After a month break, I'm thinking of continuing the break until the summer

[TheFixer14]

So I have already discussed this in another thread. A few members suggested that I should take a month break after two women that I was dating ended things with me and another woman that I dated was just too young.

This month has been one of the more calmer ones mentally that I've had in a while. I just focused on my career and health. I've made strides with working on my acting craft, working on my feature film, and developing different projects. I've gotten my health way up I go to the gym five times a week , Kung Fu twice a week, and Tai Chi once a week. I am stronger than ever, getting into even better shape, and I am getting more calm.

I've also been studying psychoanalysis and have begun psychoanalyzing myself. This is a constant process that I'm looking to get better at. It's improving my life and my art.

I was thinking about going back out next week. Ease into it and go to a Gothic club. But then I stumbled upon this Tedx Talk,

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I related a little to that. While I'm no Don Juan, I've had above average success with women. I have some cool stories. And I use too feel proud of myself when I was dating three women at once. But the more that I got into this, the further that I got away from myself, and the further that I've gotten away from fixing problems.

So, I have decided to really dive into myself. Neon Genesis Evangelion is the anime that made me want to get into psychoanalysis in the first place. I remember an episode where the protagonist was stuck in his robot war pod and he started to go into his mind. His subconscious began talking to him explaining how there are two hims within him . The one that he is conscious of, and your true self. The true self went on to explain how there are many of him. He listed that each person that he knows knows a different version of him and he is afraid of the different versions of him. The lead asks if he is scared of his friends hating him. The true self said no, he is scared of being hurt. He looked back at the times where one of the female leads and fellow fighter would yell at him. Before he saw it as her being just aggressive and obnoxious. But she actually likes him and was frustrated over his behavior.

I related to some of that. In particular the first part. After those two women that I dated dipped on me I got scared of being hurt. So now I need to build my self esteem back up again and my external life up as well.

So why the summer? By the time the summer hits I plan on going on vacation. I might see my family for a week in Orlando. But I am sure for going to Japan. I am going there mainly to write a future project. But, I am looking forward to staying out in the country, drinking black tea, going to Tokyo night clubs, going to watch an anime, reading manga, enjoying the food, arcade games, karaoke.

I want to be my best self by the time I do. That would include really understanding myself, completing my film, completing my mini web series, and selling my graphic novels before then. I got book for a new trilogy that I will start in the fall. And of course, be in great shape.

I honestly don't know what I want with women. They intrigue me. But I don't really want a girlfriend. I also don't care for dating. I suppose a harem is ideal for me. Three to four women who I hang out with. Even if I am not interested in one or two that is ideal for me as I enjoy feminine energy.

Japanese men tent o have harems. So I shall learn.

 

[Doctor Europeo]

Yeah, girls can distract you and absorb a lot of your time. Continue this break until you return from your vacation. Have fun

 

[TheFixer14]

Yeah, girls can distract you and absorb a lot of your time. Continue this break until you return from your vacation. Have fun

That's not really what this post was about. This post went way deeper than that.

 

[Urbanyst]

Being a boyfriend is a thankless job. That's why I'm 32 and none of my LTR's lasted longer than 1 year.

You compromise and do some much work to meet a woman halfway and they just act like that's your job and don't seem to appreciate it much. Even worse, they b*tch about how you're not doing enough. Eventually it reaches a point where the sex on tap isn't worth the energy. Life is hard enough without woman drama.

I'm really at a crossroads right now. Give LTR's one more shot or just be a man wh*re for the foreseeable future. Can't decide.

 

[TheFixer14]

Being a boyfriend is a thankless job. That's why I'm 32 and none of my LTR's lasted longer than 1 year.

You compromise and do some much work to meet a woman halfway and they just act like that's your job and don't seem to appreciate it much. Even worse, they b*tch about how you're not doing enough. Eventually it reaches a point where the sex on tap isn't worth the energy. Life is hard enough without woman drama.

I'm really at a crossroads right now. Give LTR's one more shot or just be a man wh*re for the foreseeable future. Can't decide.

It sucks because both have their pluses and minuses. There is no free lunch with women both literally and figuratively.

Woah, I just realized something; you're a weeb!!! It all makes sense now.

LOL, says the 18 year old boy who wanted to kill his mom after and argument and didn't have the balls to move out so he submitted to her like a b!tch.

 

[ImTheDoubleGreatest!]

LOL, says the 18 year old boy who wanted to kill his mom after and argument and didn't have the balls to move out so he submitted to her like a b!tch.

A bit edgy there m8. It wasn't an insult, or well it wasn't intended to be one anyway. ****, half the weebs I know take that as a compliment. I even watched anime for a while there myself and still occasionally do.

I can guarantee you that if you had my parents, you would either be in prison, addicted to drugs and/or alcohol, or you would have killed yourself. At least, that's all I ever see of the people on the news who had parents similar to mine. Don't talk about something you know nothing about. I'm not gonna spill out my whole life on the internet, that thread didn't even scratch the surface of my life.

 

[TheFixer14]

A bit edgy there m8. It wasn't an insult, or well it wasn't intended to be one anyway. ****, half the weebs I know take that as a compliment. I even watched anime for a while there myself and still occasionally do.

I can guarantee you that if you had my parents, you would either be in prison, addicted to drugs and/or alcohol, or you would have killed yourself. At least, that's all I ever see of the people on the news who had parents similar to mine. Don't talk about something you know nothing about. I'm not gonna spill out my whole life on the internet, that thread didn't even scratch the surface of my life.

. Not edgy. Just telling it like it is mate.


And you are an idiot LOL. I can guarantee that my parents were worst than yours.

 

[ImTheDoubleGreatest!]

. Not edgy. Just telling it like it is mate.


And you are an idiot LOL. I can guarantee that my parents were worst than yours.

Someone's got a bone to pick. You're not very calm are you.

 

[TheFixer14]

Someone's got a bone to pick. You're not very calm are you.

Huh? Now you are just making things up to gain control of the convo. Tsk, tsk. Time for bed.

 

[ImTheDoubleGreatest!]

Huh? Now you are just making things up to gain control of the convo. Tsk, tsk. Time for bed.

Making things up? You can't even remember your own posts in your own thread.

and I am getting more calm.

Sure you are bud. Crazy mood swings, trying to be someone you cannot, always complaining about having to forego women when you yourself are the only common denominator of why you can't see success with them, etc. With all that, are you sure you don't have BPD? You might, I'd be careful if I were you. You might need to take some crazy meds to help remedy that, or at the very least treat it. Or maybe you're just stupid. You know what they say, 'you can't fix stupid'.

 

[Desdinova]

Wow! Look at all the valuable advice in this thread! I should close it before we learn too much.