Basically, I went out with this one girl for Valentines' Day. Let's call her Karen. This was our first date and we agreed to ignore that it was Valentines' Day and the date went well (These girls wanted to take a picture of me proposing to her for some magazine thing... and later we pretended we were married and we almost bought an apartment, it was hilarious). We both had fun and we both agreed we'd do it again sometime. Now, I realize that the following is going to sound horribly, horribly cliche... but it's true.
Karen is one of the more popular girls in school. She is one of the most beautiful girls in our grade, she's every guys' wet dream, she got into Georgetown University, and she's got a very bubbly personality. She doesn't really know what she wants to do for a career, but she wants to be a doctor.
Brighty, on the other hand, is slightly behind her in terms of popularity. Not to sound shallow, but I'm probably one of the more attractive dudes in our grade (however, looks doesn't mean **** if you don't have the confidence to go alongside it). In addition, my grades aren't all that hot and I'm conflicted as to where I'm going to college (The way money is right now, I think I'll have to go to a Community College until I can pay for a 4 year University). I am deadset on becoming a movie director/producer.
She likes me, but I just feel so - for lack of a better word - intimidated by her. It kind of hit me today when I was talking to two girls during a class when I casually mentioned that I went out with her last weekend. Immediately the girls did a double take and asked who I went with besides her and they didn't believe me at first that I went out with her. And then there's her friends - I'm friends with about half of them, the other half I really don't feel that comfortable around... they strike me as too preppy. For instance, I was invited over to a bonfire Sunday night with that group because of Karen and once I was there I couldn't really relate to some of the people.
When I'm isolated with her, I feel comfortable and right at home and that she's attracted to me... however when I'm at school when she's around her friends... I feel like I somehow don't deserve to be with her or something and I hardly give her a passing glance in the hallway today. I'm always second guessing myself if she's really attracted to me and I feel as though all eyes are on me. The anxiety of possibly going to Community College coupled with this stress of feeling almost inferior to her does not make a good mindset for me to escalate things with this girl.
Have any of you guys been in this scenario before? I know, this is totally putting her up on a pedestal... but it's so hard not to when all of my friends refer to her as the "golden girl". I originally was pretty relaxed about her hanging out with me, but steadily I'm being psyched out and I'm not even the one doing it.
Do you guys have any way I can put things into perspective?
Karen is one of the more popular girls in school. She is one of the most beautiful girls in our grade, she's every guys' wet dream, she got into Georgetown University, and she's got a very bubbly personality. She doesn't really know what she wants to do for a career, but she wants to be a doctor.
Brighty, on the other hand, is slightly behind her in terms of popularity. Not to sound shallow, but I'm probably one of the more attractive dudes in our grade (however, looks doesn't mean **** if you don't have the confidence to go alongside it). In addition, my grades aren't all that hot and I'm conflicted as to where I'm going to college (The way money is right now, I think I'll have to go to a Community College until I can pay for a 4 year University). I am deadset on becoming a movie director/producer.
She likes me, but I just feel so - for lack of a better word - intimidated by her. It kind of hit me today when I was talking to two girls during a class when I casually mentioned that I went out with her last weekend. Immediately the girls did a double take and asked who I went with besides her and they didn't believe me at first that I went out with her. And then there's her friends - I'm friends with about half of them, the other half I really don't feel that comfortable around... they strike me as too preppy. For instance, I was invited over to a bonfire Sunday night with that group because of Karen and once I was there I couldn't really relate to some of the people.
When I'm isolated with her, I feel comfortable and right at home and that she's attracted to me... however when I'm at school when she's around her friends... I feel like I somehow don't deserve to be with her or something and I hardly give her a passing glance in the hallway today. I'm always second guessing myself if she's really attracted to me and I feel as though all eyes are on me. The anxiety of possibly going to Community College coupled with this stress of feeling almost inferior to her does not make a good mindset for me to escalate things with this girl.
Have any of you guys been in this scenario before? I know, this is totally putting her up on a pedestal... but it's so hard not to when all of my friends refer to her as the "golden girl". I originally was pretty relaxed about her hanging out with me, but steadily I'm being psyched out and I'm not even the one doing it.
Do you guys have any way I can put things into perspective?
