremely big waste of energy and time. Took me hours to organize all my life like so.

I know that momentum happens as soon as I get the ball rolling.

Here we go.
I'm feeling better than ever.
Readier than EVER.

 

[Mindgamez]

I DID stick to my habits, and I'm glad I did.
Cleaning every day, piano every day, meditation/visualisation every day, exercise every day, reading every day.
Only today I haven't been exercising and playing piano because of tiredness and laziness. I know, bad, but I'll come back on it no problem.

Every day, I would write down what I had to improve upon, my "sticking points" in general. And I worked on them. I stayed to talk longer to people I didn't know. I tried to find every opportunity to be social

Monday, January 20th
Cool day.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RkF06hah7s0

Started off with my first class. I arrive late, sit randomly in the class. I don't talk to anyone though.
But holy sh1t, it was filled with hot chicks.

During the break, I chill and meetup with my usual friends. I was feeling super good. I remember meeting some new people, but can't remember exactly who. I remember meeting that ginger cool dude named John.

Also met some dudes in my yoga class. Plenty of girls in this class. Actually, only 4 guys out of 30 students or so. Though, most of them are just average girls. Only 5 or 6 hot girls, but that's good enough.

Local mall approach,
I walked around in the DEAD EMPTY MALL. It was crazy how empty it was. I couldn't find any potential girl to approach. I finally found someone random upstairs. She was totally HB9 though, damn...
Me : Hey excuse me, do you know where's Starbucks?
Her : Sorry idk!
Me : Alright, thanks.
And I let her walk by. But then, I click.
Me : Hey wait, aren't you Amelie? Did you go to ____ high school?
Her : Hummm... I didn't go to _____ but my name's Amelie... How'd you know? Haha
She had a smile on her face and wasn't creeped out at all that I knew her name. Cool cool.
Me : Oh, did you go to _____ elementary school? Maybe in same kindergarten class?
Her : Yeah! Hahaha, how can you remember that?
Me : Hahaha, even though you changed a lot, you kept almost the same exact face...
Her : Hahaha!
She was smiling and all. She seemed interested, she stayed right there and crossed her legs. The classic IOI. We didn't talk much after that. I then I told her goodbye and ejected because I was pvssying out.

And I felt real good after that solo approach that day. Simple, but cool.

Tuesday, January 21st
Good day.

First class, I sit at the very front and only introduce myself to the ugly girl next to me hahaha...

A bit of break. I chill with NuggetGirl and some other buddies. I was in a nice social mode that day, like usual. Can't quite remember much. I always talk to more people that I can remember.

During photography class, I catch two girls looking at me. One of them smiled at me shyly, so I smiled back. The teacher made a joke and we laughed looking at each other. I should have made the first move, damnit. Girls want me. They were HB8s.

Marie talked to me in the hallway. We exchanged hugs. She seemed super happy. Should have taken her number down. She knows I'm kind of into her anyway... lame, lol.

Local mall approach,
Lame ass approach... there was NOBODY. It was literally dead. Like every single time. I asked some random girl if her name was Ching Yang (just invented some random name I thought would be funny). She said no and just walked off LOL.

Wednesday, January 22nd
Yeaah, met some hotties.

I was chilling with NuggetGirl during the break today.
She invited me out to go eat to McDonalds (because of our McNugget inside joke). She was like : Yo! Friday you don't have school? Okay, you should meet me at McDonalds at 12 so we can chill!

It pretty much sounded like a date invitation. I'm kind of thinking that she wants more than friendship. But no, I won't go for her.

So I chilled around with her and her ugly fat friend. Even though ugly, she's very cool and friendly, so who cares. She also knows a few girls.

We went back to P basement. I talked to some random girls.

Also, I met Andrew's hot female friend. She was chilling with an HB9.5 I approached at the ski trip earlier and ejected after a few seconds. She was looking at me, but I didn't have the balls to talk to her... She's insanely hot, and tall. Haha...

I went to the asian club with Porno and Karl. Some very hot white girl was eyeing me down, I could see the hot look. I don't know why I didn't introduce myself to her. I just let her leave, and nothing. Oh well.

And then, I kept chilling with NuggetGirl. I know she has some hot friends. Making friends with her was the best idea.
I met her two friends Steph and Maya girl I met with NuggetGirl while asking her McDonalds questions, haha).

At some point in the interaction, ugly girl tells the girls that I want the V and they all start laughing. It's quite funny. Maya tells that she's Bi, so I go : Oh damn you're Bi? Cooool.
Maya : Haha, it's every guy's fantasy right? It's your fantasy?
Me : Well of course it is! Nothing's hotter than two girls making out.
And we kept laughing. It's cool, I felt like I was entitled to talk to them. Maya was 8 or 8.5. I heard somwhere in the convo that she has a boyfriend, damnit. Steph is a 7 or 7.5.

Local mall approach,
Actually, I had 15 minutes only. And the mall was DEAD. I went upstairs to pee. Downstairs, nothing. I see that random high school girl, a bit cute. I ask her for where is the Dollar store but I pvssy out from transitioning to the compliment again.

I think what I'll do next time is that I'll tell her the EXACT truth.
"Hey, excuse me. I know it's totally random, but I have the goal to compliment one stranger a day. I think you're very beautiful."
It'll take the pressure off and it'll just come as pure value, not taking anything back in return. I just want to do that to get my approaching skills back.

CONCLUSION
- Create habits. KEEP THEM, always. Doesn't matter if you just do one simple step, at least you're doing something.
- It's better to do a half-ass approach than nothing. Even though half-ass doesn't do much, at least you kick yourself in the butt to do something. Pretty lame approaches though, lol.
- MEET FRIENDS OF FEMALE FRIENDS. Female friends, even though some are ugly, they can lead you to other hot chicks. Keep expanding.
- Doesn't matter SO MUCH that you don't close right away. College is about getting sticky with people. Once they recognize you and you actually appear on their radar, then you can make sh1t happen.

 

[Mindgamez]

Yeah Roumie, alllriight Got laid with lots of yoga chicks?

Thursday, January 23rd
The average day.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eERi_OQiiLM

First class, I'm paired up with a dude and two other girls for an assignment. One of them is quite hot, HB8. She was looking at me a lot. No smile though, just looking at me. She looked bored, like all of us. We didn't even get each other's names, stupid. I have to get in the habit of getting people's names. So yeah, we just did the assignment basically.

During break, I chill with the friends. Can't remember with who, but it was fun. Can't remember what happened.

Oh yeah. I left to go to the mall and do my approach for the day. Ends up that it's totally dead, so I give myself the excuse to leave because I thought that I'd go out that same night to make sh1t happen.

But I couldn't go out that night! I had to finish some video for some job...

And that day, I worked on some self-development video. In the middle of it, I check my phone and it's Ani.
She tells me that she can't meetup on Friday, because she has to redo some class she missed... Seriously? 3 attempts at setting up the meetup, and she had to cancel again. And I felt a bit sh1tty after that, but I didn't let it affect me. I continued doing my video.

Friday, January 24th
I have fridays off.
Also, got approached 3 times by some random lone girls. I'm getting approached much more these days.

