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Don Juan
- Joined
- Mar 21, 2016
- Messages
- 146
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- Age
- 34
I'm quite sure that the most succesfull people on this earth have this confidence that I get when I had a few drinks.
For example, I don't care what I say or do when I had a few. Don't get me wrong, I'm still responsible and respect others and have decent conversations. But I just say what I want, I do what I want and I don't care what the outcome is. Until I get sober and then it is "fvck what did I do", even though afterwards I realize it's not bad at all what I did and said. In fact, like I said, it's how I think I should behave every single time.
But I guess this is just a lack of self-esteem? I had the best results when I was slightly drunk, I'm still able to fully control myself , but this feeling that "yes this is who I really am/want to be". This is what I need all the time. But I can't seem to achieve it.
For example, I don't care what I say or do when I had a few. Don't get me wrong, I'm still responsible and respect others and have decent conversations. But I just say what I want, I do what I want and I don't care what the outcome is. Until I get sober and then it is "fvck what did I do", even though afterwards I realize it's not bad at all what I did and said. In fact, like I said, it's how I think I should behave every single time.
But I guess this is just a lack of self-esteem? I had the best results when I was slightly drunk, I'm still able to fully control myself , but this feeling that "yes this is who I really am/want to be". This is what I need all the time. But I can't seem to achieve it.