Ugh... Hangovers DO NOT Help NC

[Johnny Alias]

Just needed to vent here. Went out with new chick last night. Drank a lot. Banged her. Sex was pretty good. She's fawning all over me. Probably a stage 5 clinger.

So that was all well and good, but I'm currently at work, hungover, and thinking of the EX.

Alcohol goes from being your best friend to your WORST enemy. Serotonin and Dopamine levels shot to shvt. SHE is lurking. SHE is like a song I can't get out of my head. OCD behavior tends to rise when when you're hungover so be warned about that... no matter how well you were doing the day or week before... her ugly demonic visage can rise up much easier and stick around like an annoying houseguest...

The cluster B chicks sink their teeth into you and don't let go even after they're gone...

No I haven't broken NC. That's permanent now. She's dead to me. A ghost. A robot. Everything she did for four years was an Academy Award winning ACT. Thank god she's older than me by 5 years and wasting away. If she was my age I'd be in some purty shvt.

I loved someone who never existed... course I guess that was myself since she was just mirroring my behavior... and loving me is great but I don't have Double D Cans...

She was GOOD... then EVIL. 80% of the time when drinking... I'd say she was just an alcoholic if it weren't for the other many symptoms I've mentioned before. Did you know cluster B's have an insanely high rate of co-occurring substance abuse issues? It's as high as 60% in some cases.

So fricking brainwashed... feel like a member of a damned cult. EVERYONE I KNOW, including her old friends, think I smart to get away from her abusive drunk ass. I'm not one to wish ill will on anyone but if god dropped a meteor on her for some closure it would be... well... a godsend.

Ah bollocks. I've got dates with four different chicks over the next week and then its vacation time... remove myself from the scene of the crime. That'll help. Also started reading the DJ Bible today. That's helping...

Ugh. Need exercise, sweat, and sleep. Not a very insightful post, but like I say I needed to get this out. Cheers.

 

[Peaks&Valleys]

Alcohol goes from being your best friend to your WORST enemy. Serotonin and Dopamine levels shot to shvt.

It also causes anxiety, which may be a direct correlation. In turn your confidence goes down and you become vulnerable. When you're older, and have a lot more stresses and responsibilities, it's what can lead to alcoholism. Simply not wanting to deal with those "down" times, so you keep drinking night after night. It's a bad cycle to get into.

 

[:-)]

true. stay clean, stay healthy. the best cure for any oneitis.

 

[VladPatton]

Only drink enough to get that minor buzz. The perfect "feel good" zone. Once you go past that it's a world of hurt and puking. Not cool. It shows a loss of control. If you can't find that sweet spot, then stop altogether.

 

[Johnny Alias]

Good advice. It's messing with my mind and my workouts.