Though, I had to go to school get some sh1t. I did.
As I walked out the photolab, a random hotass tall HB9 with her friends looked at me, gave me eye contact, smiled and said : Hi!

I was stupid enough to think that she was saying hi to someone behind me. I looked around and there was no one. I then pvssied out to say hello back. Am I stupid? LOL.

Just went home after.

I get prepared to go to Igloofest that night. Igloofest is a HUGE party outdoors organized by my city. It was super crowded as hell. Super fun.

So I arrived there. I had to wait for Luca to arrive. I was by myself, waiting for them. Ended up meeting with the same people from the ski trip last time. Cool people. I met 2 new people, 1 guy 1 girl. The girl was hot, but she seemed so bored and boring for some reason. She wouldn't do eye contact with me. She made me nervous, lol.

Anyway, we chilled at the igloofest place. It was fun. I didn't approach much, because I'd risk losing them in the huge crowd. We chilled, drank a bit, played the fun ice games. It was lots of fun. We slid down the ice slide, played some mini-curling, it was funny.

At some point, it's just me a Luca because we lost everyone else (lol). We dance, I start approaching random chicks left and right.

I start shuffling like crazy. Some hot girl HB8 bumps into me and starts dancing close proximity to me with a cute smile. I get closer, but as soon as I try to pull her in, she runs away! WTF lol.

And at some point, around 11:30PM, Luca tells me that he has to leave. He's asking me why I don't want to leave with him, and I tell him that I want to keep partying. By myself? Who cares.

And that's what I did. And it felt like one of the greatest feelings ever.

I felt so... safe. So secure within myself. Why? Because I could allow myself to just have fun without anyone else. I imagined myself on a trip in some other country, where I was all by myself in a beautiful world. I felt independent, like no one could disturb me. I felt like the people I danced with, it was no different than dancing with friends I already knew. Why? Because one day, my friendships I cherished will come to an end. It doesn't matter if it's death that will separate me from my friends, they won't be there for me at some point.

Life is transient. People come and go. Sometimes they have to leave earlier, and I am by myself. And that's totally fine.

And I wish I could feel like that more often. I wish I could feel happy just being by myself. I don't know why I need to be with people so much. When I stay isolated for too long, it sometimes starts to drive me crazy. I have to embrace this feeling.

A lot of people do things by themselves. Denis went to travel to Europe all by himself, and he got several lays and BJs. Was he feeling lonely during this time? No.

I approached a couple girls. Lots of half-ass stuff, but I had some good genuine laughs with everyone and I had lots of fun.

So then, Darnell texts me that he's here! What a surprise, lol. I try and meetup with him near the entrance. I don't find him.

So I just stay here, and some random HB8 walks up to me with a cute smile and almost starts grinding me. No dancefloor, no crowd, just her. I was surprised.

Me : Ohhh what's up! Who the fccck are you
Her : Ohh hey!

She obviously looked high and/or drunk.
I pulled her closer, we grinded for 2 seconds and she pulled away. We talked for a while. She's a tourist from London, cool I thought. Her friends were watching her a bit further, so maybe that's why she was holding back. So I go and talk to the friends. They give me the b1tch face and walk away LOL. The girl who initially approached walked away too, telling me it was nice to meet me. Basically, her friends were acting b1tchy and sh1t. I was about to close, but she walked away too quickly.

I then meetup later with Darnell. We dance a lot and stuff. My shuffle just keeps getting better and better.

I approached some more. A lot of guys to distract me from doing my thing, so it was hard.

At some point, near the end, some random girl HB7.5 comes in to dance with us. We dance for a while. At some point I pick her up and spin her around. We talk for a while. I tell her she's a nerd for wearing an Adventure Times costume. Funny stuff. I just let her leave and say nothing. I have to stop doing that!

So we kept dancing some more. I love dancing. At some point, I totally forgot about picking up chicks. All I was doing was shuffling like crazy, loving it.

Saturday, January 25th
Shiet!

I was supposed to approach at the local mall that day. Guess what? I didn't! My excuse was that I had to hurry up not to be late at Nick's place to work on the DVDs. I let pass by at least 3-4 hot approachable girls. I'm always coming up with dumb excuses like : Ohhh people will see me. Oh, it's too weird to walk around that way and cut between those people. Ohhh, she's walking fast.

DAAMNNN YIOOOHHH

CONCLUSION
- Don't let sh1tty flaky girls get on your nerves. Yeah, she wasted your time, but what else is there to do? Complain about it? Girls are just retarded sometimes, and that's reality! Like it or not, not every girl will be nice.
- Gaming Solo is the best thing ever. Being in state while by yourself, versus being in state with friends, is a totally different feeling. Get in state alone, and tell me how it feels. It feels safe, independent, deserving of everything. And you know the feeling is coming from NOTHING else but YOU. And that feels amazing.
- When a girl says hello, she's saying hello to you. Just assume it. If you say hello and you realize that you were wrong, it would just make things funnier.
- When girls approach you, it means that you're really fcking attractive. Why? Because no guys ever get approached. You have lots of value to offer. You're good looking. You're amazing.

 

[Mindgamez]

Sunday, January 26th
Great day.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=neJlSdqcBTg
See the lights of illusion
It got you sense of the heartless pain
Let me open the window
Once again... once again

Falling into the hollow
And now you're standing on the edge
Leave all you fame, pride and fate in the room
with broken wings, you aim for the sun

Went to the mall by myself. I did a random half-assed approach, told the girl she had pretty hair and left.

And then, we went to Porno's house to practise our speech.
We practised a good hour at least. It was great. Porno was kind of pissing me off with his laziness at first, but it was all good after a while.

And it's practises like these that keep me going. I envision my speech perfectly. I envision how amazing it's going to be. I love it. I can simply imagine myself, totally transformed on stage, totally expressing myself freely. Letting go of everything. That's what I've always wanted.

To free myself.

My whole.

****ing.

Life.

Monday, January 27th
Fun times, haha.

So first class, Image Ethics, I sit next to a few cute girls in my class. I don't talk to them. I ended up teamed up with the average girls of the class... while all the hot girls were teamed up together. ****! Teacher doesn't make the teams right. Anyway.

For my next class, I'm presenting my project to the class, and I'm feeling nervous. I realized that I'm feeling nervous especially in front of hot girls. If the class would be filled with guys, I wouldn't be nervous at all. Weird.

During my break, I chill with Luca. There's the hot girl named Olivia (which I talked to and approached at the ski trip) who waves at me with a big smile, ignoring Luca. I wave back, and her friend pushes her towards me, the "accidental" push with the kinky smile. Something's going on, her friends are teasing her.

3rd class, Porno joins in my Yoga class LOL. He acts as if he's in our class, but he isn't.

Went to the local mall with Porno. Did a direct approach to a girl I wasn't even slightly interested in. She looked away as I was talking to her, trying to escape my eye contact. She thanked me for the compliment with no smile. I walked away feeling sh1tty hahaha, but it doesn't matter.

Then, I chill around and I encounter some girl from my darkroom photography class. I tell her she's in my class and she goes : OHHH YA!

It's approaches like these that keep me going in the game. The failures keep me going. Not the successes.

It's the failures that keep me engaged in the game. Not the successes.

The failures. Because I learn.

