Boot Camp Journal

[AverageJoe5]

Day 1, Week 1

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Ok so started saying hi and eye contact today. Got about 10 his, but did do the hour eye contact thing for an hour also. it's odd but I really do feel more confident after doing it. It seemed odd at first, but I felt better the more I did it. Actually was at a graduation party, swim meet, and fire works. AActually also started some talk w/ strangers. Not a bad begining.

 

[AverageJoe5]

Day 2, Week 1

I went to the mall today to get some cloths. As I’m walking around I keep see these couple 8’s coming toward me, and totally avoid eye contact. There when I went into this store called Aeropastale, I couldn’t even bring myself to even make eye contact w/ the girl employees and all they were are a 7, 6, and 7. I don’t go to the mall a lot, and suddenly I had a strong sense of being nervous.

 

[AverageJoe5]

Day 3, Week 1

Okay, I go to the jump today. As i'm lifting right in front me a 6 & 7 come over to workout out on the machine. I totally p**** out. I'm pissed now, I let a good opportunity go to talk. I realized something after seeing those two girls. Part of me doesn't think I'm good enough and another part thinks about the rejection. I don't know, I think being afraid rejection is the part that makes me figure i'm not good enough. Does anyone know how i can help get over this?

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After thinking this over, I realized I really want to finish this boot camp. If i want to be the man I want to be, I have to do this all the way. I think I realized the only way i can go on w/ this is if I quit ttaking approacs as if they're life and death. I deff need to try and just have some more fun w/ this.