boyzinthehood2
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I'm 23, gonna be 24 very soon. Haven't gotten any in over a year, I work mandatory OT 3rd shift and will be on it til the end of summer. On my day off I usually just want to go home and sleep or sit around and get high all day i'm so worn out. I've been with 13 girls in my life, ranging from 2-9, one was a hooker. The 9 was definitely the longest I've been with anyone, and I was young. If we first met today, she wouldn't even talk to me. She is now definitely a 10, and she is going to have a career very soon that blows most people i know out of the water. I'm kind of a scrub.
I'm not very attractive, I started working out recently but don't know where to start really. I can do maybe 50-60 pull ups in a half hour period but im pretty skinny. I started drinking a gallon of water a day recently too. My dad is a meathead ex-body builder thats competed nationally and won championships for natural bodybuilding before, I know that if I put my mind to it I'll get ripped, but I was never interested in getting in great shape until recently. When I was younger there was always this weird stigma about following my old mans foot steps. On top of this, my car is **** and i dont have very nice clothes. Not nice enough **** for the kind of females I want to pull
I'm very into going to EDM and raves and festivals, not as much as I used to be but i've been around the local scene for a bit and know quite a few oldschoolers who have too. Its being taken over by younger kids which should make it easier for me, but I guess I just don't feel comfortable in it anymore, I barely go out because of my stressful job. I don't know the people like I used to, ****s changed. I've been around a couple other local music scenes over the years. the one thing I noticed about all of these is that 95% of the girls in these music scenes are either disgusting trash or are very loyal to their boyfriends and in relationships.
I've had a couple of bitties in my day but I just don't got it anymore, I had a rough patch in my life and i'm not the same person anymore. I've seen a cheater before she acted and ****ed one of her best friends weeks before she cheated, but that was a couple years ago now, one of the pinnacles of my career. I've destroyed alot of relationships with people and live in a small area, so I don't have as many friends or connections as I used to, not nearly as many.
On top of this, my roommate ****s up my game, i'm not even going to get that deep into the issues with him but its bad and it matters so i'll touch on it.. Hes disgusting, he stinks and my apartment stinks like him, he leaves trash and video games all over the place. I used to be big into psychedelics and rolling but am not nearly as much anymore because my last couple trips have been awful, they've involved tripping with friends in my apartment and having a good time til my roommate came home, shut the music off the TV and turned on halo, and made fun of us for doing drugs and only talked to us by mocking us. On top of this, he is EXTREMELY beta, dating an 18 year old highschooler who cheats on him regularly, which he dismisses as rumors. Than says "if your girlfriend isn't trying to regularly catch you cheating shes probably cheating on you" etc, tells me that me and my friends are pigs and disrespectful when we used to go out and make game plans for picking up women at the bars when i had somewhat of a life. He once got in an argument with me because I said that male feminists aren't even a thing and are a joke. I usually am a very clean person, but he has caused me to turn into a disgusting existence. My room and apartment are trashed, I need to spend a good day cleaning this entire place, but its hard working so much. I want to take over my apartment soon. I'm going to make it how I want it soon. He recently hung up a starwars poster in the ****ing living room, i'm tearing that **** down and putting up tapestries and burning incense in the room. It'll drive him nuts. He's supposed to move out this summer to go to school out of state but is now saying that he might stick around and commute 45 minutes to a different school every day. I love this apartment and dont want to leave. I can afford this place on my own, and this place is ****ing awesome. This place would be perfect if it wasn't for him.
I'm going back to school next semester, and I'm taking it seriously this time. I want to go for a field that with a masters you'd be making over 120k a year, and has one of the highest job growth rates in the country. I've been looking into this for awhile and decided that this is most likely going to be my life path.
