TheHumanist
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2011... incredibly cliche, but time flies. I am now a senior in college in my last semester. When I first came here, I was a senior in high school. But, not here just to delve in some nostalgia or some **** like that. I have a few concerns now that I am facing the end of college that I want to hear some advice.
OK, to be honest, what I really want to hear is reassurance, who really want to hear something like "yeah, you're right, you're screwed." For that is what I am foreseeing in my future after college though I rarely say that outloud to myself.
I guess the biggest sore to my outlook is while I will graduate with a degree in computer science (I have I been assured in the past that a CS degree is quite valuable and my school have a good amount of name recognition), I will graduate with a pretty low GPA and I still don't feel my programming skills is up to snuff compared to a good number of my classmates.
The second major sore is I don't think I have the social acumen that many times counts even more than academic performance. Ironic since it been four years since I came here with all its archive of building social skills and I feel that I have less than I assessed myself as a senior in high school.
While I am an extrovert and it is not like I struggled with only a few friends who are some kind of creepy bottom of the totem pole people. (In fact, one of the biggest signs of progress is I have several circles of friends that treat me well. It will be sad as many will scatter all over the world and country, but I can confidently say they will give a **** about me. Compared to high school, I only have one friend that I can confidently say that I really keep on contact and memories that alot of people I stuck around with either treated me as an outsider or just bull**** level of disrespect.)
Yet, I lack a major ability to win people over. One example is a co-worker of mine seem to be to talk to anyone (and in the later anecdotal story, this include the boss of my boss) and win their good side. Now I know that I can't win everybody, but I find it a major concern when I win their bad side without knowing what I did. In one example, I am technically an IT worker, but I am currently just a computer lab attendant. Working as an IT guy, I managed to somehow win the disdain of my bosses. If I didn't switch over to working in the computer lab and had the help of my direct boss who is a nice guy and likes me, I probably would have been fired. It is not bad of a deal that I work in a relatively laid-back job with the pay rate of an IT guy, but the reasons why I work down there and have no option to go back and work upstairs isn't so great.
Another important thing to point out is while as I read Roissy, I also read some of the blogs he links. They paint a message that also says I am screwed. One post, for example, is Half Sigma's Why a career in Computer Programing sucks Granted, it is computer programing is not computer science, but it is a major aspect and it never feels good to think that I will struggle in a few months time in a chosen field, meanwhile most mainstream rankings says computer related tracks are the best. Also, reading about HBD from those bloggers (in this case, that IQ matters) and their backing looks pretty sound, it brought a new importance about intelligence.
So in short, while things are relatively tranquil. This little bubble of a world is going to end soon and I'm going to come out with a relatively low gpa and a lot of self-doubt of my social abilities. To my understanding, both are pretty damn important to making something in the real world. On top of that, the economy sucks (and many, including many here, going to collapse) and I am questioning myself if I have the innate IQ to really achieve what I want to achieve in life instead of settling for mediocrity. Oh yeah, reading out how feminism is screwed the world and in turn me isn't encouraging either.
Okay, that pretty long. But I don't want to just end it with just writing what's been on my mind without noting what I plan to do about it.
1. End college with an academic bang. For my final semester, I plan on taking two CS classes (Databases and Theory of Computing) with two lighter class (Graphics design and Acting). I also plan on taking two PDP (Athletic classes for fun - Marathon training and Sailing). Hopefully by taking a lighter workload, I'll be able to go out by acing all my 4 class and end it with the Dean's List. It is probably too little, too late for academics and it won't fully shake off my self-doubt as it doesn't match with the workload I tried to take on before, but it will help.
2. Find a job. Simple as that. I have some ideal CS jobs, but I'm not in a position to be picky.
3. Entrepreneurship - It is something I been dabbling for about a year, but this last semester, I really need to start a real fire. For about a years time, I been talking with different groups of people with plans on starting some ventures (cs related) and with one person, helping design and program a video game as a startup video game company. Now I really need to start making some headways in new ventures and also help push the video game to some alpha-build form.
4. iPhone/Android Development - its kinda related to the Entrepreneurship thing, but I been working on an iPhone app that I need to finish and see it published and need to pick up more Android so I can join in with my University's development team (maybe if I do well, they can offer me a job... or perhaps I can go independent)
The two below doesn't really help me in the long run, but as long I am listing my plans for 2011, I might as well include it
5. Enjoy the last semester. As I noted above, many of my friends are going to scatter all over the world back to their respective home state/country. In the past semesters, I been giving on minimal time. Now with a lighter workload, I think I put a bit more time to just enjoy time with them before they are gone.