Tuesday, January 28th
Today,

English class, didn't do anything lol.

Darkroom photo class, I was working on my film strip with who I believe to be the hottest girl in the class. She always happened to give me the flirty look, or is it just me. Like, the flirty giggle, if we can call it that way. Didn't get her name though. I have to be more direct. She's at least 8.5

Oh, and didn't talk to the chick I encountered from this class yesterday. That moment when you make awkward eye contact and don't do anything about it... lol fvck.

So I was chilling around the school. This girl I talked to once said hello to me. Her hot ass friend I didn't know gave me that huge smile and said hello to me. I was kind of caught off guard, said hello back hahahaha.

OMG GIRLS THINK I'M HOT. WHY CAN'T I FVCKING UNDERSTAND IT. DAMNIT! I HAVE TO GO FOR THE KILL.

Girls are smiling at me. Girls want to be approached. Am I fcking crazy? No, girls are just naturally attracted to guys damnit. There's NO denying it. I have to stop playing the b1tch.

So I went to the local mall...
I skipped the PERFECT. OPPORTUNITY.
The girl was totally hot. By herself, just reading like an angel. And I didn't do sh1t. CleaNothing blocking the way. She was open to be approached.

Anyway, fail for today's Daygame.
And then I realized how my excuses were totally stupid. And I realized HOW OFTEN I've done it in the past and it went totally fantastic. And I realized how simply ONE more approach couldn't do harm, but it could all the good in the world.

And I felt totally motivated to approach tomorrow. And I will.

So I went back home. Practised my speech for almost an hour non-stop. I didn't realize that I was talking self-development for an hour straight without stopping. I was so immersed.

Maybe that's what I want to do. Become a self-development coach?... I want to be everything that expands my boundaries.

CONCLUSION
- It's not the successes that keeps you going. It's the failures. Because you know you can always better yourself when there are failures. The successes are nothing. The process is all there is.
- Girls fvcking WANT to be approached. Omfg, I've had so many hints recently and I haven't been acting upon them at all. It's ridiculous. I MUST do something about it. Success barrier. Overcome it. Fear of success is much greater.
- Success barriers? Haha. I get it now. I'm afraid of success. While I embrace failure too much, I'm afraid of success. Where's the logic? Hahahaha... This is hilarious, almost pathetic. I feel like an evil scientist, because I know the answer to my problem. I have to accept the fact that succeeding is okay. I have to accept my new reality. My new identity.

 

[Mindgamez]

Wednesday, January 29th
Cool.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ShVQiPmEfA
Remember this song?
It's from 2012. The year everything started.
And I still remember how it felt to write about my 2012 resolutions.
I remember it like it was yesterday.

And I've grown so much since...

The day before, I googled Artdeseduire. It's what Denis looks at to get good at game. He's pro. And I loved their content. Very simple and short, giving you only what you need to know. No overcomplications like RSD, no extremely deep philosophical concepts that are ground-breaking. Just, the essentials... very simple stuff. Kind of like SP.

The day was good. In summary, I chilled with McNuggets and met her cool friends. Met Alan and some others. Cool people. I chilled with them for at least 30-50 minutes. They think I'm a cool guy.

They introduced me to their hot friend Andrea. They pointed her ass going : Look at dat ass man!
And I went : Yeaah, dat ass! McNuggets and Andrea, dat ass!

Also sat down with a few cool guys near the caf earlier today. They knew me for my shuffle dancing around the school.

Fun times.

In Digital Media class, didn't do much. Kind of talked to the girl next to me, 6-7 or so. The other 8 I didn't talk to very much. I have to introduce myself and be a bit more friendly/social.

Local mall approach...
I walked around. I was feeling quite good honestly. Just walked to the bathrooms. Near the water fountains, I see a hot girl. Very hot actually.

Me : Hey, are you Antonia?
Her : No ;o
Me : Ohh, damn! It's because... haha!
I literally stop talking midway to interrupt with a random laughter. She laughs too, it's very cute.
Me : You look like her, just that you have much prettier hair.
And she gave me the nicest smile ever. I don't know why I left shortly after. I'm afraid of success.

And I realized that I just love giving love. Sometimes, just vibing with a beautiful woman is all you need to feel better. No sex, no make-out, no hugs, no number. Just, vibing. Just sharing a smile, stranger or not. It simply feels so nice. Present. It doesn't matter. That's all I needed.

Thursday, January 30th
Myeaah.

So my school game today was literally nothing at all! LOL. Didn't even talk to new people in my classes. Just that cool guy who noticed me for my dancing at the ski trip in Modern Cinema class. They seem cool, I should befriend them.

My dancing is perceived value for everyone. It's a bonus. Hahahahaha!

Local mall...
Went there. Basically loafed around for 30 minutes, skipping sets. I was SO CLOSE to approach, but ALL I could find was girls in groups. Oh, I lied. I actually saw one set with only one girl. It was rare, happened once. And I skipped it because there were people around, stoopid lol.

So I walked back home. In the bus, I listened to music. Thought about how I'll be approaching like crazy tomorrow, because it'll be gaming with Denis all day. + going to some college party at some bar.

And then I saw some girl who looked like my neighbour. Though, I never talked to her in literally 14 years. No jokes.

She had the same face, though she changed... a lot. She was prettier, for sure hahaha. Couldn't quite tell if it was her. I was hesitant to approach her. It felt like a cold approach, because it felt like she was a complete new stranger. But when I saw her go out the bus at the same stop as me, I walked to her and tapped her on the shoulder.

Me : Excuse me, are you my... neighbour?
She had the brightest smile on her face. I love girls that smile, it's so beautiful.
And we talked about our childhood nostalgia the whole walk back home. And then, it felt like we weren't strangers as much anymore. We laughed when we felt like it. It was a fun vibe. She has beautiful eyes...

And we just waved goodbyes after. I'll probably see her again in the bus someday.

I don't know why I felt so good just talking to her. I don't care about number, kiss or sex. Just a conversation is sometimes all you need to feel good.

Does it count as an approach? Yeah, I'll give myself that one.

Other lifestyle habits?
Haven't been working on them as much, to be honest. My life is in massive counterbalance mode right now. All I think of is game. I don't do anything else really, haha. Anyway, I have to get the ball rolling.

CONCLUSION
- Expand your social circle. Stay with people a bit longer than usual. Don't eject so early. Meet friends of friends of friends. REMEMBER THEIR NAMES! I had to jot them down on my iPod, because I would always forget. Good trick.
- I need to college game more. Nothing's really happening now.
- I can feel my cold approaching skills coming back.
- Sometimes, vibing with a beautiful girl is the only thing you need. It just feels so lovely to share a smile with a lovely girl, don't you feel? It's just so nice, doesn't matter who. It's the chemistry... Doesn't matter the rest. This is how I should feel with every conversation with a cute girl. Just... share the beauty man. Just love.
- How did I get those nice smiles? I don't know. I allowed myself to remember all those beautiful smiles I gave to other girls in the past. I just can't get enough of them. It warms my heart! I know it sounds cute, haha. I love giving love, I'm like a girl. I just wanna love like a puppy dog.

