Journal - A freshman's struggles.

[TheMusic]

12-12 - Huge Party
So, had a bigass party yesterday. I was gonna sleep at a girl from my school(who is one year above me and 2 years older). So, when the party started we got 2 coins for drinks. I forgot my earplugs, and since I'm a musician, I like to have my ears protected. The older girl went to get them. I found a 3rd coin, she came back, said I owed her one. I promised I would massage her. Then we went in. Danced with my teachers other people.

Then I wanted to get a beer but 3 girls started dancing in front of me and blocking the way. It took me a while to get through. On the way back they did the same, one (hot blonde) even started putting her arms around me. All of a sudden they let us through, but the blonde kept touching my ass, muscles and all. However, when I went back to her, she was pretty arrogant and not interested...

Party ended, I went to that girls place, she started tickling, we rolled over, started making out, fingered her, got a bj. Blah blah blah.
Afterwards I think I shouldn't have done that. It's gonna be weird.

Plans for future: Only make out with girls where you can brag about afterwards. If I'm not proud, I shouldn't have done it.

 

[TheMusic]

20-12 - Singing with class
Had to perform somewhere else in the country.
Nothing special happened, except that I texted the blonde girl I knew from vacation. She was so hot. We decided to meet, but just missed eachother Need to get a date with her these weeks.

21-12 - Woops
Have been texting with the Brunette, she said she was very attracted to me, so I teased about things to scare her of. After practice I texted her "You still need something to dislike me? I smell like crap". She was like "Lets give it a try". Met with her. She tried to make out with me for 20 minutes. I kept resisting, but after that I couldn't stop myself anymore. Too bad I had a deadline that evening, 'cause she was horny as ****.

23-12 - Movienight
Went to meet this chick to watch Madagascar 1,2 and 3. She was really tired, I had a lot of energy but she drained it all from me. We watched for hours, also watched August Rush, and we came closer and closer, but there was absolutely no initiative from her side. It took me one hour to go from touching her hand to her stroking me. After that we made out for a while, and my hand went down but I was tired, didn't know what to do and she was dry like a desert. Crap.

UPDATE:
24-12 - Brunette again
She texted me she was home alone, went there. Started making out and stuff. Got a bj, fingered her. It's getting boring (although she was much better than the last one).

Things have been too easy for me. I can easily score HB7's now... This brunette is an 7.7, 8?
From now on I really only want girls above that.
Oh, and I found out I'm still not over the girl from vacation..

 

[TheMusic]

I'm going to stop no fapping after day 100. I'm getting too needy.

Furthermore; I would like some input from you guys.
Things I should work on etc.?

 

[LearningSlowly]

Sounds like you're doing great with the females. Hit the brakes a little, get some steady hook ups going (rotate through girls more slowly) and start working on your passions. When romance is going well, no need to burn yourself out on that, use your energy in productive ways.

 

[TheMusic]

It sounds like that. I have a few steady girls now, but they're all about HB7's. I still have absolutely no game with the 8's and higher.

About passions; I've been starting to work more on my music lately. And I'm going to do a castingshoot soon, with those pictures I'm going to apply at a casting studio, so they can find movies for me.

I'll see what happens.

Any other opinions? I like the input, Slowly.

 

[Jack Wealthy]

You've improved so much. You have obviously put the effort in so keep up the good work. As. Your experience grows your confidence will and you will start pulling 8s 9s and the tens

 

[TheMusic]

Hmm thanks.
I think I'm going to start the Insanity workout. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZLK28BHJDd8
Looks like fun to me.
Wednesday I'm going shopping with the Brunette (who is now some regular hookup).
Thursday I'll go sailing. It's freaking cold but I miss it too much.
Friday I have a hockeymatch.
Saturday swimming with my mate and a few chicks (I'll ask him to bring some, so I'll get to know new people).

My goals for next year:
- Meet 1 new person every week
- Complete at least one full workout
- Practice on all my instruments
- Get a job & a room.

 

[TheMusic]

Non fap - day 100.

Think I'm going to quit.

 

[TheMusic]

Haven't been on for a long time.
Decided to calm down with the ladies, only go fo the 8 and above.
Haven't met that many 8's ever since, until 1 month ago.

Everything went pretty well, texted a lot, had a few dates and then last week suddenly things went down. She ignored half of my texts, bailed on a date because she was sick (I know she really was but it still sucks) and told me she wasn't responding that much because she was busy.
Good for her.
I deleted her number. If she ever wants to see me again, it's upto her to contact me.

I'm back. Feeling like crap. Zero confidence.

Awesome.