I have a friend thats a known man***** in the area. He's my age and he's ****ed over 50 or 60 girls. Thats all coming to an end because he just knocked this chick up hes been dating for a month. Thing is, he talks about how alpha he is, but all of the girls hes hooked up with or had an FWB situation (95% of the girls hes been with) are disgusting. The other 5% (girlfriends) he has acted like a beta ***** in every possible situation with, like being scared that they'd lie about domestic abuse and staying in an abusive relationship for 2 years, destroying all of his relationships with family and friends. However, he turned me onto this stuff, he told me to read book of pook. I read parts of it and really like this book. I don't think he truly understood alot of the concepts presented in manosphere literature and just ****ed desperate fat chicks and walked around shooting his mouth off about how alpha he is all the time. On top of this, i've seen him do some other stupid **** like get really drunk and tell girls with green hair that hes an MRA before. He didn't get laid that night.
I recently picked up the rational male. I haven't gotten into this yet, its kind of hard for me to read or get into. Some of the stuff at the beginning just seems very obvious. I'm going to try to read all of this at some point though.
And when I may seem hopeless, I am not compared to many many other guys I know. Nice guys, people who live in there moms basement and have done nothing but play video games and pop pills for the past 2 years. One guy I used to know would send the same 3 girls who all were in LTR with guys way better than him the same 20 page long text every day about how in love with them he is, all the while posting facebook statuses about video games. Guys who claim that there sex drive is so low from not getting it for so long that they are "turning asexual", who refuse to get jobs or get licenses or grow up because they think thats giving in and ****. People who seem to get almost offended when I talk about how I want to make money and be in good shape within the next 10 years, saying **** that lifestyle, i'd rather be homeless than give into that. I can hear these guys talk about other guys who get laid alot with hostility in their voices, even though the girls the dude ****s, none of these guys are into. Theyre just jealous. These people are scum.
Other friends of mine are very successful, have good jobs, with beautiful women and starting families. I'm somewhere in the middle of these 2 extremes trying to find my way, but i definitely have the mindset of a successful person way more than the loser group.
I'm sorry for the long ass rant, anybody else in my situation or can point me in any direction to help me? I used to be a borderline homeless alcoholic who got drunk to the point of blacking out every single day, never able to keep a job longer than a month or 2. Somehow I got laid way more during this, but I never want to go back to this lifestyle, it was a very dark period of my life. I snapped out of it and got my **** together later 2014/early 2015 and have made many improvements since than, but I've still got a long, long way to go.
I'm not very attractive, I started working out recently but don't know where to start really. I can do maybe 50-60 pull ups in a half hour period but im pretty skinny. I started drinking a gallon of water a day recently too. My dad is a meathead ex-body builder thats competed nationally and won championships for natural bodybuilding before, I know that if I put my mind to it I'll get ripped, but I was never interested in getting in great shape until recently. When I was younger there was always this weird stigma about following my old mans foot steps. On top of this, my car is **** and i dont have very nice clothes. Not nice enough **** for the kind of females I want to pull
I'm very into going to EDM and raves and festivals, not as much as I used to be but i've been around the local scene for a bit and know quite a few oldschoolers who have too. Its being taken over by younger kids which should make it easier for me, but I guess I just don't feel comfortable in it anymore, I barely go out because of my stressful job. I don't know the people like I used to, ****s changed. I've been around a couple other local music scenes over the years. the one thing I noticed about all of these is that 95% of the girls in these music scenes are either disgusting trash or are very loyal to their boyfriends and in relationships.
I've had a couple of bitties in my day but I just don't got it anymore, I had a rough patch in my life and i'm not the same person anymore. I've seen a cheater before she acted and ****ed one of her best friends weeks before she cheated, but that was a couple years ago now, one of the pinnacles of my career. I've destroyed alot of relationships with people and live in a small area, so I don't have as many friends or connections as I used to, not nearly as many.