 

[Mindgamez]

Friday, January 31st

8:55 PM
I was walking back home, after reading a few pages from Osho's book on fear.
And I really questioned myself.
What is fear?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nGCeJvG5gSY

When we feel fear, we fear something that is going to happen. We don't feel fear now, we feel fear about what's about to come. So we fear the future. But the future doesn't exist. The only thing that exists is the present moment. The Now. Does the future exist Right Now? No it doesn't. So we fear which does not exist. Something that doesn't exist is nothing. So you're afraid of nothing.
You think you're afraid? Because you're afraid of which does not exist. You create fear out of absolutely nothing. You're afraid of nothingness.
And when it clicked, I felt suddenly much more powerful.
I could feel the adrenaline rush through my body as my iPod was playing.
Because I knew deep down, I was afraid of nothing.



Of Nothing.




I embrace every challenge.
Since the beginning, I was afraid of nothing.

And it took me so long to realize that.

1:00 PM
I meetup with Denis that day. We did a bit of daygame approaching in his school. It made me realize how much I had to work on my game. I was still choding myself out so much, while he was being the complete boss.

Denis is a real PUA. Very impressive.

We went to the mall, and he spotted a chick sitting. They started talking, etc.
It took him between 5 to 10 minutes to make out with her. In the DAYTIME. COLD APPROACH.
How amazing is that? It seemed like he was acting with primal instincts. He just went for it. No questions, no doubt. Just went in at some point. He made out with her 2 times.

And it blew me away, quite frankly haha. I choked him playfully and made him fall on the ground. It was quite funny, the workers in the stores were laughing their asses off at the situation HHAHAHAHA.

It's only my last approach that I actually went for the number close. I still wonder why I took so damn long for that.

Summary of daygame, I did some great direct approach on some 9. Great genuine opener, totally in shock. It ended up with nothing though. Funny how I literally had to run to her haha.

10:50 PM
Me, Porno and Antoine arrive at the club. It's outside of the city, seemed like quite a lost place. But it was actually very nice. I liked the ambience.

Thing was that, LOTS of people from my elementary school and high school were there.
Surprisingly, I wasn't intimidated by them anymore. They were just normal people to me, they weren't higher class than me. I used to think that they were the popular kids and stuff, but none of that. The hotties I was too afraid to talk to in high school actually responded with the biggest smiles of surprise when I approached them, haha.

And I felt like my past was now the past. It felt real good to know.

The beginning of the night, I was feeling too shy to talk to the female friends of my friends of friends. Lol.
Sometimes, I just overthink getting into some other social circle. I have to chillax, damn.

I went to the bar. Said happy birthday to some random girl, she loved it. But as always, I was half-assing my sh1t. And omg I'm doing it way too much. So I decided to be more epic.

So yeah,
The dancefloor around 1:00 AM was cool. Well crowded, it was fun.

The first few girls I approached, some were really damn nice, some were b1tchy.

So there's those two girls with glowstick bracelets I approach.
Me : Hey, awesome rave glowstick bracelets! Yeaah!
They look at me weird. One of them starts pushing me violently. Really?
Me : Wooow, WTF?!
I point her to her group of hot female friends. They all look at me with a no-no look. Some other girl pushes me hard again. I go up to her.
Me : You're a b1tch, but I still like you.
And just walked away, totally sarcastically.
My back is totally wet. Oh wait, it's the beer she threw at me!
I wasn't surprised. I kind of expected it with that type of girl. I could just feel her negative energy right away when I just made first eye-contact.

Everyone else looked at me confused, in shock. I tried to move away from the dance floor, just trying to escape. Some RANDOM girls I never talked to, didn't say anything to, see me and push me around too.

Everyone was watching.

And at this point, I knew I had nothing else to do. My situational value totally went down. So I knewn what to do.
Burn it to the ****ing ground.

Walked out of the dancefloor. Went to my friends to tell them the story. In the moment when I got wet, I was a bit pissed, but it didn't take me longer than 10 seconds to start laughing like crazy! Seriously! It was hilarious.

The girls I told the story to laughed with me. They enjoyed my positive carefree attitude.

I went to dry off my shirt, came back and kept approaching left and right. Rejections, didn't matter. Actually, some girls were very nice to me.

I remember joining random circles of dancing girls, just dancing sensually like a girl. They'd cheer me on and stuff.

And for some reason, I just kept getting rejected.

The stage was forbidden to go on. No one went on it.

Except me and Porno, so we did.

We danced like crazy monkeys on stage. The girls with the glowstick bracelets? They actually cheered us on. What the hell. All the girls that thought I was the weird creep attacker, now they cheered me on. Why? Because everyone else was cheering us on.

There were around 200 people in there.

And I went back down. I approached some girl with a glowstick bracelet. She was almost taller than me, looked older for sure. I asked her if she was friends of the people with the glowstick bracelets. She was. I told her the story and she was shocked, hahahaha. I took her by the hand, spun her around and grinded her for no longer than 5 seconds. Then, she pulled away and didn't want to dance anymore. We just let them leave.

Some two other girls from my college. Very friendly girls. Some of them slapped my ass. So I slapped hers.

 

[Mindgamez]

And I reapproached the big group of glowstick girls. They were receptive. Except the one who threw a drink at me.
So I talked to her directly.
Me : Hey, I forgive you for the drink. And I'm sorry for what I have said.
I was genuine. But then, came the sarcastic part.
Me : Yeah, I'm so sorry for complimenting you on your bracelet. It was totally douchy of me, I'll never do that again!
And she told me to go away. I could see sadness in her face, mixed with frustration. It was 2:30 AM, and she didn't even dance with any other guy yet. She was all alone. Her friends who initially supported her throwing a drink at me were now extremely friendly with me.

First impressions are nothing. **** everyone who says so. It's a limiting belief.

Went back upstairs near the bar. I directly approached some two hotties by themselves. I just start random dancing and they laugh and stuff. One hottie goes close proximity, bumps into me on purpose. She looks super attractive. She's hot as hell. I flirt with her a bit, grab her by the face telling her she's crazy as hell. Obviously drunk hahah. They asked for my name, cool times. I see one of them make out with one of the dudes. Then, they were back to the group of dudes, so I was a bit intimidated to reapproach. I let them go.

I start randomly dancing in the middle. Some two girls approach us. They were from my college apparently.
It took a while for Porno and me to register that it's actually the cheerleaders from our college we cold approached a year ago. The ones who brought a fake boyfriend to scare us away.

So one of them was being flirty(or just liking the attention) with me. Shaking her butt in front of me and stuff.
I went to the extreme, hahaha. I forgot something though.
I forgot that I should slap a girl's ass, preferably only after she did first. But I was the first one to do it.
So I slapped her ass! She looked back, totally in shock. Her friends, 10 times worse.
The girl whose ass I slapped had a slight smile on her face.
Me : Ohhh sorry sorry! Sorry it was primal instincts, couldn't resist! PLEASE slap me in the face. Now!
I went back to the group of friends. The asian friend was being extremely, extremely b1tchy. The most undesirable face you could think of, but I made an effort not to be affected by it.
I told them to all slap me in the face hard. Of course, they didn't slap me the hardest ever. They liked the fact that I was playful and positive.

Burn it to the ****ing ground.

