Accepting my failures and moving on.

[Viper]

Yeah, well, there were these Jazz Band Auditions last night, but even though the list hasn't even been posted yet, I know that the band director isn't going to put me in. At my private auditon, he said I needed to work on speed and at the band audition, where the band plays together, I could hardly play half of the songs because I had not really practiced them alot, I did do pretty well on the sight reading though, but no, there's little hope of me making. I even knew before the band practice at 6:30, that I wasn't going to make it, I just had a good, set feeling. Besides, why choose me, when you have a bunch of other saxes playing? Sure, if he didn't accept me to the list, he could always find a better Tenor Sax player than me. At the band practice he even said "If I feel it's neccessary, I may remove a Tenor", that was an obvious clue that I wasn't going to make it. Even at the practice I asked myself, "Why am I here? Sure, I can play some of the music, but, I know the band director wasn't impressed with my private auditions and him, seeing that I can't play a good 2/3 of the music, doesn't really help. Why am I here? Why am I even trying to get into this? I know he's not going to put me on the list, I mean come on, there's no hope, he thinks I'm too inexperienced.". Seeing as Jazz Band is very prestigious and not every one who tries out, makes it, I have a vibe, that my chances of making it, are NON-EXISTANT. Now, I keep telling myself to "Improve man, maybe you'll make it next year" and stuff like that, but still, I just can't let it go, it's like it just keeps coming back. It's just very hard to accept, that you failed, even harder, when you know that you have no chance in hell of making and when you know you didn't make it and the list isn't even up, you know you suck. I don't even care if the list being posted isn't the final list, I know I didn't even make THAT list. I don't want to give myself false confidence and tell myself that there is a chance that I'm getting on the list, then, find out that I'm not on the list, so I'm just accepting that, even though I did decent at the audition, somehow, I just KNOW it wasn't good enough.

 

[taiwanesedude227]

This has nothing to do with DJ'ing at all.

 

[immrtlwun]

What is your f**king problem?! All you do is come on the boards and b**ch about your problems and low self-esteem. We give you suggestions and you never try them. You've been here for what seems like eternity and are still dealing with confidence issues. If you think that you're gonna fail, then you will. Always assume that you are going to make it, whatever it is, and move on if you don't.

 

[Viper]

Originally posted by taiwanesedude227
This has nothing to do with DJ'ing at all.

Sorry to burst your bubble, but DJ'ing isn't all about seduction and getting women.

What is your f**king problem?! All you do is come on the boards and b**ch about your problems and low self-esteem. We give you suggestions and you never try them. You've been here for what seems like eternity and are still dealing with confidence issues. If you think that you're gonna fail, then you will. Always assume that you are going to make it, whatever it is, and move on if you don't.

B**ch? I don't see anyone b**ching here but you man and low confidence? No, theres just not a good chance I'll make it, when there are so many better sax players, most of them who have been in Jazz Band before. If I see my name on the list when he posts it Monday, which isn't going to happen, that would be the biggest freaking surprise ever, but like I said, that's not happening. Even if you go in with the attitude that you WILL make it, the odds are pretty much against me in this situation, so there's no reason to build up my hopes, for something that's not happening.

 

[wavejams007]

What is said above is true. If you think you are going to fail, you will. I play varsity soccer here in ecuador. I am not that good at soccer, and I was cut from the team. But I beleived in myself, and I asked if I could attend one practice and show that I deserved a chance to be on the team. I went out, tried my hardest, and won myself a spot on the team. I am still not a starter, but I get a good amount of playing time. If you can, you should talk to the band director and see if there is any way for you to earn a spot in the band, and prove yourself worthy. Notice that I did not say suck up to him, but show him your intense desire to be on the jazz band, if you really want to be on it.

 

[Dimebag_Darrell]

Dude, why the hell did you try to stab with the old knife when you never sharpen your blade? Practice practice practice. damn......

 

[Microphone Fiend]

Originally posted by taiwanesedude227
This has nothing to do with DJ'ing at all.

:crackup: man I love that smiley

 

[wavejams007]

Micro, this was a random comment