Day 27.
@BeTheChange, good for you for posting here and not sending her drunk texts! You will get better and you truly are a catch, you just have to let time do it's thing.
I'm trying to survive my 4th serious break up and, honestly, I'm not feeling okay but I know I will get there someday. I survived previous break-ups, I continued living my life, became a better person after each girlfriend and it will happen this time too.
I don't know why, but I'm not getting better over time as I've expected. Yesterday, I found out my ex has a new girlfriend... I'm here thinking how it's just a rebound but after us being long-distance and now her finding someone in her city, I honestly think they will last. The girl is nothing like me - alternative looks, piercings, anime style (Nothing she could bring home to her grandma and introduce as a friend like she did with me. Her grandma fu*king fell in love with me!), doesn't go to college (unlike me, future med)...
They are all over each other now and it makes me doubt my worth but I know that's just my ego hurt. As soon as the clouds of emotions settle down, I'm gonna see what a catch I am.
I also decided to move to a bigger city next year after finishing college, I'm gonna start fresh and find my first job in a hospital. Currently, I cry almost every day, medicate myself with ice cream and romantic movies about breakups (Forgetting Sarah Marshall was great!), and studying for a big exam I have in September...
Never give up yourself guys. Never.
EDIT: I know I am doing the right thing here, not her. She jumped into a new relationship when she already has emotional problems, and I am here dealing with my emotions in a way to HEAL not RUN from them. She maybe won the battle but I will win the war.