And sometimes I'd dance off, then came back to them. The guy friends were friendly and stuff. Some of them in the group liked me, while some of them were totally MAD. LIKE MAD MAD.

The asian girl was totally mad at me, her blonde friend too, whom I DIDN'T even TALK to. While the girl's whose ass I slapped was all happy and playful around me.

Social conditioning? **** that.

So when was time to leave, I wave them goodbye with a totally genuine smile. Nice to meet them.
The asian girl goes to me, totally genuine hate in her eyes, no smile.

"I wish I will NEVER see your face again."

Ohhhh!!! Went all the group. I also kept my calm, went Daaaammmn XD. I wasn't affected by it. The girl whose ass I slapped was smiling and all that.

And I walked away.
And I really felt pity for her. The asian girl, particularly.
While she was the high status cheerleader who got all the validation in the world for her hotness, and I was the guy getting drinks thrown at and slaps in the face, getting rejected the WHOLE night. Who had more fun? Me.

And I really felt pity for the glowstick girl. Is she her fault that she's b1tchy?
She wouldn't apologize to me. Why? Because it would mean that she was wrong all along. Her friends already reinforced the fact that she acted stupid by being friendly with me, admitting that she did a mistake would mean that she was wrong.
People hate admitting being wrong.
It would mean that all her b1tchyness couldn't give her validation anymore. There was no more validation she could get. Why? Because I was friendly and unaffected, still having fun. I could see in her eyes deep frustration and sadness. And I could do nothing to help her.

She envied me for the fun she couldn't have, and I knew it.

And that is how I concluded a night of totally polarizing. Overcalibration? Yes, very often. It lead me to getting slaps. But one thing was sure. I was absolutely, absolutely unapologetic. People watched me fail, and I didn't care. I was dancing retardedly in front of random groups of people, and they thought it was funny.

CONCLUSION
- Burn it to the ****ing ground. Build that mental resilience. Nothing stops you. Go on, keep going.
- Going over the top is not bad after all. It creates that polarizing mentality. Even though you create some tension around others, there will be a few that will very respect what you do, and totally love you. I know some girls I approached were very friendly and loved my vibe. My friends loved me too.
- Polarizing. It's black or white. No grey zones. Either you go or not. There's no half-ass.
- There's no ego. People from my school? People from my high school/elementary? There's no ego. Anyway, I'd rather have a bad player reputation but having lived the college life to the fullest, rather than having no reputation at all, or worse, a good guy reputation everyone kind of accept but hasn't tried anything. Who do you want to be?
- I think I'm going to start approaching at school. My school is much smaller than Denis' school, but it doesn't matter. Where's my college life at? I literally have 3 months and 2 weeks left, something like that. It's nothing.
- Have empathy for those who can't allow themselves to have fun. Have empathy for the angry guys and girls that disrespect you. Have empathy, because you know that deep down, they have a deep sense of insecurity and a sadness. Help them, apologize, be kind. Don't do it sarcastically like I did lol.
- What about living to the extreme?

 

[Mindgamez]

Thanks a ton for support guys

Sunday, February 2nd
Daygame with Porno.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xCuQJQR1_Xg

It was very nice. We did a good amount of approaches. I approached the 1st set I saw. He approached a bit, I approached a bit too.

I went for the close as much as I could. I tried to transition to an insta-date at some point, because the girls was staying with us for like 15-20 minutes in front of us, even though one of them was being a b1tch. I don't get girls like that! They just stay, seems totally uninterested but still stays. Wtf.

So yeah. Same type of long-ass meaningless conversation happened with two 14 year old looking asians. We were just trolling them basically, asking them if they like to eat dogs and stuff (I'm asian too, so it's not racist lol).

So yeah. Quite long approaches overall!

I noticed that the problem was that I didn't approach solo girls enough. We were only approaching groups. I wasn't willing to go solo on some lone girls often enough. I'm relying on Porno too much.

I also kind of lost my mood midway through when Porno told me that he wasn't down to do the speech with me anymore.

The speech at the school's agora? Yeah, he's not down for the self-development speech anymore.

Meaning I'll be doing everything.
By myself.

EVERYTHING.

No one to help me. A one hour speech I'll volunteer to do in front of my school.

It's probably the scariest idea I've ever had.
Just thinking about it makes me cringe. I don't know why I'm thinking of becoming such a jackass.

Monday, February 3rd
Honestly, pretty much fail game that day hahaha.

Failed to arrive a bit earlier in class to chat some girls. Though, I caught some girl from across the room checking me out. She was hot.

Talked to some other girl in my next class. Some girl I thought believed I was weird and didn't like me. I was wrong! If you just start a normal, inoffensive conversation, the rest don't matter.

Had no time to do my mall approach. I had to go outside of town to give some DVDs for my job.

Though, the night,
Something clicked. It was 11:10 PM, But I knew I had to meditate and do my visualization. So I did.
And I felt much better the next day. I wasn't doing my habits consistently.

Tuesday, February 4th
Great.

In the bus line, I see Arielle (HB8 I met long time ago). She's still as hot as always... Basic small talk, nothing.

First class, English, I sit next to Vicky (some 5-6 I met last semester). She seemed like she was down to flirt.

On my right though was some other 7. We talked a bit, she gave me friendly smiles. She'd be down to get to know me. She's nice, but she's definitely the introvert type. I'm not really attracted to her, she's not perfectly groomed... like, I don't know. Lol.

Said hello to the girl from my gym class last semester.

During break, I chill with Porno. I chill at the caf with the most popular guy from my school (he's actually the nicest guy out there. His name's Magick). He's totally a social connector. I gotta make friends with him.

Next class is Darkroom photography.
The HB8.5 from last time? Oh my god, she's so hot. To me at least.

She enters the class and sits in the front. At some point, she turns her head towards me. We lock eye contact for 5 seconds, and then she gives me what seemed like a polite smile(or unsure?). I respond back.

Anyway. In the classroom, she kind of initiated the teasing. I was asking some dude if that pot contained his film strips. Ended up being hers, so she went : Yeah those are mine. Yeaah, you're trying to steal my photographs, is that it?
Me : Nooo. Asians are better photographers! Hehehe...
Her : Oh really? Well, that's how it is? Huh?

Lol, funny stuff. She's asking me lots of questions about which step to do to develop our film strips. She laughs at the little things I do. She gave me quite some attention. Maybe was it just me, but anywhere I went, she was always somewhere close. Almost seemed like she was following me.

I teased her a lot. Called her a zebra (because striped shirt hahaha), and the pimp (cauz of her watch). I think I remember seeing her blush a bit when I approached her.

I was having fun the whole class, just being a bit loud and sh1t. There's this girl, I don't know her name, who was looking at me, waiting for me to talk to her. Said hello. I said hello to her a while before when she was hanging out with some of my other female friends. She's hot too, HB8.

The HB8.5 is confident. I find it very fcking sexy. I love girls that can just hold eye contact and express themselves. Imagine that confidence that transfers to the bed, that's fcking hot.

When she was giving me attention and talking to me a lot, I felt nervous inside. Thoughts going in my head :
Damn, a super hot chick giving me attention and holding my gaze when I talk to her. I like that... Sh1t, I gotta get used to my new attractive self.

