Larversurus
Don Juan
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First just some background about me.
I'm a guy in my early 20s, I'm really short (160 centimeters), I have had really bad acne on my face (it's starting to clear up more and more, thank God) and in my opinion, my looks in general isn't much to be grateful for.
Needless to say, my experience with girls was practically 0 (still a virgin, of course), and I wasn't very social with other people either. I didn't hang out with friends.
Until two months ago I lived in my parents basement. Now I'm living in my own apartment, I've got a ****ty job, but still, it's a job, and I'm getting more confident.
Three days ago I was convinced by my brother to come to this party (not that many people and everybody knew each other) and I got drunk. Really drunk. I've only ever been drunk 3-4 times (and never been to a party actually), so my experience with alcohol wasn't that great.
There was a few girls there, even though I was drunk I knew that they weren't very attractive. Still, there was a woman there, almost 30, who looked average (I've got high standards, some would probably rate her pretty high, I think) and in my drunk state I managed to get her to go for a walk with me. She a single mom, with a couple of years old son, lets say "Rupert", is his name.
It didn't take very long and we were soon back at the party. I have no idea what kind of stuff I said. Nothing very interesting, I'm sure. She was also somewhat drunk, not anywhere near as much as me though.
The night went on and I was getting bored as my drunk state was wearing off a bit. When I was just about to go home, that woman comes up to me and asks me to take her for another walk. Somehow I manage an more interesting conversation (I should also mention that she was even more drunk this time) and suddenly we were walking in the direction of my apartment, which wasn't very far away.
Well, while there, I "seduce" her and shortly thereafter I'm having sex for the first time in my life. It wasn't very good. I don't even remember half of it. I'm not even sure if I got to finish before she ended it. I'm sure I would have remembered that. Kind of sucks
She told me I was really good though, but I can't be sure, it could have been her drunkenness talking. Also, perhaps she wanted me to feel good since I'd just told her that I was a virgin before we started.
I don't know how long we'd been doing it, but she left pretty quickly after that we were done. During the act, she got a few text messages on her phone, which she immediately paid attention to, instead of me.
Anway, the next day I sent her a text message, telling her that I enjoyed what we had been doing and that she was a wonderful person.
She sent me a similar message and that was that.
My first time was awful, but at least I wasn't a virgin anymore, I guess?
Anyway, later that day she sends me a message, asking for my MSN.
I told her something like, "Not only do I have to be seduced by a horny [something], I also have to give her my MSN. But well, OK then..."
Her response: "Oh no, that's how you feel about it?"
I told her I was joking, that it was I who practically threw my self at her.
"Ok good I got a little worried there. What are you doing?"
Some time later, and in short, we have a good conversation on MSN (I'm pretty good at that, since I don't have to face the person I'm talking to). She told me she was sorry for "taking advantage" of me. We talked for about 3 hours. I'm being ****y and funny.
The next day I message her telling her that I want us to meet at my place again, to do some "talking". I was determined to have sex with her again, to have sex and actually remember things from it, as well as finish! I guess I felt a little bit hurt actually.
Her message: "Today I'll be quite busy and this week "Rupert" comes to stay here so I don't know when we can meet if I'm to be honest, but next saturday I'm going to "some event", we can meet there. Or, you can come to my place sometime this week after that "Rupert" has gone to bed. [I'd preferred not to go to her place, but ok then.]
I didn't message her back, waiting for her to message me back again instead.
The next day she writes:
"Do you work tomorrow? What times?"
I answer her and she writes:
"Ok, perhaps we can see each other tomorrow night if you have time, the will and aren't so tired"
I don't message her back. Later that night we have another conversation on MSN. I'm being ****y and funny, as before. Suddenly she asks me if she can come visit me tomorrow night [I thought: what happened to her son? Doesn't she have to look after him? Was it a lie? Is she getting a babysitter? I decided not to ask her about it, figuring I might upset her.]
I say something like: "Well, yeah, if you're going to be nice." And I tease her like that for a little bit. When I felt it was enough I changed subject, and pretty soon I said good night.
