Goals for the week:
1. Say Hi and make a short conversation with atleast one person in every class. 2/5
2. Ask atleast 1 girl for her number.
3. Schedule a meeting in September with an academic advisor.
Goals For Monday:
1. Order my last two books. cuz my order got cancelled. Dun
2. Call my schools employment center Didn't have the time, I started doing homework as soon as I got home and by the time I was done it was already late. Will do it this week though.
3. Start resume. (I'll save you the excuses. I'll just actually do it tomorrow. and if I don't, as punishment, on Tuesday I'll hit on the first 20 girls I see) Writing it right now, just stopped to update journal. Gonna sleep soon though so will continue it tomorrow.
Had a pretty good day. Sat in front during my first class, pretty cool guy. Seems laid back and like an easy class. Talked to a couple people. After that, my prof for engineering cancelled class today. During my hour off, I toured the campus a little, then sat on a bench and read a few pages of Starting Strength. left, then actually met some old classmates. Really cool cuz so far I hadn't seen anyone I knew. I asked some friends to come with me to the gym later.
One of my friends a year ahead of me had a job at a preschool. I told him I wanted to get a job soon. He said the preschool jobs pretty cool. Pays $8 an hour. He said they were looking for guys for the job. Also said that if I wanted it he'd recommend me. I aimed my resume towards this job. But idk if I want the job yet. I like kids but preschoolers might be too chaotic for me to handle. If I see him tomorrow I'll ask him about the job more.
Went to precalc 2. Seems like a cool guy as well, and judging from the syllabus it's stuff I've had experience with so might be an easy class. I really wanted to get into Calc and was kinda pissed that I got placed into precalc but I think it might be good for me. I had a bad math teacher in 10th grade and didn't really understand some fundamentals I should have.
Went to the gym too, worst part of my day. I waited for one friend, when he got there he told me he didnt want to go to the gym today. So dammit, gonna have to do this alone. My other friend never showed up. It was really f*cking intimidating. All these f*cking huge guys and then theres me the weak new guy.I'm just looking around trying to figure out where the appropriate place is to do my workout (pretty much just where to deadlift and OHP). Most people were doing machines and benchpresses. Didn't see anyone doing deadlifts or OHP. There were a ton of f*cking machines. And it was kind of crowded. Sh*t ton of people using the squat racks and power lifting racks so I decide to do bench press instead of OHP today. For some reason I forgot how to count and ended up putting like 120 lbs on a bench. Hardly lifted it then realised i put too much weight on, de racked. Tried 100 lbs for some reason still forgot how to count. de racked. Went down to the weight I did at home. Pushed it up and brought down to my chest and holy sh*t. I couldn't f*cking lift it back up. The freaking bars at the gym were like 30 lbs by themselves. So I was pretty much trying to lift about 30 lbs over last week. I had to do the roll of the shame to get the bar off my body. Some dude asked me if I needed help right as I got it off. F*ck that was embarrassing lol my legs were like kicking and sh!t trying to get it off...
Anyways,put up 1 plate of 25 lbs on each side. Try to lift it. It's manageable but still heavy. First two sets i did 5 reps. Last 3 I started struggling and shaking and sh*t. Decided to do 3 reps instead of 5 for the last sets. I didn't want to de rack again cuz so far, I've wasted ALOT of time on that bench press. Lol also I'm kinda weird during rest periods. Like idk what the hell to do while I rest I just end up staring at people do their workouts like a psychopath.
Asked people if they were done doing their workout while walking around to see if I could use a bar that no one was using and just generally staring at ppl. Powerlifting rack was done being used. This time I decided to warm up first, and just squatted the bar. Then added 20 lbs on each side. So I guess around 70 lbs in all. On last set, a guy asked me if I was almost done. Told him I had 1 set left. Started standing around waiting for me, kinda awkward especially since I was resting and not doing thing. I just decided to quickly do my last set so this guy can use the rack. Had 1 workout left: deadlifts. Had no idea where to do them... I guess the best place would've maybe been the powerlifting rack, but I just let the guy have it. It was crowded still and I didn't wanna wait so I just decide to deadlifts at home later.
Yeah, it was pretty embarrassing. But I'm going back on Wednesday hopefully it turns out better. I'm just gonna try to not care about looking stupid on wednesday. You gotta start somewhere, and everyone at the gym has something they have to work in. I just gotta realize that all these awkward feelings I get are just in my head, that probably no one gives a sh*t that I'm new, no ones watching me. So yeah looking forward to Wednesday.
Before I left campus, I surprisingly saw Wendy walking. I Said Hi, she was lost and I helped her find her class. Made small talk, gave me an awkward hug when I left. I went for a handshake and she gave me hug. Gotta get used to kino... Not really a touchy person. I deleted her number from my phone a while back, thought about asking for it again, but opted out. There's nothing there so would've been pointless.
Went home started doing homework that was due Friday. It was just a diagnostic test, but I spent time relearning some Calculus stuff. So took like 3 hours.Then ordered my books. Started writing resume, and now I'm writing this. It's almost 11 so I'm gonna sleep pretty soon... Tomorrow I'm going to the gym again, but I'm not weightlifting tomorrow. I asked some people if they wanted to play some basketball tomorrow hopefully they come tomorrow.