At the end of the class, she bumps into me on purpose with the smile. I get her name and lower my voice in all seriousness. I didn't want to sound needy. She mirrored my voice tonality and we almost shook hands. She didn't wanna shake it because she had chemicals on her hands, hahaha. Her name's Melissa.

CONCLUSION
- Meditation/Visualization helps. Do it.
- Dayum that HB8.5 in my photoclass will be some success barrier to overcome. Fvck it. Every girls are the same. Everyone is the same. From the loser to the popular kid.
- Meet social connectors
- Be a fckn boss.
- I'm tired, I'm gunna get some sleep.

 

[Mindgamez]

I'm not going to lie, I've been kind of slacking off in every other area of my life...

Wednesday, February 5th
Good.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L17iB-qLFk0

First ethics class is kind of funny. When the teacher is gone, I whisper loudly to the people in front of me for the quiz's answers (we were doing a quiz). They laughed, didn't talk to the girls afterwards.

Then, had my usual long ass 3 hour break.
I chilled with McNugget girl. We go to the club rooms and chill there for a bit. I tell them that I want to go to the MB (it's like a mini cafeteria, let's call it like that) and wasn't sure whether I should bring Ashley with us (girl whom I didn't really talk to). Ends up that she wanted to join us, even though it seemed like she wasn't interested.

Funny. People that don't look interested sometimes just try and hide it. She told me she was introvert, after all.

And we chilled at MB for a bit. Met some other cool guy too. They invite me to go to Igloofest (some cool big party event in my city), and I accept the invitation. Ashley should be coming with McNugget girl hopefully.

Digital Media class, I chat a bit with the hottie next to me. She's a HB8, very hot. Beautiful smile. We actually only chatted about class, but she was giving me the nice smile every single time. Didn't get her name either... Oh well...

There's no rush. But I'll get it next time. TIME creates attraction.

At the mall,
Literally walked around without seeing one single approachable girl. Until like 4 minutes before my bus came, but I made the excuse that I didn't wanna miss my bus. Stoopid.

Thursday, February 6th
Good things I learned.

First class I made an awkward move. I saw next to a girl without saying hello to her. Just asking her about the homework like 2 minutes later. It felt a bit awkward. Anyway, it's not like she was sitting at the other end of the class by herself and I just came in randomly! It was kind of the closest seat from the door.

Later on I was talking to some dude at P 2nd floor, and she walked by and just looked at me. Like she was expecting me to say something, but she just walked by.

Lol.... anyway.

Forgot to mention that I saw HB Nipplez the other day(girl I used to rate HB9 during 1st semester. She's more of an 8 to be honest...). We hugged, and then I realized that there was nothing so special about her. She was just... HB Nipplez.

But then yesterday night, I have a DREAM about her. And it's... very hot. She makes out with me, shows me her ***** too. I then woke up from that dream thinking, whoaa.

And then I saw her again today. Its weird, because I saw her like the sexual beast she was in my dream. We hugged and she walked away while sliding her hand on my chest. I'll text her soon.

I skip half of my Modern Cinema class to go see Ryan Clauson at the school's agora. He calls himself Mr. Attraction (you can google him. He's okay).

He's a dating coach. Not a PUA, but a dating coach. Though, his concepts and ideas were very PUA related. He was talking about body language and mirroring.

He reminded me that it was important to very LISTEN. Be interested, not interesting. At the same time, not be needy. Also, pump our states up.

But mostly, it made me realize that so many people look for tips on how to seduce the opposite sex. So many people, guys and girls, were listening to him. Everyone has a bit of "game" inside of them.

At the mall,
Walked around. Skipped tons of sets. I was back to feeling like sh1t ;o. Until I decided to go in. When I realized that the girl I approached wasn't actually that hot, I just ended up asking for directions. Stoooopid ;O

So yeah,
I'm not going to lie, I feel kind of sh1tty for not following my habits as well. I must get back on'em ASAP. Actually, right now. Working on my habits. I'm doing reading, visualization/meditation after this. Wasting too much time is bad. My daygame has been totally slacking off too this week. I'm getting back on track next week, promise. Actually, right now.

CONCLUSION
- Talk to hot girls sitting next to you. To break the ice, just say random sh1t about the class.
- Don't sit right next and be awkward and say nothing LOL. HAHAHAHA. Alright, at least I sat next to her...
- I'm afraid of showing intent. I'm afraid of opening up. I just have the surface layer conversations.
- VALENTINE'S DAY IS COMING. I don,t have a valentine yet. Let's go. I'm a PUA.

 

[LearningSlowly]

Dude I missed the best HB9 on Thursday. Sat next to her in class, good conversation with names and all, just got stuck handing out work sheets at the end of class and couldn't get her number.

Maybe I'll see her this Thursday night but jeez this one was hot.

 

[Mindgamez]

Damn yo I know the feel haha. Let me know what happens.
Let's do this

Friday, February 7th
Cool party!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iwDKjNurbZM

We were at Camille's apartment again.
I chatted with everyone. It was a nice friendly vibe with everyone. I made friends with all the girls, some who remember me from the 1st party.

Camille : You guys are the coolest guys we've ever met at a random bar! You guys are awesome! We'll stay friends. Don't try and sleep with us, but you can try with our girl friends if you want to.

Girls want us to hook up with their girl friends when they start seeing you as a cool fun guy that gives value.

There was this girl who was giving me very subtle IOIs from the party. I don't know why I didn't get her number. Damnit.

Anyway. Nothing really happened. Except for a lot of fun and fooling around.
Simply chilling with pretty girls for a while makes you feel sexier and more entitled. This is what plays with "Inner Game" the best. Girls loved my laugh and playful attitude. Friendzone, fck it haha.

The next day, I woke up in Camille's apartment and I was feeling super chill. I felt like I didn't need any alcohol to be friendly and fun again with the girls from earlier. I just came in their room and started chatting of the really funny things that happened the night before. And it really felt like my "state set point" went up. I don't need to warm up to be social.

I just am. And that's a great feeling. You naturally are calm and chill.

Saturday, February 8th
Greaaaaaaaaaaaaaat night!

The day, I start off by stopping at the local mall with Antoine. I do one cold approach and leave.

So we arrived at Igloofest at 7:30 PM. We started approaching a little bit, getting into the mood a bit. Went a bit slowly at first.

Then at some point, I take Porno with me and start MASS APPROACHING. Approaching anyone. Left and right. Left and right. No asking ourselves questions on what to say. Just going with it. Bam bam bam bam bam. It was a lot of fun. At first, near the beginning of the night, people were definitely "out of state", not really in the party mood. So when we approached them, some of them gave us the funniest weird looks ever. We kept approaching.

At some point during the night, I'm starting to really get a feel for it. I'm approaching some girls, dancing with a few.

There was this girl who started talking, and I noticed her tongue piercing which turned me on instantly.
Me : Hey, show me your tongue piercing!
And she stuck her tongue out. I tried to grab it with my lips but she pulled away with a smile.
We talked for a while. She showed me her tongue again.
Me : Haha, is that an invitation?
And then she leaned in and stuck her pierced tongue in my mouth. It was 2 seconds make out, but still. She then ran away for some reason. I told her to come back, but she just walked off lol.