On top of this, my roommate ****s up my game, i'm not even going to get that deep into the issues with him but its bad and it matters so i'll touch on it.. Hes disgusting, he stinks and my apartment stinks like him, he leaves trash and video games all over the place. I used to be big into psychedelics and rolling but am not nearly as much anymore because my last couple trips have been awful, they've involved tripping with friends in my apartment and having a good time til my roommate came home, shut the music off the TV and turned on halo, and made fun of us for doing drugs and only talked to us by mocking us. On top of this, he is EXTREMELY beta, dating an 18 year old highschooler who cheats on him regularly, which he dismisses as rumors. Than says "if your girlfriend isn't trying to regularly catch you cheating shes probably cheating on you" etc, tells me that me and my friends are pigs and disrespectful when we used to go out and make game plans for picking up women at the bars when i had somewhat of a life. He once got in an argument with me because I said that male feminists aren't even a thing and are a joke. I usually am a very clean person, but he has caused me to turn into a disgusting existence. My room and apartment are trashed, I need to spend a good day cleaning this entire place, but its hard working so much. I want to take over my apartment soon. I'm going to make it how I want it soon. He recently hung up a starwars poster in the ****ing living room, i'm tearing that **** down and putting up tapestries and burning incense in the room. It'll drive him nuts. He's supposed to move out this summer to go to school out of state but is now saying that he might stick around and commute 45 minutes to a different school every day. I love this apartment and dont want to leave. I can afford this place on my own, and this place is ****ing awesome. This place would be perfect if it wasn't for him.
I'm going back to school next semester, and I'm taking it seriously this time. I want to go for a field that with a masters you'd be making over 120k a year, and has one of the highest job growth rates in the country. I've been looking into this for awhile and decided that this is most likely going to be my life path.
I have a friend thats a known man***** in the area. He's my age and he's ****ed over 50 or 60 girls. Thats all coming to an end because he just knocked this chick up hes been dating for a month. Thing is, he talks about how alpha he is, but all of the girls hes hooked up with or had an FWB situation (95% of the girls hes been with) are disgusting. The other 5% (girlfriends) he has acted like a beta ***** in every possible situation with, like being scared that they'd lie about domestic abuse and staying in an abusive relationship for 2 years, destroying all of his relationships with family and friends. However, he turned me onto this stuff, he told me to read book of pook. I read parts of it and really like this book. I don't think he truly understood alot of the concepts presented in manosphere literature and just ****ed desperate fat chicks and walked around shooting his mouth off about how alpha he is all the time. On top of this, i've seen him do some other stupid **** like get really drunk and tell girls with green hair that hes an MRA before. He didn't get laid that night.
I recently picked up the rational male. I haven't gotten into this yet, its kind of hard for me to read or get into. Some of the stuff at the beginning just seems very obvious. I'm going to try to read all of this at some point though.
And when I may seem hopeless, I am not compared to many many other guys I know. Nice guys, people who live in there moms basement and have done nothing but play video games and pop pills for the past 2 years. One guy I used to know would send the same 3 girls who all were in LTR with guys way better than him the same 20 page long text every day about how in love with them he is, all the while posting facebook statuses about video games. Guys who claim that there sex drive is so low from not getting it for so long that they are "turning asexual", who refuse to get jobs or get licenses or grow up because they think thats giving in and ****. People who seem to get almost offended when I talk about how I want to make money and be in good shape within the next 10 years, saying **** that lifestyle, i'd rather be homeless than give into that. I can hear these guys talk about other guys who get laid alot with hostility in their voices, even though the girls the dude ****s, none of these guys are into. Theyre just jealous. These people are scum.
Other friends of mine are very successful, have good jobs, with beautiful women and starting families. I'm somewhere in the middle of these 2 extremes trying to find my way, but i definitely have the mindset of a successful person way more than the loser group.
I'm sorry for the long ass rant, anybody else in my situation or can point me in any direction to help me? I used to be a borderline homeless alcoholic who got drunk to the point of blacking out every single day, never able to keep a job longer than a month or 2. Somehow I got laid way more during this, but I never want to go back to this lifestyle, it was a very dark period of my life. I snapped out of it and got my **** together later 2014/early 2015 and have made many improvements since than, but I've still got a long, long way to go.
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