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Don Juan
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Okay well exactly a week ago, I ended things with my gf. Heres the thread on that: http://www.sosuave.net/forum/showthread.php?t=172546
And to say a lot has developed since then would be like calling WW2 a small caffuffle. Well, I finished it but it sure as hell stung for this week at points. I went to visit a friend on friday night having had only two hours sleep. I ended up talking about her and if I'd made the right decision for 90% of the time I was there. I can also admit, (and it was probably the weed, and copious amounts of alcohol) that made me drop some tears for this silly, silly girl. I know theres no shame, but I feel ashamed. And I've really let out a lot of steam the past few days, losing it completely at some points.
I hung out with my ex gf everyday, and I think whats mainly the problem is the massive change in lifestyle I'm about to undertake. But so far, I've been out with my more boisterous friends getting well and truly wankered for the past few nights. On tuesday, it was inevitable I was going to see her. I was upstairs as friends were queing to get back into the bar downstairs. And she walked up. A mutual friend (a girl) had said to talk to her as she had said she missed me. I'm a headstrong guy, and frankly I didnt want to talk to her. So I had just focused on my friends and the other girl I kissed (dont worry, I didnt do it in front of her). However soon enough our paths crossed as I waited upstairs, the short conversation was short. About five seconds in fact. Because with every word she moved closer to me, until our mouths were almost touching. We kissed for a while, until she pulled my arm to dance with my arms around her. I simply replied 'I'm not you're boyfriend anymore, go and kiss somebody else. She stared at me blankly for a couple of seconds, and walked off, saying nothing.
The next day I was on facebook (of which i have removed her from coming up, and I swear I have not looked at her profile once, in compliance with the no contact rules). She said she was sorry, for how she had acted. I asked her why she was sorry etc. And she didnt give me a clear answer, instead bringing up that my stuff was at hers and I could get it today if I wanted.
Well, i've been too busy today and have told her I'll be collecting it tomorrow. She's going to be home at 2, but I think I'll go before then and get it from her housemate. Shall I go when she's there, or go when she's out?
To conclude, the past week has been difficult for me. Initially the thought of life without her seemed scary. The reason I split up with my girlfriend was because she didnt treat me well enough, and because she acted like a **** towards me. Not realising her actions, I tried to explain to her, but she would say she was joking or that I was being pissy. Well I was out of line, last thursday and she began to question if it was worth being with me. Im a man, and I have my self respect to consider. Which should be a lesson to people, nobody is more important than you. For the past week, whenever I'm down, or I'm in front of the mirror, I've looked at myself and I've thought **** that *****. You're worth more than what she gave, and she's the messed up one in this. I AM NUMBER ONE. And if you tell yourself enough, you begin to believe it. I still feel weird about not being with her. But I have my friends to pull me through (which is what any guy should do post breakup). I've done my share of burning steam, heavy drinking smoking weed, just to help me get through. And I think I'm doing well.
In comparison to me, she's not faring so well. When I spoke to her the day after we kissed she told me she was constantly mixed up. She wanted to be alone, away from everyone. Even her friends, and she didnt want to do the things she did when single. She didnt want to go out on the pull, she said she just feels upset and she wants her own space. She said that being at university was making her sad. I told her its none of my business and that she sounded depressed. However if she wanted sex then she should call me.
However, I've kissed three women since. But more importantly I've met people she doesnt know, and who will become my friends. I go home this saturday for three weeks, and I cannot wait. The thing is I could still be talked into giving it another go with her, and I told her I didnt want to. Instead saying I would want something casual for a while, without pressures and expectations. She said she was the same. Bad idea or Good idea?
I wrote this as an update from my last thread, and will continue to do so every week until theres nothing to report, or theres no interest in the thread.
Once again, thanks to all the comments and advice on the last thread you're all golden in my book.
http://www.sosuave.net/forum/showthread.php?t=172546 first thread.
And to say a lot has developed since then would be like calling WW2 a small caffuffle. Well, I finished it but it sure as hell stung for this week at points. I went to visit a friend on friday night having had only two hours sleep. I ended up talking about her and if I'd made the right decision for 90% of the time I was there. I can also admit, (and it was probably the weed, and copious amounts of alcohol) that made me drop some tears for this silly, silly girl. I know theres no shame, but I feel ashamed. And I've really let out a lot of steam the past few days, losing it completely at some points.
I hung out with my ex gf everyday, and I think whats mainly the problem is the massive change in lifestyle I'm about to undertake. But so far, I've been out with my more boisterous friends getting well and truly wankered for the past few nights. On tuesday, it was inevitable I was going to see her. I was upstairs as friends were queing to get back into the bar downstairs. And she walked up. A mutual friend (a girl) had said to talk to her as she had said she missed me. I'm a headstrong guy, and frankly I didnt want to talk to her. So I had just focused on my friends and the other girl I kissed (dont worry, I didnt do it in front of her). However soon enough our paths crossed as I waited upstairs, the short conversation was short. About five seconds in fact. Because with every word she moved closer to me, until our mouths were almost touching. We kissed for a while, until she pulled my arm to dance with my arms around her. I simply replied 'I'm not you're boyfriend anymore, go and kiss somebody else. She stared at me blankly for a couple of seconds, and walked off, saying nothing.
The next day I was on facebook (of which i have removed her from coming up, and I swear I have not looked at her profile once, in compliance with the no contact rules). She said she was sorry, for how she had acted. I asked her why she was sorry etc. And she didnt give me a clear answer, instead bringing up that my stuff was at hers and I could get it today if I wanted.
Well, i've been too busy today and have told her I'll be collecting it tomorrow. She's going to be home at 2, but I think I'll go before then and get it from her housemate. Shall I go when she's there, or go when she's out?
To conclude, the past week has been difficult for me. Initially the thought of life without her seemed scary. The reason I split up with my girlfriend was because she didnt treat me well enough, and because she acted like a **** towards me. Not realising her actions, I tried to explain to her, but she would say she was joking or that I was being pissy. Well I was out of line, last thursday and she began to question if it was worth being with me. Im a man, and I have my self respect to consider. Which should be a lesson to people, nobody is more important than you. For the past week, whenever I'm down, or I'm in front of the mirror, I've looked at myself and I've thought **** that *****. You're worth more than what she gave, and she's the messed up one in this. I AM NUMBER ONE. And if you tell yourself enough, you begin to believe it. I still feel weird about not being with her. But I have my friends to pull me through (which is what any guy should do post breakup). I've done my share of burning steam, heavy drinking smoking weed, just to help me get through. And I think I'm doing well.
In comparison to me, she's not faring so well. When I spoke to her the day after we kissed she told me she was constantly mixed up. She wanted to be alone, away from everyone. Even her friends, and she didnt want to do the things she did when single. She didnt want to go out on the pull, she said she just feels upset and she wants her own space. She said that being at university was making her sad. I told her its none of my business and that she sounded depressed. However if she wanted sex then she should call me.
However, I've kissed three women since. But more importantly I've met people she doesnt know, and who will become my friends. I go home this saturday for three weeks, and I cannot wait. The thing is I could still be talked into giving it another go with her, and I told her I didnt want to. Instead saying I would want something casual for a while, without pressures and expectations. She said she was the same. Bad idea or Good idea?
I wrote this as an update from my last thread, and will continue to do so every week until theres nothing to report, or theres no interest in the thread.
Once again, thanks to all the comments and advice on the last thread you're all golden in my book.
http://www.sosuave.net/forum/showthread.php?t=172546 first thread.
