AttackFormation
Master Don Juan
This will be a rant....
Escalation has been my biggest problem with women all my life. Even if I suspect a woman is interested, I'm thinking that she might regard escalation as an unwelcome bother or harassment.
Just now this thought pattern cost me another opportunity, the first girl I've interacted with in the university town I'll be staying in for 3 months until I go back to study in my home city. I arrived today, and she had a room in my student corridor (which is in a detached residential dwelling, so there isn't a large complex of other student corridors with more girls nearby either). At first when she walked into the student kitchen and gave me an enthusiastic greeting I thought "this is it, it doesn't get easier than this, a friendly girl glad to have found someone she can have sex with in the evenings here". My immediate plan was to just roll with the flow of the interaction and eventually we would have sex, whether today or tomorrow, as I felt her out.
But then, she said she was just stopping by to get a few of her things before moving to another town. This is where I fvcked up. I could've done something to at least try to escalate for some making out, groping, and that leading to some dry sex or even full on sex, but I didn't. Why didn't I do it? because even though she seemed enthusiastic, and stuck around with me in the kitchen saying she "didn't want to drive in rush time", I didn't want to make her feel uncomfortable or harassed. I hate this mindset. I don't want to have it. Being considerate and thoughtful does NOT get you laid, ESCALATION does. Any man who has ever looked back at how he actually had sex will confirm this. Is it just in my fvcking DNA to be this way? I didn't grow up with my mother telling me to do or not do this or that, or anything like that, it just seems wired into me... FVCK. I HATE this shyt. I can't convey through the screen how sick I am of being this way.. What angers me even more, what really fills me with rage, is knowing that she might have actually counted on me escalating thus why she stuck around, but then packed her stuff and bounced saying "well, take care" after I hadn't sexualized the interaction. She might have just been wanting some entertainment before she went, and not have wanted to make out or anything... but I didn't find out whether that was the case. I only seem able to escalate when I feel the girl has made it clear she wants me to. If she does, my barrier completely goes away.. I am not this way with girls who I've actually been sexual with. But if not...
This night I am making a commitment to be deliberately sexually provocative if I encounter another girl who seems enthusiastic (although with the university campus on lockdown for the coronavirus, I'm not sure when that will start). The first thing I'll do after saying hi or hi back, will be to look at her body and say "how sexy you are... I like your body" (the first part sounds more sensible in my language) in a calm voice. I am SICK of being thoughtful, SICK of being considerate. Those things only prevent you from having sex.
Escalation has been my biggest problem with women all my life. Even if I suspect a woman is interested, I'm thinking that she might regard escalation as an unwelcome bother or harassment.
Just now this thought pattern cost me another opportunity, the first girl I've interacted with in the university town I'll be staying in for 3 months until I go back to study in my home city. I arrived today, and she had a room in my student corridor (which is in a detached residential dwelling, so there isn't a large complex of other student corridors with more girls nearby either). At first when she walked into the student kitchen and gave me an enthusiastic greeting I thought "this is it, it doesn't get easier than this, a friendly girl glad to have found someone she can have sex with in the evenings here". My immediate plan was to just roll with the flow of the interaction and eventually we would have sex, whether today or tomorrow, as I felt her out.
But then, she said she was just stopping by to get a few of her things before moving to another town. This is where I fvcked up. I could've done something to at least try to escalate for some making out, groping, and that leading to some dry sex or even full on sex, but I didn't. Why didn't I do it? because even though she seemed enthusiastic, and stuck around with me in the kitchen saying she "didn't want to drive in rush time", I didn't want to make her feel uncomfortable or harassed. I hate this mindset. I don't want to have it. Being considerate and thoughtful does NOT get you laid, ESCALATION does. Any man who has ever looked back at how he actually had sex will confirm this. Is it just in my fvcking DNA to be this way? I didn't grow up with my mother telling me to do or not do this or that, or anything like that, it just seems wired into me... FVCK. I HATE this shyt. I can't convey through the screen how sick I am of being this way.. What angers me even more, what really fills me with rage, is knowing that she might have actually counted on me escalating thus why she stuck around, but then packed her stuff and bounced saying "well, take care" after I hadn't sexualized the interaction. She might have just been wanting some entertainment before she went, and not have wanted to make out or anything... but I didn't find out whether that was the case. I only seem able to escalate when I feel the girl has made it clear she wants me to. If she does, my barrier completely goes away.. I am not this way with girls who I've actually been sexual with. But if not...
This night I am making a commitment to be deliberately sexually provocative if I encounter another girl who seems enthusiastic (although with the university campus on lockdown for the coronavirus, I'm not sure when that will start). The first thing I'll do after saying hi or hi back, will be to look at her body and say "how sexy you are... I like your body" (the first part sounds more sensible in my language) in a calm voice. I am SICK of being thoughtful, SICK of being considerate. Those things only prevent you from having sex.
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