I can be violent towards women..

[princess_124]

I have a temper. It's not cool, it's not normal, it's not manly
But it's there. I have a really bad temper towards females. My mom abandoned me a bunch as a kid and left me with grandparents for months at a time whenever she had a new lover.
For this reason, I CAN NOT play these games with females.
If I find a female is ****ing with my emotions I know I'm capable of slapping her face off.
I know it's not cool and I ask you guys not to judge me just like I don't judge anyone else here.

I don't want to be like this but I am.
I haven't yet hit a woman but I have done things like slap drinks out of womans hand for perceived disrespect.. A busted a window for perceived disrespect and giys

I know if a woman was to come to my face after a LTR and tell me she cheated I'm capable of punching her like a man.
I thought about just dropping out of dating scene for this but obviously we all like Coochi right?
So what can I do?

Some of the I have read about you guys let females get away with **** like cheating or using you for a fool I just can't.. Its not safe for me it's not safe for her. It's just not safe to play around with me. Am I damaged permanently?

I am extremely sorry you had to go through that when you a kid... Your mom sounds very heartless. Anyways, my mom was a little drunk and abuse towards my mom when I was little. That's why I dislike men from the subcontinent (my family is from there) but I don't dislike all men. Anyways, I do wish you get better. Don't let women step over you but try to control ur anger please because it's not good for u either.

Oh, and thank God, my dad is nice now... But I think u should ask God for help