When I first joined this website 8 years ago I was 15 years old, hadn't kissed a girl or even had one like me. I was going nowhere in life, and perhaps most damagingly of all didn't realise I was going nowhere in life.
I've spent the last 7 years going from one relationship to the next, and in that time I've also gone to university and left with a fairly prestigious master's degree. I am physically attractive to women, I'm interesting to talk to, and I know (or knew!) how to act around them.
Two weeks ago, I broke up with my girlfriend of 3.5 years because we have different ideas about how we're spending the next 5-10 years. A factor in my decision was that I figured she would be easily replaced, and even after I broke up with her she herself cried and said "well you'll be fine, obviously! But what about me!?".
And I'm telling you, today, in this one day, I reverted 8 years. A girl rejected me today, and I stewed over it. I kept up the confident exterior, but I kept thinking and thinking about it, for hours. Then I went home and sent her a message on Facebook. I don't know what was going through my head.
I suddenly felt I needed reassurance, so I messaged two exes on Facebook...
If I get replies to any of them, they'll be purely out of politeness.
Now I'm sitting here wondering if I've done serious damage to my life, where 24 hours ago I sat here happy in the knowledge that I was in control of everything before me.
I don't know what I expect anyone to say, but this place helped me out of a dark corner once, and so I turn here again.
I've spent the last 7 years going from one relationship to the next, and in that time I've also gone to university and left with a fairly prestigious master's degree. I am physically attractive to women, I'm interesting to talk to, and I know (or knew!) how to act around them.
Two weeks ago, I broke up with my girlfriend of 3.5 years because we have different ideas about how we're spending the next 5-10 years. A factor in my decision was that I figured she would be easily replaced, and even after I broke up with her she herself cried and said "well you'll be fine, obviously! But what about me!?".
And I'm telling you, today, in this one day, I reverted 8 years. A girl rejected me today, and I stewed over it. I kept up the confident exterior, but I kept thinking and thinking about it, for hours. Then I went home and sent her a message on Facebook. I don't know what was going through my head.
I suddenly felt I needed reassurance, so I messaged two exes on Facebook...
If I get replies to any of them, they'll be purely out of politeness.
Now I'm sitting here wondering if I've done serious damage to my life, where 24 hours ago I sat here happy in the knowledge that I was in control of everything before me.
I don't know what I expect anyone to say, but this place helped me out of a dark corner once, and so I turn here again.