This boosted my confidence. I knew I was back on track at that point.

Danced with a few girls whom I was 2 centimetres away from making out with. Didn't happen, because the girls just kept getting pushed away in the crowd.

Not to forget that I got approached by some 30 year old MILF hahaha. She talked to me real close, and I was wondering if MILFs would be down to meet 18 year olds. Some of them fantasizes about younger guys.

When we were walking around, dancing, chilling, there was Jad who was saying me sh1t like : Hey, there's a 3 set over there! Wanna approach?
What? A 3 set? What is this? Mathematics?
When he said that, it immediately made me wtf. While I wasn't even analysing whether there were guys, girls and how many of them, he was being logical and sh1t.

DUDE. You just approach because it's all fun and games! Nothing else. Don't stress it.

Ended up meeting with Jeff (cool dude from the ski trip)!
While I was trying to reach him the whole night, I managed to find him randomly later haha.
Actually, I was just chilling around, and then some of the girls screamed my name. It was Olivia with her friend Naz. They screamed my name like a Justin Bieber fan and jumped in my arms. It was crazy... Funny because those girls I only talked to once or twice, and it felt like we were best friends already. I loved their vibe.

They were very friendly girls. Funny because when they jumped in, I was a bit caught off-guard but I just kept my cool and stayed not too reactive. Then, all the girls told me that I should hookup with Annalisa, some girl (whom I didn't find particularly attractive. Maybe 7.2). I didn't want to. The other girls were all HB8s and so on. Olivia's an 8 or so.

We partied it up. It was so much fun. Jeff was so friendly, I love his vibe too. Cool guy, too bad he doesn't go to my college.

He invited me to come to the club with his girl friends. So that's what we did.
We chilled a bit with them again. We danced around, it was lots of fun.

As soon as I came in, I started approaching. I was feeling very centered and confident. There was a new aura of calmness and control in me. My heart wasn't pounding like usual.

When I was dancing with Olivia and etc, Olivia pushed me on Naz while she was already grinding some guy. She gave me the big eyes wtf look, so did I LOL. And I just walked away like a b1tch and told Olivia to stop it. She was laughing her ass off. Yeah, I should have grinded her anyway. Get that sexy vibe going with the girls. But nah, I didn't wanna make it "awkward". Funny me.

Though I was acting like a b1tch kind of, I have to admit. Olivia is such a cool party girl. She's nice and everything, very friendly and playful. She WANTS me to hookup with her friends. That's probably the best type of female friend you can have. She's hot too. Naz is meh though. To me at least.

There was this cute HB8 (8.5 according to Jad) who I approached with the friendly vibe.
I tell her she's a zebra with her striped shirt. I love this line, it's funny. After a while, I extend my hand.
Me : Let's dance, I'll show you some salsa.
I don't dance salsa, but I always say that haha. She took my hands. We got closer and closer, started grinding. Forehead to forehead. I take her hands, put them around my neck. We looked at each other, feeling totally calm. Lovely vibe, no stress. Just fine.

It was rare that I could look into a girl's eye and simply see and feel pure love and presence. Nothing else, not even nervousness. There was no fear to have. All there was was the present moment. And she gave me some of the brightest smiles I've seen from a girl in a while.

Apparently, according to Jad, their friends were super happy when I was dancing with her, smiling and all that.

At the end, I took her number down. I text her 2 hours later, she responds immediately.

I'm still trying to figure out how I'm going to ask her out on a date. How I'm going to text her.

So yeah. We partied from 7:30 PM 3:00 AM. Basically 7 hours 30 minutes of partying non-stop.

CONCLUSION
- Stop being friendly at parties. Parties are meant to hook up. You have a good rep around the girls and they like you already? Go a bit further. Friendzone is cool, but not forever.
- When girls think you're a cool, fun guy, they'll WANT you to hookup with their cool hot friends.
- When you offer value and show girls the love, they will instinctively like you. There's no questioning it. If you're cool and you just offer fun, they'll immediately love you.
- Social Circle game is what gives you the best boost in self-confidence. Because you KNOW you deserve to hang out with hot chicks. It's totally different from a superficial random cold approach that lasts a few minutes.
- Mass approaching is great. Do it. Don't question. Just go. Questions don't need to be. Questions happen the next day, not while in action.
- Being tired is just mental. If you don't think of your tiredness, it goes away. I was running on 1 hour 30 of sleep, literally. I was fine.
- Entitlement comes down to understanding no one's on a pedestal. Everyone's just human.

 

[Mindgamez]

Great week!

Monday, February 10th

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V_kjf2J7Als&feature=youtu.be
God only knows why we were born to burn
Are we perfect mistakes?
Or almighty **** ups?
One thing's for sure, he doesn't ****ing love us
Hate must weigh on you like a broken cross
Hate; the dividing line we'll never step across
Outcast and reject
Father, father, how I've let you down
A ****ing tyrant in a hollow crown.

I don't know what happened, but during Yoga class, I had some enlightenment moment while I was practising. Simply being so present.

It's a cool activity. It puts you into presence.

We had to lie down and simply relax at some point. And I was thinking of why I was into all of this.
Because I want to conquer fear
Because I want to become the best man I can be
Because I love the rush of adrenaline
Because I want to evolve as much as possible

And then, I started feeling some amazing rush of energy in my body. It felt like fire in my body, fire I rarely felt those past few months. This is how I felt in 2012. This is the fire I used to have back in 2012 when I was starting out, having all the motivation in the world.

And it was truly beautiful to see. I feel like, because I'm not going through as much pain as before, there's not as much fire as before.

And I realized.
Pain is what keeps me going.

I did an approach at the mall. I can't remember it though.

Tuesday, February 11th
She wants the D.... Omfg. And she's incredibly fckn hot.

So yeah,
Darkroom photography class, I choose my station next to Melissa's. She's LEGIT giving me the sparkly eyes the whole time. Horny eyes should I say? YES. Everytime I made eye contact with her, I could feel the sexiness.

I'm just teasing her a bit, blowing her with the cleaner thingy for lenses. We are teasing each other, she mirrors my movements and creates the "us" mentality for us.
Her : Oh, WE are so stupid! WE are so immature.

She even told me that she liked my name. She's so down.
When she showed me her pictures, when I helped her, she would do so full body contact. She smelled good too. I think she could feel my boner. Anyway.

We went back to class. The way she was looking at me, flipping her hair too obviously and telling me sensually how she liked to eat bananas.

It's crazy, because what we talked about didn't fcking matter. We almost only talked about class, nothing outside of school. But the subcommunication was all there. The teasing was there, retarded sh1t.

I ended up not taking her number down. BECAUSE I WAS A FCKN PVSSY.
I was being totally natural and just embracing the love. While at the same time, I couldn't believe in the back of my head that such a hottie of that "caliber" could be giving me the horny eyes the whole fckn time.

I couldn't believe I was that attractive to women.

Which is why I acted like a pvssy. Success Barrier. Horrible... haha...
BUT NEXT TIME I SEE HER, I'M TAKING HER NUMBER. NO EXCUSES. SHE LOVES ME.

