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Don Juan
- Joined
- Mar 21, 2016
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- Age
- 34
Girl at work, not romantically interested but wouldn't say no if she wanted to f***.
So I try out new things on her, just as a test. But every single time when there is a girl who I get involved with, even if it's just a 'testsubject' sort to speak, there will be a day I feel the need to ignore her as much as possible.
I figured out I do this just so she would say something like "why do you do this, I don't like it, I like it better when you act normal". So I think it's a need for approval, of someone acknowledging they like me (even if it's just in a friendship way).
So yeah I did this with this girl at work, it was fun working with her, but now I kinda feel I ruined everything. At the start she still tried to engage me, but she just gave up after a while. I managed to save it a bit today and kinda acted normal towards the end (it was very hard for me to start acting normal again and I don't know why). I'll still have to work with her from time to time, so I think the best approach is to just keep acting normal like nothing happened?
But it will happen again that I 'want' to act this way. Is it just that need for approval that I want to get out of a girl by acting this way? I know it's pathetic and that I have a ridiculous long way to go before I become who I want to be, but you can imagine I get frustrated with myself. Is it perhaps something that happened in my childhood, that I didn't get enough approval and somehow got it by acting like that?
So I try out new things on her, just as a test. But every single time when there is a girl who I get involved with, even if it's just a 'testsubject' sort to speak, there will be a day I feel the need to ignore her as much as possible.
I figured out I do this just so she would say something like "why do you do this, I don't like it, I like it better when you act normal". So I think it's a need for approval, of someone acknowledging they like me (even if it's just in a friendship way).
So yeah I did this with this girl at work, it was fun working with her, but now I kinda feel I ruined everything. At the start she still tried to engage me, but she just gave up after a while. I managed to save it a bit today and kinda acted normal towards the end (it was very hard for me to start acting normal again and I don't know why). I'll still have to work with her from time to time, so I think the best approach is to just keep acting normal like nothing happened?
But it will happen again that I 'want' to act this way. Is it just that need for approval that I want to get out of a girl by acting this way? I know it's pathetic and that I have a ridiculous long way to go before I become who I want to be, but you can imagine I get frustrated with myself. Is it perhaps something that happened in my childhood, that I didn't get enough approval and somehow got it by acting like that?