Well, see that;s my problem, I don't know how to take advice, and I have a hard putting a plan into action. Believe me, I am more shocked than you, this is an addiction, that's the only way I can think to describe it as. Plus this sense of idk,lost time, and a hard time catching up.
I feel I should be so far ahead, yet I can't even find the time to say go out to a bar, or an event, and well, do what we talk about here on the site, I have gotten so used to this, that it has made me bitter about life. And yet I want this success in life so badly.
I mean, I don't know if it's how I view the world. I often feel like it's still the whole thing of where do/don't belong,do/don't fit in, how big a social network, people,etc.
I mean, I realize my problem is inaction, I can get an idea/plan, but have trouble executing it. I guess that's procrastination. I can't help but think if i had done this that and the other action sooner, I would be a different person, the person I want to be. Maybe this is all due to a feeling of lack of acceptance in life, all I do know is I have been feeling this way a long time. I mean, I could have gotten better at school, in life,with women, had more experience, but the past few years, I feel I have been just drifting along no real plan. I could have changed things sooner, but for some reason, I'm constantly here,in this state.