So a lot has happened this summer for me.
Late June:
A friend of mine moved back to my place with his new girlfriend.
I finished my exams.
I decided to hit the gym furiously. Did so for about 2 weeks
After 2 weeks of smashing the gym, doing a little kickboxing and going out with my friend and his girlfriend, I got a chicks wanting to feel my pecks, getting make-outs, numbers, etc.
July:
2 weeks after that I boned some older chick, simply because she was incredibly easy and it was all discrete. I would never let anyone see me with that chick, and I dumped her immediately the next morning.
A week or 2 after that, I boned a hot norwegian chick in her 20's in my own appartment. My friend's girlfriend seemed impressed.
September:
Few weeks later, met a nice American chick from NYC, she couldn't get into her airBnB appartment, so I offered to help her try the key, and in exchange she would buy us some shots.
Took her to a bar, the barman gave me plenty of free drinks and I got a make-out. I brought her to the appartment, but wasn't allowed in. Talked to an older lady friend of mine, and she clarified that the American chick apparantly went with me because she trusted me. So in the end that's a redeeming quality and a virtue I suppose.
On a given friday, I was helping out at the bar, and a chick wanted to make out with me, but I refused cuz I had chapped up lips. She gave me her number. Texted her the next day, and sparingly throughout the week.
Then next sunday night a friend of mine, who's 35, and incredibly BPD, appeared at the bar. I politely asked her if me and my roommate could join her, we did, and at the end she joined us to my place for beers. I fvcked her all night long and she left me in shock the next day. Was the craziest night of my life.
The friday after, the one from previous friday called me, I met her at the crossroads, took her home. She was giving me a slight attitude (which my compulsively AMOG roommate apparantly failed to recognize), but since we were all having fun, I boned her pretty good in the end.
Wednesday after, I fvcked another chick in her 30's. This one was really wild and fun to fvck. Did it twice in the shower, then on the couch I slapped her ass while she fingered herself and she came. Her ass was red-hot at the end.
So I realized after that, that I liked the one from friday the best, and texted her on thursday. We kept tryin to meet up, we made plans, I blew it off, cuz she was giving me an attitude through text, then we still met up anyways because she wanted to. This time it was another friday. I went to see her at a bar, she was with 2 dudes (her text telling me to come see her was pretty rude tbh... sigh), still went to say hi, since it was only 1 min from where I was at. We made out, we made plans to meet the next day, and I had to go back ot the other bar to work. I told her she could come lateron, but we couldn't make out. So she appears and when it's time to go she wants to make out. I am quite hesitant cuz I don't want to do that in front of the boss - cuz I know he'll think I'm drunk if I'm making out with chicks - so she felt rejected and left. Basic manipulation tactics, I know.
I still went outside to kiss her outside, but she had disappeared.
The next day, I texted her at like 6-7 to ask what was going on. Well apparantly she was gonna stay home because I didn't text her any sooner.
So as frustrated as I am, I go to my neighbour, and he tells me to just text her: "np sweetheart, good night", so I did.
Still feel like I've been had.
Soon as that happened I was internally so pissed off, that I just went to fvck a prostitute the next day or so, and immediately I could feel my alphaness go down the drain.
I remember after fvcking those 3 chicks in september, I felt like a boss at school, and was noticing all the extra attention I was gettin from chicks, even though I had only slept 2 hours (and fvcked a *****).
Now that I fvcked a ho I just feel weaker in general. Especially because it was a consolidation ho that I fvcked because I had lost the upper hand with some bar-*****.
I've enrolled at the kickboxing gym already since then, and started focusing much more on school and keeping my house clean. There are plenty of positive directions I can channel my frustration at.
Late June:
A friend of mine moved back to my place with his new girlfriend.
I finished my exams.
I decided to hit the gym furiously. Did so for about 2 weeks
After 2 weeks of smashing the gym, doing a little kickboxing and going out with my friend and his girlfriend, I got a chicks wanting to feel my pecks, getting make-outs, numbers, etc.
July:
2 weeks after that I boned some older chick, simply because she was incredibly easy and it was all discrete. I would never let anyone see me with that chick, and I dumped her immediately the next morning.
A week or 2 after that, I boned a hot norwegian chick in her 20's in my own appartment. My friend's girlfriend seemed impressed.
September:
Few weeks later, met a nice American chick from NYC, she couldn't get into her airBnB appartment, so I offered to help her try the key, and in exchange she would buy us some shots.
Took her to a bar, the barman gave me plenty of free drinks and I got a make-out. I brought her to the appartment, but wasn't allowed in. Talked to an older lady friend of mine, and she clarified that the American chick apparantly went with me because she trusted me. So in the end that's a redeeming quality and a virtue I suppose.
On a given friday, I was helping out at the bar, and a chick wanted to make out with me, but I refused cuz I had chapped up lips. She gave me her number. Texted her the next day, and sparingly throughout the week.
Then next sunday night a friend of mine, who's 35, and incredibly BPD, appeared at the bar. I politely asked her if me and my roommate could join her, we did, and at the end she joined us to my place for beers. I fvcked her all night long and she left me in shock the next day. Was the craziest night of my life.
The friday after, the one from previous friday called me, I met her at the crossroads, took her home. She was giving me a slight attitude (which my compulsively AMOG roommate apparantly failed to recognize), but since we were all having fun, I boned her pretty good in the end.
Wednesday after, I fvcked another chick in her 30's. This one was really wild and fun to fvck. Did it twice in the shower, then on the couch I slapped her ass while she fingered herself and she came. Her ass was red-hot at the end.
So I realized after that, that I liked the one from friday the best, and texted her on thursday. We kept tryin to meet up, we made plans, I blew it off, cuz she was giving me an attitude through text, then we still met up anyways because she wanted to. This time it was another friday. I went to see her at a bar, she was with 2 dudes (her text telling me to come see her was pretty rude tbh... sigh), still went to say hi, since it was only 1 min from where I was at. We made out, we made plans to meet the next day, and I had to go back ot the other bar to work. I told her she could come lateron, but we couldn't make out. So she appears and when it's time to go she wants to make out. I am quite hesitant cuz I don't want to do that in front of the boss - cuz I know he'll think I'm drunk if I'm making out with chicks - so she felt rejected and left. Basic manipulation tactics, I know.
I still went outside to kiss her outside, but she had disappeared.
The next day, I texted her at like 6-7 to ask what was going on. Well apparantly she was gonna stay home because I didn't text her any sooner.
So as frustrated as I am, I go to my neighbour, and he tells me to just text her: "np sweetheart, good night", so I did.
Still feel like I've been had.
Soon as that happened I was internally so pissed off, that I just went to fvck a prostitute the next day or so, and immediately I could feel my alphaness go down the drain.
I remember after fvcking those 3 chicks in september, I felt like a boss at school, and was noticing all the extra attention I was gettin from chicks, even though I had only slept 2 hours (and fvcked a *****).
Now that I fvcked a ho I just feel weaker in general. Especially because it was a consolidation ho that I fvcked because I had lost the upper hand with some bar-*****.
I've enrolled at the kickboxing gym already since then, and started focusing much more on school and keeping my house clean. There are plenty of positive directions I can channel my frustration at.
