Guys, thanks a lot for your attention to this. So after some more thought and final analysis, I'm going to stick with my original plan.
- I'm going to reschedule the procedure to get done most likely in December as they are booked up for November.
- I'm withdrawing from having any sex with any woman until the procedure is done and the follow-up procedures are completed.
Based on my analysis over my prior relationships, current relationships, current standing, the women I get, the women I could potentially get, their behaviors, their fickle behaviors, their unpredictable behaviors, their pluses, their minuses....the whole nine yards, I believe I have the following:
- A 55% - 60% chance of it turning into a bad situation full of drama, excessive costs, limited time with the child, etc. I can't deal with this and I can't live with this. I will snap and kill somebody, and I'm serious. So I can't have my life end up here or it's basically suicide.
- A 25% chance of it turning into a majority good situation, where I have the pseudo family structure, love, happiness, the whole nine yards.
- A 15% - 20% chance of it being a combination of happy and bad, which means it might start happy and turn bad towards the end.
The reality is that if the bad situation happens, I can't live with that, it will be like my life is over because I can't deal with that level of stress. If the happy situation occurs, it will be GOOD or OKAY, but I can honestly LIVE WITHOUT it. It's not like it's going to be some life-fulfilling shyt for me or something to where I just "have to have it" so bad to where I will risk the bad situation.
So that's where I stand. I'm not telling you guys to do what I'm doing, because hell, somebody has got to produce children. It's just not going to be in my life's plans.
If I produce children, I'm going to have to live with the possibility of the bad situation full of drama, the woman being a bytch, etc. There's a lot of guys on this Forum that are currently dealing with this and LIVING through it. I can't live through it. I'm the type to where I will physically assault the woman, kill the woman, or something similar. Some guys just aren't "cut out" to deal with that bullshyt, and I'm one of them. And if I'm realistically going to produce children, I have to just be WILLING to deal with a bad situation if it arises...and I'm not cut out for that shyt.