The next day I message her at 1 in the afternoon.
"So, you wanted to see me this evening."
"Hmm, yes, I think so If you're brave enough, and if I'm brave enough. "
"None of us bites, so I think it'll be alright. At my place? About at what time?"
"When do you have time?"
I lied and said I was busy until a certain time. She wrote:
"How about 7-8?"
"Ok, 7-8, I guess that would be ideal."
"I'm going to visit my mother so I can't come early."
I cleaned my apartment, myself, everything. I was all set. At 5 she sends me this:
"Right now it doesn't seem that I'm going to be back in "this place" until 9, is that to late for you?"
I guess I got mad. To me, that message looks like she's saying, "I don't really want to meet you, I was just joking around. That night I was drunk, we had sex, that was all. Leave me alone." We'd been up until 11 at night talking on MSN, why would 9 be to late for me? I'm sure she would have sent me another message around 9, saying "Unfortunately I can't come tonight, I'm too tired." Or some other lame excuse, just because she didn't want to see me. How was she able to know so certain that she was going to be late until 9? I think she figured that I would say: "yes, that's too late," and she would be able to say, "well, tomorrow then." And that day, she'd do about the same thing. And the next day. And the next day until I would give up.
I wrote: "Ok, I understand. Well, it's your loss. Bye."
That was horribly wrong was it?
She writes: "What?"
I don't answer her.
After a moment she writes me a pretty long message, saying she's with her mother and that she didn't know it was going to take so much time. She ends with "Bye yourself." I got the impression that she was almost relieved that I had called it off. I also think she was surprised that I managed to look though her lie about not being able to come 7-8, and she sort of panicked?
On the previous day, she told me she'd spent time with her mother. And now she's spending time with her again, from early afternoon until 9? To me, that seemed suspicious.
What do you think about this situation?
I'm not angry over this, sure, maybe I lost a real chance to have sex again, but because of that last message, I felt like I was wasting time, and I didn't want to continue wasting time since there's plenty of fish in the sea. Or so I hope.
Thanks for taking the time to read all this.
I'm a guy in my early 20s, I'm really short (160 centimeters), I have had really bad acne on my face (it's starting to clear up more and more, thank God) and in my opinion, my looks in general isn't much to be grateful for.
Needless to say, my experience with girls was practically 0 (still a virgin, of course), and I wasn't very social with other people either. I didn't hang out with friends.
Until two months ago I lived in my parents basement. Now I'm living in my own apartment, I've got a ****ty job, but still, it's a job, and I'm getting more confident.
Three days ago I was convinced by my brother to come to this party (not that many people and everybody knew each other) and I got drunk. Really drunk. I've only ever been drunk 3-4 times (and never been to a party actually), so my experience with alcohol wasn't that great.
There was a few girls there, even though I was drunk I knew that they weren't very attractive. Still, there was a woman there, almost 30, who looked average (I've got high standards, some would probably rate her pretty high, I think) and in my drunk state I managed to get her to go for a walk with me. She a single mom, with a couple of years old son, lets say "Rupert", is his name.
It didn't take very long and we were soon back at the party. I have no idea what kind of stuff I said. Nothing very interesting, I'm sure. She was also somewhat drunk, not anywhere near as much as me though.
The night went on and I was getting bored as my drunk state was wearing off a bit. When I was just about to go home, that woman comes up to me and asks me to take her for another walk. Somehow I manage an more interesting conversation (I should also mention that she was even more drunk this time) and suddenly we were walking in the direction of my apartment, which wasn't very far away.
Well, while there, I "seduce" her and shortly thereafter I'm having sex for the first time in my life. It wasn't very good. I don't even remember half of it. I'm not even sure if I got to finish before she ended it. I'm sure I would have remembered that. Kind of sucks
She told me I was really good though, but I can't be sure, it could have been her drunkenness talking. Also, perhaps she wanted me to feel good since I'd just told her that I was a virgin before we started.
I don't know how long we'd been doing it, but she left pretty quickly after that we were done. During the act, she got a few text messages on her phone, which she immediately paid attention to, instead of me.
