MyNameIsTaken
Don Juan
I give up. I'm just not fit to be a DJ, lol. I just don't get it, I can't approach due to my own conscience, I'm shy around chicks, I'm nervous, and I get "down" alot. It almost seems as if chicks try to avoid me. Same with the more popular kids in my school, they do talk to me, but when it gets out of class they totally forget me lol (not to be gay).
What I don't get, is why. I mean, if you ask me, I'm pretty God damn awesome. I love rock music; I play the guitar; I write songs; I kick ass at singing; I'm funny (most of the time); I'm dead sexy (seriously); I can beat anyone at track; I don't take **** (I'd be on them like Oprah on a baked ham); and I make fun of stoners, gays, and nerds. I may not be in a band, but I sure as hell could form or join one if I tried. Maybe my problem is that I don't actually show or tell people all of my talents, and maybe they think I'm a loser. I don't know.
But seriously, I never can approach any chick. I'll try all I can, but it doesn't work. And the popular chicks just ignore me. I'm a ****ing social outcast! Maybe I could just try and strike up a conversation, but I can't! I seriously ****ing can't! It's like my own mind is against me, God damn it! I'll try all I can, I'll tell myself what it'll feel like if I don't do it or, or I'll tell myself, "I thought this was America! Isn't this America? I'm sorry I thought this was America!(quoting South Park)". And it still doesn't work damn it!
Girls are just so impossible to figure out! They'll look at me and stuff (you know, that look where they turn around just to look at you), but that's it! It seems like I get ignored or forgotten about the rest of the time! They're all silent and ****! But then again it could be me. I don't smile, ever, at girls(due to braces). Whenever I see some chick look at me, I turn away most of the time.
This is all just confusing lol! Just like math! And God I hate math! Perhaps it's just me exaggerating how bad it really is, and just need to do something different, but I don't know. But I don't want to turn to drugs lol. I'm supposed to be making fun of stoners, not becoming one!
What I don't get, is why. I mean, if you ask me, I'm pretty God damn awesome. I love rock music; I play the guitar; I write songs; I kick ass at singing; I'm funny (most of the time); I'm dead sexy (seriously); I can beat anyone at track; I don't take **** (I'd be on them like Oprah on a baked ham); and I make fun of stoners, gays, and nerds. I may not be in a band, but I sure as hell could form or join one if I tried. Maybe my problem is that I don't actually show or tell people all of my talents, and maybe they think I'm a loser. I don't know.
But seriously, I never can approach any chick. I'll try all I can, but it doesn't work. And the popular chicks just ignore me. I'm a ****ing social outcast! Maybe I could just try and strike up a conversation, but I can't! I seriously ****ing can't! It's like my own mind is against me, God damn it! I'll try all I can, I'll tell myself what it'll feel like if I don't do it or, or I'll tell myself, "I thought this was America! Isn't this America? I'm sorry I thought this was America!(quoting South Park)". And it still doesn't work damn it!
Girls are just so impossible to figure out! They'll look at me and stuff (you know, that look where they turn around just to look at you), but that's it! It seems like I get ignored or forgotten about the rest of the time! They're all silent and ****! But then again it could be me. I don't smile, ever, at girls(due to braces). Whenever I see some chick look at me, I turn away most of the time.
This is all just confusing lol! Just like math! And God I hate math! Perhaps it's just me exaggerating how bad it really is, and just need to do something different, but I don't know. But I don't want to turn to drugs lol. I'm supposed to be making fun of stoners, not becoming one!