6. Fencing - Kick ass. It's my last semester and I am going to go train with my team and win as many bouts as I can before I graduate. This would mean I plan on continuing on building my skill and training.
OK, to be honest, what I really want to hear is reassurance, who really want to hear something like "yeah, you're right, you're screwed." For that is what I am foreseeing in my future after college though I rarely say that outloud to myself.
I guess the biggest sore to my outlook is while I will graduate with a degree in computer science (I have I been assured in the past that a CS degree is quite valuable and my school have a good amount of name recognition), I will graduate with a pretty low GPA and I still don't feel my programming skills is up to snuff compared to a good number of my classmates.
The second major sore is I don't think I have the social acumen that many times counts even more than academic performance. Ironic since it been four years since I came here with all its archive of building social skills and I feel that I have less than I assessed myself as a senior in high school.
While I am an extrovert and it is not like I struggled with only a few friends who are some kind of creepy bottom of the totem pole people. (In fact, one of the biggest signs of progress is I have several circles of friends that treat me well. It will be sad as many will scatter all over the world and country, but I can confidently say they will give a **** about me. Compared to high school, I only have one friend that I can confidently say that I really keep on contact and memories that alot of people I stuck around with either treated me as an outsider or just bull**** level of disrespect.)
Yet, I lack a major ability to win people over. One example is a co-worker of mine seem to be to talk to anyone (and in the later anecdotal story, this include the boss of my boss) and win their good side. Now I know that I can't win everybody, but I find it a major concern when I win their bad side without knowing what I did. In one example, I am technically an IT worker, but I am currently just a computer lab attendant. Working as an IT guy, I managed to somehow win the disdain of my bosses. If I didn't switch over to working in the computer lab and had the help of my direct boss who is a nice guy and likes me, I probably would have been fired. It is not bad of a deal that I work in a relatively laid-back job with the pay rate of an IT guy, but the reasons why I work down there and have no option to go back and work upstairs isn't so great.
Another important thing to point out is while as I read Roissy, I also read some of the blogs he links. They paint a message that also says I am screwed. One post, for example, is Half Sigma's Why a career in Computer Programing sucks Granted, it is computer programing is not computer science, but it is a major aspect and it never feels good to think that I will struggle in a few months time in a chosen field, meanwhile most mainstream rankings says computer related tracks are the best. Also, reading about HBD from those bloggers (in this case, that IQ matters) and their backing looks pretty sound, it brought a new importance about intelligence.
So in short, while things are relatively tranquil. This little bubble of a world is going to end soon and I'm going to come out with a relatively low gpa and a lot of self-doubt of my social abilities. To my understanding, both are pretty damn important to making something in the real world. On top of that, the economy sucks (and many, including many here, going to collapse) and I am questioning myself if I have the innate IQ to really achieve what I want to achieve in life instead of settling for mediocrity. Oh yeah, reading out how feminism is screwed the world and in turn me isn't encouraging either.
Okay, that pretty long. But I don't want to just end it with just writing what's been on my mind without noting what I plan to do about it.
1. End college with an academic bang. For my final semester, I plan on taking two CS classes (Databases and Theory of Computing) with two lighter class (Graphics design and Acting). I also plan on taking two PDP (Athletic classes for fun - Marathon training and Sailing). Hopefully by taking a lighter workload, I'll be able to go out by acing all my 4 class and end it with the Dean's List. It is probably too little, too late for academics and it won't fully shake off my self-doubt as it doesn't match with the workload I tried to take on before, but it will help.
2. Find a job. Simple as that. I have some ideal CS jobs, but I'm not in a position to be picky.
3. Entrepreneurship - It is something I been dabbling for about a year, but this last semester, I really need to start a real fire. For about a years time, I been talking with different groups of people with plans on starting some ventures (cs related) and with one person, helping design and program a video game as a startup video game company. Now I really need to start making some headways in new ventures and also help push the video game to some alpha-build form.
4. iPhone/Android Development - its kinda related to the Entrepreneurship thing, but I been working on an iPhone app that I need to finish and see it published and need to pick up more Android so I can join in with my University's development team (maybe if I do well, they can offer me a job... or perhaps I can go independent)
The two below doesn't really help me in the long run, but as long I am listing my plans for 2011, I might as well include it
5. Enjoy the last semester. As I noted above, many of my friends are going to scatter all over the world back to their respective home state/country. In the past semesters, I been giving on minimal time. Now with a lighter workload, I think I put a bit more time to just enjoy time with them before they are gone.
6. Fencing - Kick ass. It's my last semester and I am going to go train with my team and win as many bouts as I can before I graduate. This would mean I plan on continuing on building my skill and training.
