This has happened to every single girl I have asked out and pursued over the years. Do you know how emotionally dehumanizing this is?
****, it's gotten so bad that iv'e had to resort to international sites and talking to women from overseas because they're the only ones that give me attention. Seriously, I can have couple hour long conversations with some of these women, and they never take more than 10 minutes to respond back. And sometimes, they'll even text me "good morning".
Do you know how good that feels?
Man, when you've felt unwanted your whole life, it feels so good to have some validation.
Your issue might be deeper than just your interactions with women. There might be layers upon layers that need to be peeled off.
I will say this:
1) Be kind to yourself, you are trying and that is half the battle.
2) Do not seek validation from women. That is a women's trait. Men "validate" themselves by knowing their purpose, living by that purpose, working on themselves etc, etc.
I recently mentioned this on another thread, but I highly advise reading "The Way Of Men" by Jack Donovan. And in your case, "Switch On Your Brain" By Dr Caroline Leaf *Important, I am not religious, but there are a lot of bible citing that depending on your spirituality you will have to use a shopping cart approach going through it*. The important thing is to understand neuroplascity/neurogenesis and implement the exercise mentioned in the book.
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