I'm 30 years old and single. I have known her for 6 months, and we have worked together, next to each other for months, we would go everywhere together, break time, parking lot, workplace, etc.
We became kind close, she would bring me food, cookies, sometimes I would touch her hands, or give her a 5 second massage, she would let me. I have her on facebook, whatsapp. I even made a drawing of her, would bring her food, coffee. We kiss on the cheeks.
I cannot deny I found her attractive the first time I saw her, and the only reason I'm around her is because of this. She is the only person I care about at work. When there are other male coworkers around her (rarely), I kinda feel jealous. She is married, and has 2 kids. I know she only sees me as a kid. She told me, you are still a baby.
Now, we work in different areas, and I barely see her anymore. The few times I see her, we talk, but she plays with her phone, or barely talks to me. I think she probably has realized I feel something for her, and now shes acts different around me, without noticing it, I became too clingy/needy, constantly going to say hello, goodbye, whenever I go to see her, and she is with her female friends, she barely responds to me, basically don't pay attention to me, and continues talking with her friends, which means she don't really care if I go there or not. She did this a few days ago, and I just left without saying a word, I felt hurt inside, I couldn't help feeling this way.
I told her many times that I only go to that area for her. She told me that she is gonna leave in a few months, I think she noticed my sadness, I almost cried when she said that.
I don't know why I feel this way, probably because I never experienced love when I was younger, never had any friends, never had people love me for who I am, my parents never really loved me. I think I feel something for her, but I would never tell her. It is probably best for me to cut all contact with her from now on, but deep down, I want to see her again so bad, even if she barely talks to me.
We became kind close, she would bring me food, cookies, sometimes I would touch her hands, or give her a 5 second massage, she would let me. I have her on facebook, whatsapp. I even made a drawing of her, would bring her food, coffee. We kiss on the cheeks.
I cannot deny I found her attractive the first time I saw her, and the only reason I'm around her is because of this. She is the only person I care about at work. When there are other male coworkers around her (rarely), I kinda feel jealous. She is married, and has 2 kids. I know she only sees me as a kid. She told me, you are still a baby.
Now, we work in different areas, and I barely see her anymore. The few times I see her, we talk, but she plays with her phone, or barely talks to me. I think she probably has realized I feel something for her, and now shes acts different around me, without noticing it, I became too clingy/needy, constantly going to say hello, goodbye, whenever I go to see her, and she is with her female friends, she barely responds to me, basically don't pay attention to me, and continues talking with her friends, which means she don't really care if I go there or not. She did this a few days ago, and I just left without saying a word, I felt hurt inside, I couldn't help feeling this way.
I told her many times that I only go to that area for her. She told me that she is gonna leave in a few months, I think she noticed my sadness, I almost cried when she said that.
I don't know why I feel this way, probably because I never experienced love when I was younger, never had any friends, never had people love me for who I am, my parents never really loved me. I think I feel something for her, but I would never tell her. It is probably best for me to cut all contact with her from now on, but deep down, I want to see her again so bad, even if she barely talks to me.