Local mall,
I did a direct approach. Lovely approach, she quite enjoyed it. She walked away out of awkwardness after a minute or so. Too bad I didn't do sh1t about it ;o

Wednesday, February 12th
Good stuff.

Arrived to school at 11:30. I chilled with McNuggets, some dude named Mathew and some other kids.

McNuggets asked me if I had a valentine. I said no, blablabla. Her neither. She seems down for me, but I'm not.

I also signed up for the speed dating thingy at my school. Apparently all the cheerleaders will be there. Amazing opportunity to meet some of the more "popular" hotties at school. Fun times.

So before class, I chill at the computer lab with Karl. I didn't notice that fckn MELISSA was sitting at the other end. I just walked right past her as I was heading to class. My heart was pumping like crazy. I could hear my own pulse. I just walked pass. She didn't see me. I totally pvssied out on that one. I was almost late to calss, so that was my excuse to just go.

Omg. Really? I felt so sh1tty after this lol.

Digital Media class, some girls random start talking to me telling me how my film in Filmmaking II class was amazing, etc. I start chatting, some of the girls ask me questions and sh1t.

Local mall,
I go there. For some reason, McNuggets is here again, magically. I was planning on approaching solo, but then she tells me that she wants to join me in my adventure at the mall coz she's waiting for her bus. Ahhh fck.

We chill for a bit. When she goes for her bus, I chill around a bit. I end up approaching a random asian girl, telling her she looks cute and happy valentine's day. I then eject. She had the brightest smile, I don't know why I left. She was not bad at all.

The call!
So the girl Heloise whom I met at the club last Saturday, I texted her back and forth. I sent her a text telling her that I'll call her later that night to plan a date. She said OK! So already, I knew she was down.

Honestly, that type of text before hand removes so much more pressure for me and her.

So I walked around my ping pong table at least 100 times. It took me legit 20 minutes to gather the courage to call her. It felt like a cold approach, literally. I message Denis for some tips. He suggests me to work on my low alpha male voice, which I did. I practised it a couple times before calling her up, hahahaha. Silly of me? Not really. It's so romantic comedy movie typical hahahaha.

It's funny because I made a post about it on my college's official Secrets Page, and so many girls got mad at the fact that I said that girls are desperate as hell on V-day and need the vitamin D LOL.

So as soon as I call her, I'm getting excited and sh1t.
Her : Allo?
She had the most innocent, cute voice in the world.
Me : Salut, ca va?
And I had my totally low, confidence voice. I totally felt like the greatest seducer at that point. Honestly, my voice sounded like fckn porno. And then she started giggling of nervousness and kept her high pitched innocent voice. We chatted for a minute or two. I then setup the date, and she says yes.

We say goodbyes.
As soon as I hung up the phone, I start jumping like a kid, full of excitement. Wow, never been so excited for a date before LOL.

She's also HB8-8.5 My friend Jad rates her HB8.5-9, haha.

Thursday, February 13th
Not much, but I was feeling so much more confident.

I got the names of a few new different girls. That's pretty much it. No hot ones really.

I signed up for the Music Club at my school. There's this cute girl in the club. She gave me a couple IOIs. She's pretty hot, I must admit. At least 7.5.

Anyway. I went to the local mall and pvssied out from approaching. My excuse was that I'll be approaching tomorrow anyway, and I have a date. Haha.

CONCLUSION
- If a girl gives you all the signs in the world, FCKING GO FOR IT. IT DOESN'T MATTER IF SHE'S A 9.8, YOU GO FOR HER. DON'T BE AFRAID OF SUCCESS. BEING AFRAID OF SUCCESS IS THE MOST POINTLESS THING EVER.
- Tell her that you're going to call her. It's less pressure on her and you.
- Sexy low voice? She'll love it.
- It's NOT about the logical part of it. It's all in the subcommunication and on the fun you guys are having. The "us" mentality.
- If God loves us, we wouldn't be going through that much pain. We wouldn't have all those disasters in the world. Well guess what? Embrace the imperfections of life. Pain is what keeps you going.

 

[Mindgamez]

Friday, February 14th
Daygame + date.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lETmskoqh30

So yeah,
Day starts off and I meet with Denis. He always amazes me with his super suave and smooth game. The way he crafts every interaction is amazing. It's an art form. He's just so... Don Juan. I can't help it but admire his skills.

He's kind of like my mentor at that point. Not for long though.

At some point we'll be at the same level. It won't take me long for me to catch up.

One Year. 2014. That's all it takes.

And we went to his college. I did a couple approaches, not enough, definitely. He just kept approaching left and right, girls from his OWN school, cold approaching, left and right. And he never got rejected. Every one of them was totally fine with him approaching. It was very impressive.

I did a few. I got one girl's number, realized later through text that she had a BF. Also, some of their friends troll texted me haha. I told them I forgive them, and wished them happy valentine's day.

I don't know why I feel so self-conscious sometimes when I'm with Denis. I feel like I have to be at his level, and I just want to be so pro. **** this.

The Date,
She was supposed to look at least 8 to me. According to Jad, 8.5-9.
And then when I saw her? I really wondered : WAS THAT HER? REALLY? WAS IT?
And I looked closely. Yes, it was her. She looked almost nothing like what she looked like in the club. Though, I could recognize her voice. She had the same exact voice. Yes, it was her.

She looked 7.2. I was disappointed, haha... I played it cool.

She ended up being super boring. We had a couple awkward silences here and there. We didn't quite vibe right. Yes, she's cute and everything. I would have sex with her, yeah, but nothing else. It seemed like she had no value to offer. She didn't do anything with her life! No adventures, nothing crazy, no cool hobbies, nothing. She watched television and read some books, that's pretty much it. I was kinda shocked.

And you know what? She seemed interested the whole time, but not really at the same time. She drank her bubble tea extremely slowly, so I figured that she wanted the date to last longer. So it did. We were at the bubbletea lounge for more than 2 hours, quite a long time. We just talked the whole time. At some point I start going physical, giving her a massage. She gives me one, etc. I rest my hand on her leg, it's playful. It seems like she's trying to connect with me, though she doesn't really feel it.

I told her to kiss me on the cheek. I kissed her on the cheek too. Then, it started feeling a bit more lively. It was more fun, more attraction going. Told her to kiss me on the nose, I did the same haha. We did the eskimo kiss. No making out or anything. When I went for it, she turned her head away. I made no big deal out of it.

We walked back, she held me by the arm. Tried to kiss close her, she moved her head away again. It felt like I went for the kiss simply because I thought it'd be the right thing to do. But I didn't feel it at all. I didn't care.

And for some reason, I felt lonely on the way back home. I don't know. I was disappointed.

Anyway,
Today, Saturday, I got my habits back in place and it made me feel much better. Do the stuff you have to do!

CONCLUSION
- If you number close a girl at the club, MAKE SURE you saw her face in the bright light. Or get her facebook to look at her pictures. Just make sure you simply weren't in your horny flow state moment and that you actually think she'd be cool to hangout with.
- Yes, you can get a date with a 2 minutes of IRL convo, 5 minutes of dancing and 1 minute of phone conversation. It's not the length of the interaction. It's the connection.
- Find people who are better than you at what you want to become good at and hangout with them. Doesn't need to be pickup. Anything! It helps you.