Reyaj
Master Don Juan
I broke up with her last year upon the realization that she was not going to make a good life partner for me. In the last year of the relationship, it was I that was holding out on sex to her and she brought up the point a few times. I used a knee injury that I had suffered, as an excuse, but I was very, very tempted to cheat on her.
Kailex things have been really the same lately for me. Except when we argue/fight it is starting to bother me more and more. Still I know it would break her heart immensely. So I'm very curious... how did it go down when you broke up with your girlfriend? Did you break up a few times and get back together? Or did you do it in 1 solid swoop? What was her reaction? You say you are still friends... how were you able to pull that off? I think my gf would hate my guts if I did that to her at this stage. The fact that she was living with you must have made it hard. I'd really be interested to hear about it man.
Like I said in the earlier quote, I was ALWAYS tempted to bang someone else. Yes, I wasn't married, but I was living with her (Breaking one of the rules of Rollo) without any goal of marrying her anytime soon. I know you are rationalizing the fact that she might discover you and dump you, but the thought and the action are two different things. Are you completely sure that you can deal with that consequence? Are you sure that if the time comes and she finds out, that you'll be able to go it alone? Also, do you see yourself just NOT cheating anymore if you get married to her? More on that in a second...
I actually go through a great deal of effort to hide this (when I do it). So I really don't want her to catch me. If I do get caught though.. I would feel I'd deserve it from a "reap what you sow" paradigm. I guess I'm really just not certain about a lot in life.. which is why I wonder if the problem is internal and not external. I mean if its internal, then I need to figure that stuff out or else I won't be happy with anyone else...
What's going to change when you're married that'll make you happy and content? That's just my point. Marriage isn't the magical solution to this problem. Marriage will only MAGNIFY your current situation ten-fold. If you are unhappy in this relationship now, what makes you think you will be happy and content after the certificate is signed? I mean, if you honestly believe it will happen, then more power to you, but in most cases, it doesn't happen.
I agree with you 100%
That's the risk you take. And to be honest, that's the idea MANY men have in their heads when trying to rationalize breaking up with their current LTR. The fear instilled in us is that we might be letting go of something good and instead being cut a raw deal in the future with anyone else. Basically, this is the thought that is holding you back. Personally, it held me back from dropping her and you have no idea how many times I silently wished that she would cheat on me or that she'd get fed up with me and leave me. Maybe that's why she stuck around, because I could have cared less if she was in the picture. Yet, sometimes I did think of marrying her because she was good to me and because she understood me and she let me be a man, but all of these things weren't good enough for me.
What do you think she lacked that you are looking for in someone else?
I just hope that the lesson isn't a truly harsh one, although that's what it seems to be headed to, Jayer. I really hope that you are able to go through with this with the minimal amount of damage. If you are perfectly willing to accept the consequences of what might take place, then, well I don't think I can advise you anymore... not because I don't want to, but because you are fully aware of the situation. What I DO know is that you definitely shouldn't be marrying this girl anytime soon... you're definitely not ready. Is she still "living" with you? I do wish you the best of luck and I will check up on this and routinely drop a comment or two.[/QUOTE]
I agree Kailex... believe me your words were not wasted. I think about them often... but you are right.. I guess I already made my decision for now (although that may change). I just know for all the frustration I go through with her I get kind of scared inside if she was gone. I don't have anyone else in life I can count on.... who really loves me and would be there... maybe not being 100% fufilled is the price I have to pay for it. She is pushing hard for the marriage and thats whats been the cause of a lot of out fights lately... something has to give... I will continue to keep you posted. Thank you!
Kailex things have been really the same lately for me. Except when we argue/fight it is starting to bother me more and more. Still I know it would break her heart immensely. So I'm very curious... how did it go down when you broke up with your girlfriend? Did you break up a few times and get back together? Or did you do it in 1 solid swoop? What was her reaction? You say you are still friends... how were you able to pull that off? I think my gf would hate my guts if I did that to her at this stage. The fact that she was living with you must have made it hard. I'd really be interested to hear about it man.
Like I said in the earlier quote, I was ALWAYS tempted to bang someone else. Yes, I wasn't married, but I was living with her (Breaking one of the rules of Rollo) without any goal of marrying her anytime soon. I know you are rationalizing the fact that she might discover you and dump you, but the thought and the action are two different things. Are you completely sure that you can deal with that consequence? Are you sure that if the time comes and she finds out, that you'll be able to go it alone? Also, do you see yourself just NOT cheating anymore if you get married to her? More on that in a second...
I actually go through a great deal of effort to hide this (when I do it). So I really don't want her to catch me. If I do get caught though.. I would feel I'd deserve it from a "reap what you sow" paradigm. I guess I'm really just not certain about a lot in life.. which is why I wonder if the problem is internal and not external. I mean if its internal, then I need to figure that stuff out or else I won't be happy with anyone else...
What's going to change when you're married that'll make you happy and content? That's just my point. Marriage isn't the magical solution to this problem. Marriage will only MAGNIFY your current situation ten-fold. If you are unhappy in this relationship now, what makes you think you will be happy and content after the certificate is signed? I mean, if you honestly believe it will happen, then more power to you, but in most cases, it doesn't happen.
I agree with you 100%
That's the risk you take. And to be honest, that's the idea MANY men have in their heads when trying to rationalize breaking up with their current LTR. The fear instilled in us is that we might be letting go of something good and instead being cut a raw deal in the future with anyone else. Basically, this is the thought that is holding you back. Personally, it held me back from dropping her and you have no idea how many times I silently wished that she would cheat on me or that she'd get fed up with me and leave me. Maybe that's why she stuck around, because I could have cared less if she was in the picture. Yet, sometimes I did think of marrying her because she was good to me and because she understood me and she let me be a man, but all of these things weren't good enough for me.
What do you think she lacked that you are looking for in someone else?
I just hope that the lesson isn't a truly harsh one, although that's what it seems to be headed to, Jayer. I really hope that you are able to go through with this with the minimal amount of damage. If you are perfectly willing to accept the consequences of what might take place, then, well I don't think I can advise you anymore... not because I don't want to, but because you are fully aware of the situation. What I DO know is that you definitely shouldn't be marrying this girl anytime soon... you're definitely not ready. Is she still "living" with you? I do wish you the best of luck and I will check up on this and routinely drop a comment or two.[/QUOTE]
I agree Kailex... believe me your words were not wasted. I think about them often... but you are right.. I guess I already made my decision for now (although that may change). I just know for all the frustration I go through with her I get kind of scared inside if she was gone. I don't have anyone else in life I can count on.... who really loves me and would be there... maybe not being 100% fufilled is the price I have to pay for it. She is pushing hard for the marriage and thats whats been the cause of a lot of out fights lately... something has to give... I will continue to keep you posted. Thank you!