If you're going to progress or believe such things as 'I am the prize', I would like to warn you in advance of not staying within that mindset. You haven't deserved it. You may act like a living god but that does not make you one. It's great to have objectifs but it's retarded to let them stand there and assume you've already achieved them or are achieving them without doing anything. All it does is frustrate you as you feel that lack of power more and more.