I find it very hard, too, for anything long term. That's why I've relegated my life to simply fvckin em and leavin em. I'd say 90% of em aren't worth having me for any length of time. Even the married ones. Once they have you, they don't want you; therefore, they can never fully have me, and I will never get married, unless she's like a nun, in the 2-3% percentile, and I just don't see that happening cause I'm seen as the devil (or an animal) by these prudish ones, as well as I should be. I'd just be ruining these pristine doves. Why would she want to walk down my path, and throw away all her purity with me? I've fvcked many women ever which way imaginable, eaten as5, just heinous heinous (never been with a dude, though, and never will, and never done double penetration). I would feel somewhat guilty if a pure one fell for me. I'd ruin her for sure. Then her parents would probably plot killing me. I'm just not bent for the white picket fence, golfer lifestyle. I've always been lustful, and I guess, by their standards, in darkness, lost.