I have been banging this girl the last few weeks and last weekend I fuvked her brains out. I was not drinking and hadn't masturbated or watched porn all that week. Well, I did an experiment of sorts and tonight she called me and I saw her again. I watched porn this week (I really didn't think I would see her) and beat the meat for a couple times the night before, I also drank tonight. And guess what? I couldn't fuvking perform. I went limp half way home. I know for a fact that it was the porn and alcohol. I didn't have the same desire as I did last week when I was energized and in control. It was weird, it was mental more than physical. I was just desensitized. I felt like two different people. I want that energy and aggressiveness of last week. I WILL NEVER jerk before the weekend and will not watch porn anymore. I am sure I lost this fuvk buddy tonight because every time you see them, you have to able to perform (hence, the word fuvk buddy). I am so angry at myself that I wasn't in control this week. I don't care what anyone says, if you want to be in top shape in sex, no porn, no alcohol, no masturbation before. I'm sure I won't be hearing from her again. Fuvk me. What a terrible situation.
It's so weird to explain. I was almost desensitized. I think it was alcohol and the porn didn't help. Since I wasn't really horny, my mind was like, "you got laid twice last night pal (u took care of yourself), ain't no gasoline left at this station." Fuvk man. That was weird. Now, I know for sure that porn is evil. I can't believe I made a rookie mistake and lost this fuvk buddy tonight. Fuvk me.
It's so weird to explain. I was almost desensitized. I think it was alcohol and the porn didn't help. Since I wasn't really horny, my mind was like, "you got laid twice last night pal (u took care of yourself), ain't no gasoline left at this station." Fuvk man. That was weird. Now, I know for sure that porn is evil. I can't believe I made a rookie mistake and lost this fuvk buddy tonight. Fuvk me.
