Thoughts on depression, progression to who you should be

[Sexual]

I have a feeling depression has a lot to do with the fact that you're not doing all that you feel you could be capable of. I see these commercials on tv... and they make it seem like depression is what holds you back from your life--the opposite.

I look at these two posts... The Truth About Women and The Gunwitch Method.

With all of my success with women, I'm still unable to find the balls to become this man. I'm sick of ONS and LTR and all of the stupid emotions that come with them. I'm tired of good guys and morals and restrictions. I know what I have to do--it's here in front of me.

Is it a dependency on alcohol? A clinical problem i.e. depression? Is religion so embedded in my skull that I can't see past it? What did you do to suddenly make that drastic change to find the inner courage instead of liquid courage? How many times do you slap yourself and splash your face with water until you suddenly see the bright light to lead you on to greatness?

My goal is to first memorize 'The Truth About Women', because memorization of the 'Gunwitch Method' has been whatever I read before I go out. It works by raising my confidence level but I keep breaking rules of pride, anger, letting manipulation happen, not taking responsibility... I know those are vague, but I pulled it from the text--everything else I have right, but these seem to be detrimental to my progression.

 

[SharinganUser]

1) you need to stop drinking.

2) You need to start doing the things that will make you more successful. Forget about trying to figure out girls right now. You need to concentrate on helping yourself. You shouldn't measure yourself by how many people (expecially women) like you.

 

[Sexual]

I'm about to get a bachelors degree. I'm a bodybuilder that skydives in my free time and have good friends. Loads of women love me... I mean, I'm dating like 6-8 and am sleeping with like 3 of them, and I constantly drop one and add another.

I've done everything under the sun besides completely stopping the drinking. Parties and clubs are the easiest resources for women in this city.

I guess it's just not the women I want, which aren't at the clubs. Maybe it's the major I don't have, which is unchangeable as a transfer student.... hmmm.... maybe I should try and get out of college sooner so I can move? Maybe it's this college city.

 

[Sexual]

This is a reply two months later. I nearly figured it out.

Before I start this paragraph I want to briefly explain one of my extremely peculiar quirks that also could be something to factor in. I associate tall women as consorts and it pushes me away. Long, possibily humorous story behind that, but moving on.

I was walking past a woman two days ago on campus and she was a 9. Not just in her looks though as in the way that I've judged the few nines that I've hooked up with, but she for damn sure was different in my eyes. She was tall, extremely congenial in figure and appearance, style, and had a commanding presense.

I stopped after my three second analysis and considered why I let her walk past. It wasn't fear that kept me walking.
It was the fact that I didn't need her to satisfy my sexual or social needs and maybe I was hinted at her integrity.

But then I figured out what I don't have--what is that other need that I'm missing in my life that isn't being satisfied? The feeling of accomplishment felt nearly close to what I was aiming at. But that wasn't it...

Any insight on what's going on here would be extremely helpful.

 

[Sir Juanalot]

This is a reply two months later. I nearly figured it out.

Before I start this paragraph I want to briefly explain one of my extremely peculiar quirks that also could be something to factor in. I associate tall women as consorts and it pushes me away. Long, possibily humorous story behind that, but moving on.

I was walking past a woman two days ago on campus and she was a 9. Not just in her looks though as in the way that I've judged the few nines that I've hooked up with, but she for damn sure was different in my eyes. She was tall, extremely congenial in figure and appearance, style, and had a commanding presense.

I stopped after my three second analysis and considered why I let her walk past. It wasn't fear that kept me walking.
It was the fact that I didn't need her to satisfy my sexual or social needs and maybe I was hinted at her integrity.

But then I figured out what I don't have--what is that other need that I'm missing in my life that isn't being satisfied? The feeling of accomplishment felt nearly close to what I was aiming at. But that wasn't it...

Any insight on what's going on here would be extremely helpful.

It's quite easy to stare at the things you dont have, while completely missing the things you do.

What you do seem to be missing, is being comfortable and happy being you, that comes from within.

Read the prophet and other books on finding yourself, look inside to find the answers you are looking for.

You wont find them anywhere else, in booze, in women, in drugs, in money, in possessions, in religion. Until you are completely comfortable being you, your foundations are weak in everything you do.

(Excuse the philosophical ramblings - i hope they are of help).

 

[Sexual]

I think I wouldn't have gotten it better if you hadn't used philosophical ramblings. Maybe it is as simple as that? The girls I'm with are that which I don't have because I've already had them. Whew.

I guess I really don't know myself. It's like the movie Anger Management.

"Who are you?" "Well, I like sports, skydiving, literature, playing music..."
"No, not your hobbies, who are you?" "I guess I'm a good guy, I like pursuing women and pursuing my education..."
"Not what you like to do, we want to know who you are."
"I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU WANT ME TO SAY!!!"

Maybe I have anger management problems lol... :crazy:

The Prophet reminds me of the Teachings of Don Juan, as in the Arrow of Time. I don't believe in finding fulfillment by realizing deeper truths.

 

[Sir Juanalot]

I think I wouldn't have gotten it better if you hadn't used philosophical ramblings. Maybe it is as simple as that? The girls I'm with are that which I don't have because I've already had them. Whew.

I guess I really don't know myself. It's like the movie Anger Management.

"Who are you?" "Well, I like sports, skydiving, literature, playing music..."
"No, not your hobbies, who are you?" "I guess I'm a good guy, I like pursuing women and pursuing my education..."
"Not what you like to do, we want to know who you are."
"I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU WANT ME TO SAY!!!"

Maybe I have anger management problems lol... :crazy:

The Prophet reminds me of the Teachings of Don Juan, as in the Arrow of Time. I don't believe in finding fulfillment by realizing deeper truths.

What do you believe in? not talking god n shizzle, what are your drives, ambitions etc?

 

[Sexual]

I have some resolve outside of this board. I think I can close this. Thanks for inputs!