The Decay of Meaning
Don Juan
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- Sep 11, 2008
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I am a student, I have two part time jobs, plus working out. It fills up all my day. I know there are plenty of people out there with lifes similar or the same in that respect. Today: Go out of house 7 AM. School 8-15. 16-20:30, job. After I get home: Homework, girl friend, cleaning up, showering, maybe grab some food if I have the time.
But how do people ****ing manage? People demand so much. Teachers, fellow students, girl friends, your boss, instructors, they all demand you to perform the outmost. Sometimes so much that your roles in school and job gets pushed against each other so you have to pick sides and one of the sides will blame you and call you a piece of **** or a loser. I want to punch them all in the face and tell them to shut the **** up.
How do people manage? I haven't been able to eat a solid meal the whole day and it's midnight now. I'm going ****ing nuts.
I actually woke up today and honestly felt like if I died that moment, it would be a relief. I felt death was something positive to come. And I am not even depressed. Seriously. Life is that strenious.
Before I go to bed now I will eat a can of fish and a beef. Vegetables, rice? I don't have time for anything more, I should already be in bed. Here I am, with fish sauce dripping onto my keyboard. I am an animal in the truest sense, in what is supposed to be a civilized and technological society.
Will I have time to even brush my teeth? I doubt it.
Any useful advise on how to cope with this? I am young, I am sure there are people who have learned a few tricks.
But how do people ****ing manage? People demand so much. Teachers, fellow students, girl friends, your boss, instructors, they all demand you to perform the outmost. Sometimes so much that your roles in school and job gets pushed against each other so you have to pick sides and one of the sides will blame you and call you a piece of **** or a loser. I want to punch them all in the face and tell them to shut the **** up.
How do people manage? I haven't been able to eat a solid meal the whole day and it's midnight now. I'm going ****ing nuts.
I actually woke up today and honestly felt like if I died that moment, it would be a relief. I felt death was something positive to come. And I am not even depressed. Seriously. Life is that strenious.
Before I go to bed now I will eat a can of fish and a beef. Vegetables, rice? I don't have time for anything more, I should already be in bed. Here I am, with fish sauce dripping onto my keyboard. I am an animal in the truest sense, in what is supposed to be a civilized and technological society.
Will I have time to even brush my teeth? I doubt it.
Any useful advise on how to cope with this? I am young, I am sure there are people who have learned a few tricks.