Anway, the next day I sent her a text message, telling her that I enjoyed what we had been doing and that she was a wonderful person.
She sent me a similar message and that was that.
My first time was awful, but at least I wasn't a virgin anymore, I guess?
Anyway, later that day she sends me a message, asking for my MSN.
I told her something like, "Not only do I have to be seduced by a horny [something], I also have to give her my MSN. But well, OK then..."
Her response: "Oh no, that's how you feel about it?"
I told her I was joking, that it was I who practically threw my self at her.
"Ok good
I got a little worried there. What are you doing?"Some time later, and in short, we have a good conversation on MSN (I'm pretty good at that, since I don't have to face the person I'm talking to). She told me she was sorry for "taking advantage" of me. We talked for about 3 hours. I'm being ****y and funny.
The next day I message her telling her that I want us to meet at my place again, to do some "talking". I was determined to have sex with her again, to have sex and actually remember things from it, as well as finish! I guess I felt a little bit hurt actually.
Her message: "Today I'll be quite busy and this week "Rupert" comes to stay here so I don't know when we can meet if I'm to be honest, but next saturday I'm going to "some event", we can meet there. Or, you can come to my place sometime this week after that "Rupert" has gone to bed. [I'd preferred not to go to her place, but ok then.]
I didn't message her back, waiting for her to message me back again instead.
The next day she writes:
"Do you work tomorrow? What times?"
I answer her and she writes:
"Ok, perhaps we can see each other tomorrow night if you have time, the will and aren't so tired
"I don't message her back. Later that night we have another conversation on MSN. I'm being ****y and funny, as before. Suddenly she asks me if she can come visit me tomorrow night [I thought: what happened to her son? Doesn't she have to look after him? Was it a lie? Is she getting a babysitter? I decided not to ask her about it, figuring I might upset her.]
I say something like: "Well, yeah, if you're going to be nice." And I tease her like that for a little bit. When I felt it was enough I changed subject, and pretty soon I said good night.
The next day I message her at 1 in the afternoon.
"So, you wanted to see me this evening."
"Hmm, yes, I think so
If you're brave enough, and if I'm brave enough. ""None of us bites, so I think it'll be alright. At my place? About at what time?"
"When do you have time?"
I lied and said I was busy until a certain time. She wrote:
"How about 7-8?"
"Ok, 7-8, I guess that would be ideal."
"I'm going to visit my mother so I can't come early."
I cleaned my apartment, myself, everything. I was all set. At 5 she sends me this:
"Right now it doesn't seem that I'm going to be back in "this place" until 9, is that to late for you?"
I guess I got mad. To me, that message looks like she's saying, "I don't really want to meet you, I was just joking around. That night I was drunk, we had sex, that was all. Leave me alone." We'd been up until 11 at night talking on MSN, why would 9 be to late for me? I'm sure she would have sent me another message around 9, saying "Unfortunately I can't come tonight, I'm too tired." Or some other lame excuse, just because she didn't want to see me. How was she able to know so certain that she was going to be late until 9? I think she figured that I would say: "yes, that's too late," and she would be able to say, "well, tomorrow then." And that day, she'd do about the same thing. And the next day. And the next day until I would give up.
I wrote: "Ok, I understand. Well, it's your loss. Bye."
That was horribly wrong was it?
She writes: "What?"
I don't answer her.
After a moment she writes me a pretty long message, saying she's with her mother and that she didn't know it was going to take so much time. She ends with "Bye yourself." I got the impression that she was almost relieved that I had called it off. I also think she was surprised that I managed to look though her lie about not being able to come 7-8, and she sort of panicked?
On the previous day, she told me she'd spent time with her mother. And now she's spending time with her again, from early afternoon until 9? To me, that seemed suspicious.
What do you think about this situation?
I'm not angry over this, sure, maybe I lost a real chance to have sex again, but because of that last message, I felt like I was wasting time, and I didn't want to continue wasting time since there's plenty of fish in the sea. Or so I hope.
Thanks for taking the time to read all this.