TheFixer14
Senior Don Juan
- Joined
- Dec 15, 2016
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- Age
- 33
So I have already discussed this in another thread. A few members suggested that I should take a month break after two women that I was dating ended things with me and another woman that I dated was just too young.
This month has been one of the more calmer ones mentally that I've had in a while. I just focused on my career and health. I've made strides with working on my acting craft, working on my feature film, and developing different projects. I've gotten my health way up I go to the gym five times a week , Kung Fu twice a week, and Tai Chi once a week. I am stronger than ever, getting into even better shape, and I am getting more calm.
I've also been studying psychoanalysis and have begun psychoanalyzing myself. This is a constant process that I'm looking to get better at. It's improving my life and my art.
I was thinking about going back out next week. Ease into it and go to a Gothic club. But then I stumbled upon this Tedx Talk,
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I related a little to that. While I'm no Don Juan, I've had above average success with women. I have some cool stories. And I use too feel proud of myself when I was dating three women at once. But the more that I got into this, the further that I got away from myself, and the further that I've gotten away from fixing problems.
So, I have decided to really dive into myself. Neon Genesis Evangelion is the anime that made me want to get into psychoanalysis in the first place. I remember an episode where the protagonist was stuck in his robot war pod and he started to go into his mind. His subconscious began talking to him explaining how there are two hims within him . The one that he is conscious of, and your true self. The true self went on to explain how there are many of him. He listed that each person that he knows knows a different version of him and he is afraid of the different versions of him. The lead asks if he is scared of his friends hating him. The true self said no, he is scared of being hurt. He looked back at the times where one of the female leads and fellow fighter would yell at him. Before he saw it as her being just aggressive and obnoxious. But she actually likes him and was frustrated over his behavior.
I related to some of that. In particular the first part. After those two women that I dated dipped on me I got scared of being hurt. So now I need to build my self esteem back up again and my external life up as well.
So why the summer? By the time the summer hits I plan on going on vacation. I might see my family for a week in Orlando. But I am sure for going to Japan. I am going there mainly to write a future project. But, I am looking forward to staying out in the country, drinking black tea, going to Tokyo night clubs, going to watch an anime, reading manga, enjoying the food, arcade games, karaoke.
I want to be my best self by the time I do. That would include really understanding myself, completing my film, completing my mini web series, and selling my graphic novels before then. I got book for a new trilogy that I will start in the fall. And of course, be in great shape.
I honestly don't know what I want with women. They intrigue me. But I don't really want a girlfriend. I also don't care for dating. I suppose a harem is ideal for me. Three to four women who I hang out with. Even if I am not interested in one or two that is ideal for me as I enjoy feminine energy.
Japanese men tent o have harems. So I shall learn.
This month has been one of the more calmer ones mentally that I've had in a while. I just focused on my career and health. I've made strides with working on my acting craft, working on my feature film, and developing different projects. I've gotten my health way up I go to the gym five times a week , Kung Fu twice a week, and Tai Chi once a week. I am stronger than ever, getting into even better shape, and I am getting more calm.
I've also been studying psychoanalysis and have begun psychoanalyzing myself. This is a constant process that I'm looking to get better at. It's improving my life and my art.
I was thinking about going back out next week. Ease into it and go to a Gothic club. But then I stumbled upon this Tedx Talk,
I related a little to that. While I'm no Don Juan, I've had above average success with women. I have some cool stories. And I use too feel proud of myself when I was dating three women at once. But the more that I got into this, the further that I got away from myself, and the further that I've gotten away from fixing problems.
So, I have decided to really dive into myself. Neon Genesis Evangelion is the anime that made me want to get into psychoanalysis in the first place. I remember an episode where the protagonist was stuck in his robot war pod and he started to go into his mind. His subconscious began talking to him explaining how there are two hims within him . The one that he is conscious of, and your true self. The true self went on to explain how there are many of him. He listed that each person that he knows knows a different version of him and he is afraid of the different versions of him. The lead asks if he is scared of his friends hating him. The true self said no, he is scared of being hurt. He looked back at the times where one of the female leads and fellow fighter would yell at him. Before he saw it as her being just aggressive and obnoxious. But she actually likes him and was frustrated over his behavior.
I related to some of that. In particular the first part. After those two women that I dated dipped on me I got scared of being hurt. So now I need to build my self esteem back up again and my external life up as well.
So why the summer? By the time the summer hits I plan on going on vacation. I might see my family for a week in Orlando. But I am sure for going to Japan. I am going there mainly to write a future project. But, I am looking forward to staying out in the country, drinking black tea, going to Tokyo night clubs, going to watch an anime, reading manga, enjoying the food, arcade games, karaoke.
I want to be my best self by the time I do. That would include really understanding myself, completing my film, completing my mini web series, and selling my graphic novels before then. I got book for a new trilogy that I will start in the fall. And of course, be in great shape.
I honestly don't know what I want with women. They intrigue me. But I don't really want a girlfriend. I also don't care for dating. I suppose a harem is ideal for me. Three to four women who I hang out with. Even if I am not interested in one or two that is ideal for me as I enjoy feminine energy.
Japanese men tent o have harems. So I shall learn.
