Long story short, my Gf was the model Gf for 2 years...i am still only the 2nd guy she has been with her entire life...gave me massages every night....frequently bought me gifts and food...always standing by me and always wanting sex...well the wanting sex could be too much at times...but still....but then i began cheating on her multiple times and she found out....her feelings changed..we fixed it...and it was back to normal...but i got complacent and cheated again...multiple times including once in front of her when i was drunk...took another girl to a hotel from the bar and she came there after suspecting that i was there to witness it herself....her feelings really changed this time.....fixed it a little but now she just can't trust me and as a result she isn't nearly the same toward me as she used to be.
More disrespectful acting and snappy an demanding....and it's countered by "you did this to us...i can't control my feelings..you pushed me past my limit..i have almost nothing left"
Normally i would have dumped a girl at the first signs of disrespect..but the truth is, she is completely right, it's my fault and her actions and feelings are actually justified...she was the perfect GF until i treated her like crap time and time again and has put up with a lot...i want to break it off with her, but at the same time i have all these feelings of guilt doing so and all of these thoughts of how badly i treated her and changed things...we would always go on huge trips together and were pretty much best friends as well....
No matter how many new girls I get with they can't replace this...and the more girls i get with, i realize 99.9 percent of them are ONLY good for sex...they are so boring, materialistic, shallow and dull to be with after the sex is finished....
It feels like hanging out with a plastic doll or something...i just want them to get out of my room as soon as we are finished banging...i actually had a real gem and i took it for granted many times...now i don't think there is any resolving it.....just need to man up an do what needs to be done..and my desire to bang new random women is dwindling...i have been averaging about 2-3 girls a week now for the past few months...it was a lot of fun at first, but now it's starting to actually get old...would have never imagined that before...
Feels like my dog got rabies because of me somehow and now i have to shoot it or something...that's the only thing i can compare it to.....but it seems like the right thing to do for not only me but especially her as well is to let go and finally cut if off for good.
In the future i won't ever cheat again..it just feel bad after a while and really wears on your conscience after a while.
More disrespectful acting and snappy an demanding....and it's countered by "you did this to us...i can't control my feelings..you pushed me past my limit..i have almost nothing left"
Normally i would have dumped a girl at the first signs of disrespect..but the truth is, she is completely right, it's my fault and her actions and feelings are actually justified...she was the perfect GF until i treated her like crap time and time again and has put up with a lot...i want to break it off with her, but at the same time i have all these feelings of guilt doing so and all of these thoughts of how badly i treated her and changed things...we would always go on huge trips together and were pretty much best friends as well....
No matter how many new girls I get with they can't replace this...and the more girls i get with, i realize 99.9 percent of them are ONLY good for sex...they are so boring, materialistic, shallow and dull to be with after the sex is finished....
It feels like hanging out with a plastic doll or something...i just want them to get out of my room as soon as we are finished banging...i actually had a real gem and i took it for granted many times...now i don't think there is any resolving it.....just need to man up an do what needs to be done..and my desire to bang new random women is dwindling...i have been averaging about 2-3 girls a week now for the past few months...it was a lot of fun at first, but now it's starting to actually get old...would have never imagined that before...
Feels like my dog got rabies because of me somehow and now i have to shoot it or something...that's the only thing i can compare it to.....but it seems like the right thing to do for not only me but especially her as well is to let go and finally cut if off for good.
In the future i won't ever cheat again..it just feel bad after a while and really wears on your conscience after a while.
