Lost
Master Don Juan
No im not talking about Money.
I actually have a question
It just came up in my mind today, and worries me a bit.
I noticed a trend, and that is why i thought of this.
The first one was with sosuave. I would come here everyday, over 2 years ago, reading stuff and whatnot, sort of like i was addicted or something. It became what i thought about most of the time. I began to think that one of my lifetime goals was that id be able to approach women. Anyways, sosuave seemed to be a big "interest" i guess you would say of mine.
I think the next one may have been with guitar, or even any forums in general. But for instance playing guitar. Anything that i was around a lot, say i read the forum every day.. it seemed like i would take an interest in. I noticed how i used to like skateboarding for instance, altho i dont do it anymore, but if i saw it on tv it would get me kinda amped and want to skateboard again. but it wasnt like i was serious, it was almost like the television fooled me into thinking i was gonna like it..
Then, the next one is where i have the real dillemma with. Surfing. No, not the internet, but real Surfing. As in the ocean. I actually picked it up in 8th grade ( im in college now). Well it took me years before i got the hang of standing up(actually it was mainly after changing boards to a good one and watching a 15 second clip about standing up). Anyways, in the summer time i would do it a lot. I dont remember why at first, but i said that i was gonna be doing it every day. I definately enjoyed the beach. I like the sun. I like chicks in little clothing. And i like how the sun felt on my skin. But what about the actual surfing?
Thats what i started to like and became the embodiment of why i went to the beach. Well for that summer, and even into the weekends of the skool year id go surfing. The ocean was always there, and friends werent. Eventually i got in a car crash and wasnt aloud to go surfing for a very long time. Some time the next year i got another car handydown and started going again. And in the summer it was back to the same go surfing every day routine. I got used to the habit, and id go any hour of the day(whether it was late or 5 am.. i just wanted to go.. even if the conditions were horrible). Id even stay out for VERY long periods of time, up to 9 hours, with no food, and completely no rest. I really enjoyed everything about surfing. I enjoyed how i could talk to the ppl so much easier than people on land. I liked being in the ocean. I liked how natural surfing was. How waves seem to come out of no where, and they are not created by man. Its not like snowboarding or skateboarding. And just gliding on a wave seemed really fun. Heck, just typing up those reasons is starting to make me think the reasoning im about to tell you is wrong, but ill get to the point.
The point is, im wondering if me doing something so much, making a habit(and that something is surfing), is what made me like it, or do i really actually love it? Because for a while i was thinking surfing was my passion. In fact thats my motivation to get good grades to get a high paying job. So that i can live in a nice place such as california or hawaii and go surfing often.
For anyone who had patience to read this far, what do you think?
I actually have a question
It just came up in my mind today, and worries me a bit.
I noticed a trend, and that is why i thought of this.
The first one was with sosuave. I would come here everyday, over 2 years ago, reading stuff and whatnot, sort of like i was addicted or something. It became what i thought about most of the time. I began to think that one of my lifetime goals was that id be able to approach women. Anyways, sosuave seemed to be a big "interest" i guess you would say of mine.
I think the next one may have been with guitar, or even any forums in general. But for instance playing guitar. Anything that i was around a lot, say i read the forum every day.. it seemed like i would take an interest in. I noticed how i used to like skateboarding for instance, altho i dont do it anymore, but if i saw it on tv it would get me kinda amped and want to skateboard again. but it wasnt like i was serious, it was almost like the television fooled me into thinking i was gonna like it..
Then, the next one is where i have the real dillemma with. Surfing. No, not the internet, but real Surfing. As in the ocean. I actually picked it up in 8th grade ( im in college now). Well it took me years before i got the hang of standing up(actually it was mainly after changing boards to a good one and watching a 15 second clip about standing up). Anyways, in the summer time i would do it a lot. I dont remember why at first, but i said that i was gonna be doing it every day. I definately enjoyed the beach. I like the sun. I like chicks in little clothing. And i like how the sun felt on my skin. But what about the actual surfing?
Thats what i started to like and became the embodiment of why i went to the beach. Well for that summer, and even into the weekends of the skool year id go surfing. The ocean was always there, and friends werent. Eventually i got in a car crash and wasnt aloud to go surfing for a very long time. Some time the next year i got another car handydown and started going again. And in the summer it was back to the same go surfing every day routine. I got used to the habit, and id go any hour of the day(whether it was late or 5 am.. i just wanted to go.. even if the conditions were horrible). Id even stay out for VERY long periods of time, up to 9 hours, with no food, and completely no rest. I really enjoyed everything about surfing. I enjoyed how i could talk to the ppl so much easier than people on land. I liked being in the ocean. I liked how natural surfing was. How waves seem to come out of no where, and they are not created by man. Its not like snowboarding or skateboarding. And just gliding on a wave seemed really fun. Heck, just typing up those reasons is starting to make me think the reasoning im about to tell you is wrong, but ill get to the point.
The point is, im wondering if me doing something so much, making a habit(and that something is surfing), is what made me like it, or do i really actually love it? Because for a while i was thinking surfing was my passion. In fact thats my motivation to get good grades to get a high paying job. So that i can live in a nice place such as california or hawaii and go surfing often.
For anyone who had patience to read this far, what do you think?