I am a man - NOT

[kixs]

I don't know what is wrong with me... but I do this mistakess every time.

I never listen to myself!

Whenever I have a problem, I always figure out what should I do, but I never act on it. This has been going on for my WHOLE lifetime ( 27 ). I even don't remember the last time I was happy. I am cronical nice guy and always finish last.

Even though I'm on this site for good 2 years and applied many technics in my life... I still do it the old way and I let myself down!

I always put others in front of me, their wishes and not their problems.

There were a few times when everything went well... but in the end I was unhappy again! ( this applies to girls, work, education ... everything I do! )

"Be a man" they say. I like this statement, but there are usually adjustments that have to be made. You walk your path... then comes the crossroad... and usually the one you take is the wrong one... ( good old Eddie ).


The main problem remains: "I never do what I know I should do!"

I guess my self-esteem and self-confidence is critically LOW! And everything I do (!!!) makes it even lower! But then again, even now I know what I should do ___and___ I know I won't do it!

I guess I would BE A MAN if I'd do it as I want it!

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I just had to write this out of my mind!
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Bye and BE GREAT

 

[So pimp its scary]

Try this one :

Get a notebook, and for one hour every week think back over all the things that you did 'wrong' and all the things that you did 'right'.

Then, every month or so, you look at the 'progress' that your making.

 

[fukuy]

be a man = dont give a f*ck of what other think and just do whatever you want

 

[chili kat]

Get yourself comfortable with saying "No" firmly to people. You don't have to be rude, just decisive.

 

[Viking25]

Go into therapy and get profesional help...no kidding! It may not be easy for you to handle this on your own. Looks like your in europe...they got good medical coverage there,use it.