I'll begin by saying that I seriously, seriously, screwed up. I'm talking, behaviour so bizarre that Tom Cruise's recent shenanigans wouldn't raise a single brow in comparison. I wanted so bad not to lose her, that I did everything TO lose her. That kinda thing.
Anyway, I scared her off. Either that, or she hooked up with someone else a little more grounded, but I definately did a lot of wrong things, and I take full blame (well, the alcoholic shell I was living under didn't help). Duh. I didn't hear from her for a month, and I was too ashamed of myself to even attempt contacting her.
I spent that time re-evaluated things, and made a lot of changes in my life, and I quickly bounced back and started acting like myself again.
Then, just when I thought it was safe, she sends me a text message. She indirectly asked me out to see a movie. I questioned her sudden interest, assuming that she was terrified of me, and also told her that I had already seen it. She tells me that she needed time to get over it (IE: whoever she hooked up with must not have done it for her). She also said that she misses me, and that we should get together sometime. I reply with a simple "Oh", and let it go, for now.
Now, she's either still interested in me (she must be a masochist), she got dumped and needs some validation, or she's plain just fvcking about with my head.
I guess I'll just have to wait and see what she does next, and hope I don't revert back into a mong.
Anyway, I scared her off. Either that, or she hooked up with someone else a little more grounded, but I definately did a lot of wrong things, and I take full blame (well, the alcoholic shell I was living under didn't help). Duh. I didn't hear from her for a month, and I was too ashamed of myself to even attempt contacting her.
I spent that time re-evaluated things, and made a lot of changes in my life, and I quickly bounced back and started acting like myself again.
Then, just when I thought it was safe, she sends me a text message. She indirectly asked me out to see a movie. I questioned her sudden interest, assuming that she was terrified of me, and also told her that I had already seen it. She tells me that she needed time to get over it (IE: whoever she hooked up with must not have done it for her). She also said that she misses me, and that we should get together sometime. I reply with a simple "Oh", and let it go, for now.
Now, she's either still interested in me (she must be a masochist), she got dumped and needs some validation, or she's plain just fvcking about with my head.
I guess I'll just have to wait and see what she does next, and hope I don't revert back into a mong.
