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Don Juan
- Joined
- Oct 21, 2018
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- Age
- 29
I managed to get by my last 3 years of life decently, but I always have these random moods like once a month or a couple of months...
Where I just wanna drink and not talk to anybody. But I really haven't thought about it much. People close to me kinda got used to me doing this.
But then a friend of mine (girl), told me this **** about bipolar disorder, and I was like no I'm not, but then she tells me that's why sometimes I'm very positive and nobody can stop me from moving mountains, but then there are times where I kinda like hibernate, first times I was very depressed, now I don't really get depressed but I must break myself from the world and just have some time with me.. and maybe during this time I feel nostalgic but that doesn't mean I'm crazy or something..
And then I read about cyclothymia and hypomania and there are several congenerous stuff and..
I feel like I must stop drinking at all, like not even one drop of alcohol.. and lower the smoke quantity.. and just bear with my ****..
Theoretically I should consult a specialist, but I would rather study the case myself rather than going into some mainstream doctor that is going to pop pills into me like a machine...
My question is for you, guys, how do you bear with ur **** and with ur ****ty moods ? I must be not the only one experiencing this. Maybe I'm not sick. Maybe I'm just spoiled and I don't know how to take my ****.. and this is all normal..
altought it feels a bit too hard for normal stuff.. if normal stuff is this hard I don't even want to imagine what hard to bear with stuff looks like..
Where I just wanna drink and not talk to anybody. But I really haven't thought about it much. People close to me kinda got used to me doing this.
But then a friend of mine (girl), told me this **** about bipolar disorder, and I was like no I'm not, but then she tells me that's why sometimes I'm very positive and nobody can stop me from moving mountains, but then there are times where I kinda like hibernate, first times I was very depressed, now I don't really get depressed but I must break myself from the world and just have some time with me.. and maybe during this time I feel nostalgic but that doesn't mean I'm crazy or something..
And then I read about cyclothymia and hypomania and there are several congenerous stuff and..
I feel like I must stop drinking at all, like not even one drop of alcohol.. and lower the smoke quantity.. and just bear with my ****..
Theoretically I should consult a specialist, but I would rather study the case myself rather than going into some mainstream doctor that is going to pop pills into me like a machine...
My question is for you, guys, how do you bear with ur **** and with ur ****ty moods ? I must be not the only one experiencing this. Maybe I'm not sick. Maybe I'm just spoiled and I don't know how to take my ****.. and this is all normal..
altought it feels a bit too hard for normal stuff.. if normal stuff is this hard I don't even want to imagine what hard to bear with stuff looks like..