Tails
Senior Don Juan
hey, just not so long ago i found out this girl that is often on mirc (chat program) is the same girl i have seen at the local bus station here, she works there at the mini store (candy, drinks, magazines, etc) to give her mother a break, so she's often there working alone. i see her there almost everday in the afternoon after school, cause i have to catch my bus there.
anyway, i had found out a couple weeks ago that was her and i told her i'd seen her a couple times. didn't really chat to her much until two nights ago where her interest level sparked up because of something i said in the chat room. she msg'ed me and told me she found me interesting because of what i had said.
they were talking about not having sex or something so i said i don't like to have sex with anyone and everyone, i like to respect myself. she told me the same, she didn't like to be fooling around all the time with guys and that she didnt go to parties much or drink or smoke. she works everyday and studies, and on top of that with her mother at the bus station mini store. i was interested, and because i had been waiting for a girl like this, i got carried away and acted AFC. i asked her if we could meet and she said she was still kinda stunned i had asked her.
so we were soon on msn chatting away. i asked her again! (silly me!).
she said: "i know the question, i'm not sure of the answer though. sorry, it's just like made me all like woah and stuff."
i told her that we should just get to know each other on msn a little before anything else. she said that was fine. she also said she was wary of guys. most guys.
that was that until the next night.
she msg'ed me on msn the next night (last night). we chatted about random sh|t. then she was telling me she works alot and how she's tired.
i said: "whenever you get a day off, give me a buzz and i can assure you, that i would make your day off the best ever."
i know, i know. that was dumb. i got carried away with my feelings because i didn't wanna be too c+f with her incase i'd fuk things up? where i live, you don't find too many girls like this one.
she started telling me she didn't want me to take the risk of meeting her and went into all this crap.
"in all honesty (my name here), i dont want you taking the risk cos im really not an easy person to try and be with."
"im not sure how to explain it. so i wont explain it."
"but i will say that its probly not worth it
"
i started telling her that i'd like to take that chance. how would she know it'd be so bad if she hasn't even met me yet?
she kept telling me she didn't want me to get hurt and how she's hurt other guys in the past. she even told me that she really loved this one guy once, they dated a year and she cheated on him. i just told her he obviously wasn't the right guy. why would she say that? is she just trying to push me away? or is it the truth?
she was being so negative telling me that she wasn't beautiful and she was an idiot, but in a c+f way.
in the end i told her: "you're talking as if we're getting married, calm down. we can just be friends for now. then we'll see what becomes of this."
her: "ill reluctantly say yes, lol. im still very adamant that i want to
warn you off me though."
in a way, i think she's half and half interested in me. she's seen my pictures and told me i was cute. so looks shouldn't be a problem. i don't know if she's telling the truth about the hurting guys, that's fuking with my head cause i don't know if i should get to know her more or not.
she also told me i make her smile alot and that i'm sweet and nice. (but i am c+f too mind you) i was just being to nice. stupid me!
i'm thinking ignore her tonight, act like im busy and just go see her face to face when i finish school on tuesday and say hi. i think that'll boost the interest level up. also i will ask for her number.
she's 17 (18 this year), i'm 19 (20 this year). she's also french!
did i fuk it up by being too nice and asking her out on msn? is it too late to spark her IL back up?
sorry for the long post.
anyway, i had found out a couple weeks ago that was her and i told her i'd seen her a couple times. didn't really chat to her much until two nights ago where her interest level sparked up because of something i said in the chat room. she msg'ed me and told me she found me interesting because of what i had said.
they were talking about not having sex or something so i said i don't like to have sex with anyone and everyone, i like to respect myself. she told me the same, she didn't like to be fooling around all the time with guys and that she didnt go to parties much or drink or smoke. she works everyday and studies, and on top of that with her mother at the bus station mini store. i was interested, and because i had been waiting for a girl like this, i got carried away and acted AFC. i asked her if we could meet and she said she was still kinda stunned i had asked her.
so we were soon on msn chatting away. i asked her again! (silly me!).
she said: "i know the question, i'm not sure of the answer though. sorry, it's just like made me all like woah and stuff."
i told her that we should just get to know each other on msn a little before anything else. she said that was fine. she also said she was wary of guys. most guys.
that was that until the next night.
she msg'ed me on msn the next night (last night). we chatted about random sh|t. then she was telling me she works alot and how she's tired.
i said: "whenever you get a day off, give me a buzz and i can assure you, that i would make your day off the best ever."
i know, i know. that was dumb. i got carried away with my feelings because i didn't wanna be too c+f with her incase i'd fuk things up? where i live, you don't find too many girls like this one.
she started telling me she didn't want me to take the risk of meeting her and went into all this crap.
"in all honesty (my name here), i dont want you taking the risk cos im really not an easy person to try and be with."
"im not sure how to explain it. so i wont explain it."
"but i will say that its probly not worth it
"i started telling her that i'd like to take that chance. how would she know it'd be so bad if she hasn't even met me yet?
she kept telling me she didn't want me to get hurt and how she's hurt other guys in the past. she even told me that she really loved this one guy once, they dated a year and she cheated on him. i just told her he obviously wasn't the right guy. why would she say that? is she just trying to push me away? or is it the truth?
she was being so negative telling me that she wasn't beautiful and she was an idiot, but in a c+f way.
in the end i told her: "you're talking as if we're getting married, calm down. we can just be friends for now. then we'll see what becomes of this."
her: "ill reluctantly say yes, lol. im still very adamant that i want to
warn you off me though."
in a way, i think she's half and half interested in me. she's seen my pictures and told me i was cute. so looks shouldn't be a problem. i don't know if she's telling the truth about the hurting guys, that's fuking with my head cause i don't know if i should get to know her more or not.
she also told me i make her smile alot and that i'm sweet and nice. (but i am c+f too mind you) i was just being to nice. stupid me!
i'm thinking ignore her tonight, act like im busy and just go see her face to face when i finish school on tuesday and say hi. i think that'll boost the interest level up. also i will ask for her number.
she's 17 (18 this year), i'm 19 (20 this year). she's also french!
did i fuk it up by being too nice and asking her out on msn? is it too late to spark her IL back up?
sorry for the long post.
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