I started reading the thread at the beginning, skipped the middle and caught up to the stuff at the end since so many users came and went. 18 days of NC thus far and...well, it feels fine I guess.
I don't have time to tell the entire story, but I'll share what I can at the moment. I dated this gorgeous girl for essentially two years, broke up, still had sex after, however she would get upset half the time. There was a time when she came over just to have sex with me and then leave. She said she only wants to be friends, but I can't do that. Before No contact started, she was giving me mixed signals. I told her she should think about it..and we almost got back together, but of course she then went strange on me. After she thought about it, she decided she didn't want to be in a relationship with me and I told her that we can't be friends. She got upset..well we were both upset and after a couple hours on the phone, she hangs up and I called her repeatedly..constantly for the next 20 minutes with no pick up...Since that night, I've not tried to contact her.
The reason we broke up was..well, it's complicated. There was no cheating or anyone else involved. We have a lot of things in common, but apparently she doesn't think our problem has any way of being resolved. Either way, I feel pretty strongly about my NC position. If she wants to talk, she can get ahold of me, but she is the most stubborn person I've ever known..so I doubt she will, but we'll see. I'm confident she's missing me at the moment, but She had it good with me. From the things I did for her, to the things I did TO her, she had no complaints. Apparently I wasn't there for her when she needed someone to talk to, but she was a very quiet and reclusive woman that always needed time to herself before she would let me in...if she'd let me in.
Anyway, I went through the phase of pleading and begging, and I know for a fact she wont find a guy nearly as good as me especially in the town she lives in. Not tooting my own horn, but I have a lot going for me. Intelligence, looks, character...I guess I'm just waiting to see how long it'll take her to realize she screwed up. If she doesn't ever come back..well, too bad, so sad.
Keep up the NC y'all, don't ever let them get one over on you. They reel you in good like a fish on a line and make you feel all sappy and fall for them, then they drop you into a bucket with the rest they've caught...but b*tch just didn't know...I've always been the one that got away.